‘‘Keeping Score” Blog #60

Nobody has any idea how much we all have in common with each other. Just hearing

that fact can be comforting. We get up in the morning. We get dressed. We eat. We

have thoughts throughout the day. STOP

“We have thoughts throughout the day”. This is the biggest sentence that separates

us all. What ARE we thinking about? What gets us motivated? What keeps us stuck?

Are there any of you out there that have been hurt by someone?

I would venture to say “all of us have been hurt by someone, sometime, somewhere.

Yet, how does that work? Who gets to move on and who stays stuck in the muck? Even

yesterday is in the past. Anything we did or did not do yesterday is gone now. Yes, if we

hurt someone and we are aware and want to bring forgiveness Into place, We can

state, “I’m genuinely sorry for hurting you”.

If the time is not right. If the person is not ready. There first must be truth. Then there

must be accountability. THEN there must be the “actual action of showing remorse”.

So, keeping score? Hmmmm. Is this just a means to NO end? Where in lies the good?

All that energy spent on what, and for how long? Someone might say - “but I need to

remember how many times they hurt me!”

I would say to that, and remember to ask yourself, “how many times will I hurt ME?”

When we are in the wrong place, at the wrong time with the wrong person, it’s noisy and

complicated and energy is irritable. Still truth IS there. The quiet, subtle, honest voice of

truth is there, waiting.

Honest, cold truth is never loud. It’s ones conscience. THIS is the way we know we ought

to live internally. Quietness only comes into view when we search inward for it. More

often then not, we cannot do this alone. Fear takes over, controls the mind and shuts

the door to truth. Each of us believe we can do it alone. After all, we’ve come this far?

Have we not. But what a bumpy, sad lonely road many of us travel insisting on “our own

way”. We insist we need no one. we set our mind on the way its going to be and that is

that! We keep score of our past, what “we feel” has worked and hasn’t. Who has hurt us!

I step in here quickly and truthfully say this today.

We don’t have to keep score any more. It just doesn’t matter. We don’t have to do it

our own way, its not working anyway. We don’t have to be sad because, HE is waiting for

real. HE is ready to take us into the realm of peace and say, “it’s all okay. It doesn’t

matter where you have been. What you think, because today IF you choose to close

your eyes, fold your hands, I AM here to help.“ See? HE does hear you. He does care for

you.

Only HE is the door and lets you into an awareness you cannot imagine, exists. I know of

a friend that did not talk to their brother for weeks and then the weeks turned into

months and years. Their anger kept them apart. When my friends brother suddenly

had a heart attack, my friend had forgotten what they were angry about in the first

place. So many of us want to do it our way, because we have “free will”. Then we wind

up going full circle to realize this one honest fact. “NOT my will be done Lord, but thy will

be done”. This is where life becomes easier. Keeping Score has a lot to do with my hurt

and anger and a lot of regret. …..can’t seem to let go of, day in and day out ….thinking

…..thinking…thinking…..

I remember being so upset with a family member because they never called me. I kept

score all right, I thought back to the very last day we had talked and I for one was not

going to call them until they could pick up the phone and call me! Look what a good

person I am in their life right? Look how good I have been to them? why should I bend

over backwards.?”

Because NOW is the time when it is MOST important. To humble oneself. To NOT keep

score, just call the number and watch what happens. Don’t second guess it, because

that is keeping score to. It’s not up to me to decide the outcome! Let me tell you why.

So often, more often then not, “it will not be the outcome I THINK it is”. More often then

not, it’s time to call that number, see what happens! WHY? Because life is all about

GIVING not getting. Not keeping score if you called or they called….in the end, this is what

matters, our heart. What matters is my heart. (Now this is not a message for those in

abusive relationships, you should not be in one.) This is all about having a change of

heart with those close to you, becoming the “bigger person”. Showing up for that

person when you really know they can’t show up for you. Finding a time in your day to

just give of yourself and let them hear your voice. Even if you have to leave a message.

Leave a “heartfelt” message, as if it were your last. Do each of us live day in and day out

as though it were our last?

Or are we too busy keeping score, how different would our life be if we just picked up the

phone and called all those people dear to us but are “removed because of judgement

and keeping score”? How different would living be? In abusive family relationships,

where we have tried over and over again to fix things, this is not our job. Our job is only

to keep a truthful door open. Sometimes a simple “check-in call” is all that is needed to

keep the door open. This is our lesson to figure out. Regarding our children until they

are 18 and living at home, it is up to us as parents to let them feel our love

unconditionally. Sometimes family members are stuck in darkness and an illusion of the

way it is. We need to continue to reach out with truth. We might want to say to a family

member, “nothing you can do will make me stop loving you, so stop trying.” “Your family

will never be in your way, they ARE the way to understanding your truth.”

“Can I pray to stop keeping score today and forgive?”

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“Tough Choices” Blog #59

What is a hard choice I have put off, but I need to make? What is unhealthy in my life

that gets my attention now? How can I do the right thing, when its just too hard?

Every one of the questions above have to do with one thing, using my healthy mind.

For most of my life when I was younger, I took my own health for granted. I never really

thought about whether I felt good or bad or how I treated my own body. Everything in

my life depended on the mood I was in at the time, this dictated what I would do. As I

look back its amazing how I took the things I drank and the food I ate, for granted.

Cheeseburgers, French fries and coke - no big deal. Lots of wine to relax. Above all,

almost daily, chocolate and packaged candy were my constant. I was depressed a lot,

with tons of migraine headaches and mood swings. Funny, I had absolutely no clue why

this was. I was clueless in knowing good health habits. No one told me, “You are what

you EAT and drink”. Nervous almost all the time, there was nothing I could attribute this

too. There were all those nights of tossing and turning and not sleeping well because

I was always so anxious. I decided to do something about it and my health changed.

One day I was speaking at a Real Estate function and I was talking about how my

change in heart and my change in healthy life style led to tough choices in my life.

I had just finished my talk when a pretty young woman came up and wanted to talk with

me. She started telling me how she was excited about selling houses. Yet, her anxiety

and fear had been keeping her from doing this. Then her life changed. Her own bad

choices and unhealthy lifestyle had been with her for a long time. She went on to say

that she ate McDonalds and fast food constantly. She smoked and loved candy and at

least a half dozen bottles of soda pop every day. She told me that she had been all

worn out throughout her teen years and now barely into her twenties, she was tired of

feeling this way. So less than a month before she met me, she took all of the processed

fast foods out of her life. She substituted all junk food for fruit and nuts. And her choice of

drink? Almost always she drank purified water. Now a month later, her tough choices,

just like mine, had paid off. She was feeling healthy!

Remember, SUGAR compromises the Immune system, brings in sickness and bad health.

IF you must eat sweets, eat sweets AFTER good food is in your body.

So what is another tough choice that troubled me?

My anxiety and impulsive behavior, coupled with my fear of failure kept me from finding

the time for myself. When could I find time, quietly, purposefully, now for me? Finding

time for me had to be a specific appointment that went right into my phone. “30

minutes - Positive Peacetime” and or walking/exercize. It sounds almost laughable to

say its hard to carve out the time just for me. Yet, look at the world around us. Every part

of our day is filled with noise and business. People constantly coming and going and

every one has something going on!

ITS ONLY WHEN I STOP, LOOK AND LISTEN TO MY OWN HIGHER SELF…THAT I CONNECT.

A tough choice is two-fold:

1. First, I must have a “Change of Heart” (this happens with Discipline)

2. Second, I must “Forgive myself” for ALL I have done in the past to self & anyone.

We are all tempted in so very many ways. So now we have to look at the “QUALITY” of

our character. THIS tells us “how“ we deal with temptation. “What do I want to do with

the temptation at hand?” I promise you I have rationalized with my own mind hundreds

of times in so many ways. “One more drink because of this or that, one more day of

eating gross, disgusting food, one more day of putting up with someone else’s abuse

towards me”, and on it goes.

We are in this together. There is only one huge part that starts to separate us.

DISCIPLINE. Can you imagine how powerful you and I can become with this? HOW we

discipline our life is critical. Wow, then the doubt begins to disappear! When I discipline

myself, I not only stop doubting myself but my own higher self power comes into play

immediately, such a free feeling of goodness. The hardest thing to do is not to worry.

We worry about everything we can possibly think about because that is the way we

humans are made. Worry, bite my nails, worry, take a drink, worry eat some comfort

food especially late at night! An important tough choice is: DECIDE NOW to discipline

worry away BABY STEPS.

How to do this? Start like this, visualize something beautiful in your mind. It might be a

brilliant, peaceful, glorious sunset. A calm, serene lake at dusk, or the morning snow

untouched by human hands. There are so many peaceful pictures in our mind. A tough

choice is doing something different that we are not used to doing. Remember internally

to say “I CAN DO THIS TODAY BECAUSE DISCIPLINE IS GOOD FOR ME”.

Now I do a couple things completely different today. Have you ever watched at the

grocery store how every body’s grocery cart is usually different? WE are all different and

this is good. Can I buy some different, healthy foods for self today? We are unique, and

filled with choices, hundreds and thousands of choices daily. The tough choices we

somehow push into the back and ITS TIME TO BRING THEM FOREFRONT. We all have to

know where we are going, even if it is only for today!

I love the part out of “ Alice’s Adventure in Wonderland” when she comes face to face

with the Cheshire Cat. Here is a bit of their conversation. Alice says to the Cat, “would

you tell me please, which way I ought to walk from here?” The cat looks oddly at her and

speaks, “that depends a good deal on where you want to get to”. “I don’t much care

where” said Alice. “Then it doesn’t matter which way you walk”, said the Cat.

A tough choice will appear for each of us every day. It’s all ok. Sometime it will be

easy to choose, other times it will be hard, an old habit to push to the way back.

At any point, I now say, the toughest choices I can deal with and pray on first. I find I am

stronger, more confident and less anxious when my day is “disciplined out” with good

healthy food, some form of exercise and above all prayer. Now I AM balanced.

Following is a great saying,

“I choose to live by choice, not by chance,

To be motivated, not manipulated,

to be useful, not used,

to make changes, not excuses,

to excel and not compete,

I choose self-esteem, over self -pity.

I choose to listen to my inner, higher voice,

I will Not listen to the random opinion of others.

Anonymous.

Can you make a tough choice today, and pray for Discipline?”

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“Fair Warning” Blog # 58

“IF it walks like a duck, quacks like a duck and acts like a duck….is it a duck?” “Doing the

same things over and over, and expecting different results, are…?” “Even if I am on the

right track, will I get run over, if I just sit here?” The above quotes people have heard over

and over. What do all three have in common? They give Fair Warning of life ahead. Life

is full of warnings.

I am alive and expected to follow the rules. Its only when we fudge, look the other way

or justify reasons why we don’t have to do what “our conscience tells us to do, that we

start the snow ball rolling down the hill, getting bigger and bigger, ready to strike at any

moment.

Probably one of the greatest Fair Warnings is “Time”. Time waits for no one. The clock is

our master time keeper. In our life we run against the clock daily. I love the following

poem - it is Anonymous.

“To realize the value of One Year,

Ask a student who failed his or her final exams.

To realize the value of One Month,

Ask a Mother who gave birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of One Week,

Ask an editor of a weekly magazine.

To realize the value of One Day,

Ask a daily wage laborer who has six kids to feed.

To realize the value of One Hour,

Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of One Minute,

As a person who missed their train.

To realize the value of One Second,

Ask the person who survived an accident.

To realize the value of One Millisecond,

Ask the person who won a Silver Medal in the Olympics.

To appreciate the value of time, makes all the difference in one’s day. What is expected

of each and every one of us? I AM thankful that I have each hour of every day to make

a positive difference. In order to succeed in life I believe we must have the following:

INTEGRITY. “THE QUALITY OF BEING HONEST AND HAVING STRONG MORAL PRINCIPLES,

INTEGRITY IS THE STATE OF BEING WHOLE AND UNDEVIDED”

A person is good; who is filled with Honesty, Compassion and Kindness. If I start each

day this way, I attract goodness and know how to spend quality time. From the time we

are little children we are given Fair Warning about the basic rules of life. There is the

“Golden Rule” - “Do unto others as you would have them do unto to you”. Treat each

other with respect. Keep lies and deceit away. Follow rules of life daily. Yet wait a

minute, what if we are raised in a family where rules are not followed? What if parents

are selfish, cruel, abuse themselves and their children? Where do the children go when

they grow older? For a time, they may be attracted to the wrong side of the tracks. Still I

believe we are all given choice and chance to change. We have a built in compass of

“truthful awareness”. We know inside right from wrong.

I remember we had friends who wanted to give their children everything. They wanted

to buy their children all the world had to offer. But inside, the children wanted none of it.

They internally knew they had to find their own way when becoming adults. The spoiled

children ran off and the parents ran after them. They did everything they could to bribe

them with a new car and a beautiful life style. Suddenly, the children needed space, for

they had become adults. Bright, intelligent and strong headed, they needed to learn

about life by falling down. It was time for bravery. Time to get up on their own, show up

for themself and find out what life is all about, all alone, learning to be confident. It is

only then that respect, appreciation and kindness fall into place between parent and

child. TRUST comes along. I remember my friend told me how excited she was to give

her son the family heirloom when it was time for him to marry. However, the son felt

dismayed and wanted to work to earn the money to buy the ring for his future bride, all

by himself. Life has so many twists and turns. We need to trust when the time is right to

push them out of the nest and let them fly. Too many parents out there treat their kids

like their best friends and they are not doing them any favors!

Too often parents came to the rescue, parents pay for childrens mistakes and turn their

backs on all their childens cruel behavior toward them. Warning signs are there. In

time, both parents and children lose sight of bounderies for one another. The parents

had lost sight of their own needs and became caretakers instead of caregivers.

In the end, each party loses respect for the other. Fair warning signs were thrown to the

wind. The rule of life, completely overlooked. When a child becomes a healthy adult,

time to “trust them with freedom”, time to let them go out into the world on their own.

Our adult children, in the adult world, need to feel good about making decisions for

themselves. They need to figure life out. Of course, there are extenuating

circumstances where college is involved and monies are spent for careers ahead.

Regardless of the home situation, parents need to be respected and give back respect

to their child.

We need only take a deep breath. Put our hands together to center ourself. Pray for the

light to transform our darkness. Then the peaceful, quiet, discernment takes over.

DON’T QUIT

by: Edgar A. Guest

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

when the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and the debt is high,

And you want to smile but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don’t you Quit.

Life is strange, with its twists and turns,

As everyone of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,

You might succeed with another blow.

Often the struggler has given up,

When he might have captured the Winners Cup,

And he learned too late when the night slipped down,

How close he was to the Golden Crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver lining of clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are,

IT may be near when it seems so far,

So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,

It’s when things seem the worst that you must not quit!

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I believe, The Fair Warning signs in life are - three major ones. First and foremost, l obey

the Ten Commandments today and every day. Then I remember to Follow my “heart

and not my emotions” in critical thinking. Last but not least, I remember my “Body IS the

Temple of God” I give my body good health, kindness, exercise and I forgive myself and

others each day in prayer.

Am I following the “Fair Warning” signs today?

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‘‘Forgiveness'' Blog #57

Why bother with forgiving myself - Today’s a new day, why not just live it?

IF self-worth and self-esteem are so important, what part does Forgiving Self play?

What is the real definition of “Forgiveness?” Forgiveness: “The intentional voluntary

process by which one who initially feels victimized or wronged, goes through a CHANGE

IN FEELINGS, and ATTITUDE, regarding self, and/or a given offender, and overcomes the

impact of negative emotions (resentment, hate, denial, a desire for vengenance) where

forgiveness REPLACES negative emotions with positive attitudes.”

Every single person alive has had to deal with forgiveness in some sense. When we

cannot bring ourself to forgive ourself and someone else, our thoughts break away from

love and turn our power against us. As much as we feel we have the right to judge

others - we do not. When we stuff away feelings that are NOT love, we get into trouble.

Now you might say, I can’t run around loving myself and everyone all day! That is

just not reasonable. True…. However, it is when we begin to JUDGE, scales are tipped.

When we judge others, we lose the gift of forgiveness. IF we are willing to forgive ourself

and others, then we let go of anger, resentment, guilt, denial and fear.

What is fear? False Events Appearing Real. When we are ready to try something new,

we see the past as it is: THE PAST. There is only one reason why a persons past haunts

them and that is because situations, people, events have not been dealt with in a

healthy, forgiving way. To carry burdens from the past, weighs down the human heart.

However, it’s tricky because each of us has our own separate lessons in “healing our

heart with forgiveness”. You can ONLY find forgiveness when the words “but what

about…” or “You don’t understand what they did….” are gone.

I give you an example of what I am talking about. For years and years I watched and

could do nothing as my parents fought their battle of life around me. I watched in

sadness as my brother became abused and addicted to drugs and I could do nothing

to help him. I watched my family become victims of drugs and alcoholism.

Resentment, hatred and anger consumed me. I watched my alcoholic, abusive father

die at a young age consumed with cancer and I fought the Love/hate feelings inside

me that kept me from seeing him until his funeral. I lived for so many years in an

isolated, angry world. I became a workaholic and refused to even look at forgiveness,

until one day my life changed and got even worse. My own mother was killed by a drug

addict and I swore I would never forgive him. However after more years of living in

denial, anger and hatred. I could not take these inner feelings of dread any longer. Lost

in a busy world that had no time for my inner feelings, I knew I was afraid to be

vulnerable. Feelings inside of me were wretched and growing with more anger and

bitterness. No sign of forgiveness. I had to seek a spiritual way out, or my health would

seriously suffer. My anxiety, panic and grief were over the top. I was spiraling out of

control with nothing left.

I put my hands together and prayed for help to forgive. Suddenly something told me to

drive myself to the institution where a man was held. I wanted to see his face, look at

him, because I had something to tell him. I asked the guards to get him and when they

brought him into the room I said, “I forgive you for killing my mother.” That was all I had

to do, I had to be forgiving..

As I left that morning, it was snowing and I was crying very hard, but I no longer felt

alone. Internally there was a tremendous shift in my thinking… I can only say it felt like a

huge iron weight had been lifted from my heart. I was given an awareness this person

would carry the horrific deed he had done, with him for all eternity, Yet, in my

forgiveness of this man, I was freed from all my unforgiving anger.

For years and years I continued to study and learn about the inner workings of truth. My

faith kept me stronger each day. Until the unimaginable happened. My precious,

beloved eldest daughter had chosen a dark path. She believed in the Dark Lie” in life

and fell victim to alcohol and drugs. Alas, leaving behind two precious boys in the wake

of her death.

Anyone might say to me, now you throw in the towel, right? Where is your God now?

Still, in all my heartache and sadness, and sorrow, I recalled words I had heard many

times before. “You can never save someone from themself”

My beautiful daughter had given in to darkness. I needed to stay focused on the light of

Christ within me. I had to let go and let God take over once again.

I choose to leave you with this poem called:

“TRUE AWARENESS”

Anonymous

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve,

I was made weak, that I might learn to humbly obey.

I asked God for health, that I might do greater things,

I was given infirmity that I might do better things.

I asked God for riches that I might be happy,

I was given poverty that I might be wise.

I asked God for power, that I might have the praise of men,

I was given weakness, that I might feel the need for God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life,

I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I’d hoped for.

Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.

I am among all people . . . . most richly blessed !

Lent is now upon us. For forty days and forty nights a man went out into the desert to

find a way to accept his fate. He was the personification of good. He was everything we

all want to be, but cannot. The fact that no amount of love, no amount of kindness, no

amount of truth mattered. Still the people raged in anger, hate and misjudgement.

They stoned him, persecuted him, put a crown of thorns upon his head and stabbed

him in his side. At the end, he looked down on all the people and quietly cried saying,

“Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do”.

“Can you try to find forgiveness for someone unconditionally today?”

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“Healthy Habits” Blog #56

Whats on your mind when you wake up every morning? It doesn’t take much to figure

out that fear, stress and worry are the main ingredients for poor mental health.

Following is a brilliant piece of prose that I found while reading Sean Covey’s Book;

“Seven Habits of Highly Effective ….”

WHO AM I?

“I am your constant companion. I am your greatest helper or heaviest burden. I will

push you onward or drag you down to failure. I am completely at your command. Half

the things you do, you might just as well turn over to me and I will be able to do them

quickly and correctly. I am easily managed - you must merely be firm with me. Show

me exactly how you want something done and after a few lessons I will do it

automatically. I am the servant of all great individuals and, alas, of all failures as well.

Those who are great I have made great. Those who are failures, I have made failures.

I am not a machine, though I work with all the precision of a machine plus the

intelligence of a human. You may run me for a profit or run me for ruin — It makes no

difference to me, take me, train me, be firm with me, and I will place the world at your

feel. Be easy with me, and I will destroy you. WHO AM I?

“I AM HABIT”

How important are the Daily Habits of our lives? Our habits can wear us down in many

ways. There are habits of bad eating. Habits of bad friendships. Habits with drugs and

alcohol and lies. Our habits of being with the wrong people and doing the wrong things

day after day can destroy our self confidence and self worth. Our habits form a pattern

to either build us up or break us down. Our habits can be a recipe for disaster, or a

recipe for success. Some repetitive bad habits are thinking negatively, blaming others

and putting off important things to do. These are countered by Good habits of

exercising daily (30 minutes of exercise releases Endorphins into the body which are

natural stress releasers). Reading and meditating and saying affirmations to self.

Examples of good affirmations are always prefaced with positive words after “I AM”…..

“I Am aligned with goodness, I AM balanced, I AM courageous, I AM disciplined,

I AM enlightened, I AM fearless, I AM goodness, I AM healthy, I AM integrity”. I do this ten

times for each letter through the alphabet. After my morning prayer, a big bottle of

fresh water, maybe two bottles start my good habits I know this helps flush out the

“toxins” in my body, making me feel renewed.

Mornings when ready, I take a good half hour walk, saying affirrmations all the while

on my walk. Breakfast is important to me and I choose healthy food in place of

sweets. IF I cannot exercise, I find ten minutes for deep breathing, quiet and peaceful

prayer. My day is immediately more focused and much improved.

A famous writer Samuel Smiles said it like this:

“Sow a thought, and you reap an act,

Sow an act, and you reap a habit;

Sow a habit, and you reap a character,

sow a character and you reap a destiny”.

Every single day is made up of all our habits - WHAT ARE THEY? It is important to point

out, that we are stronger than any bad habits! That being said, we can change bad

habits immediately! This is because our mind is in complete control of what we do.

So when we wake up in the morning and go to the mirror we can say, “I AM a good

person. Thank you God for helping me choose wisely today".

First, I decide not to lie to myself. It is only then, I can see my authentic self.

This “Higher Self” is when I am able to take control over my life. Understand we need to

spend time with a person who believes in us and builds us up, not tears us down. A bad

habit involves “caretaking other people” with a sense of neediness. This brings in a

feeling of hopelessness and allows for more disrespectful behavior without any

consequences. Each of us need to be respected. First we start with respect for ourself.

Only then can we demand respect unconditionally. Bounderies must be in place for

our own integrity or we will never be respected. There must be “Tough Love” in place for

many of those close to us. REMOVE those people who fill a “social vacuum in our lives”.

This means don’t be afraid of being alone! It is far better to have quality than quantity.

One might be lonely for a while, but in our alone-ness, we find a “higher purpose”.

it is better to start over and be alone then being with someone who hurts you.

Start new and. pray to find a religious outlet and a healthy search for new friends.

People should be in our life to give us positive feedback, honest loving support and

healthy, fun loving memories!

Every day habits of negativity should not control us! We are not here to create turmoil,

cause havoc and bring in darkness - Truthful, honest, healthy habits build us up. We

need to become stronger everyday with inner higher self direction. I got to a point in

my life where I felt I really needed counseling. I saw a very experienced forty year

veteran in psychology who opened my eyes. He said to me: “You are addicted to

unhealthy drama”. He went on to tell me that “Healthy, normal, good people appeared

boring to me.” Alarmed, I asked him why this was? He smiled at me saying:

“You have lived in a family with such dysfunction for so long, that you were only

attracted to people who had alot of chaos around them because this felt natural to

you”. I was so taken aback as I thought about it - I realized he was absolutely correct.

So I set out to break that habit. I got up every morning and prayed a little prayer when I

looked in the mirror. I told myself I will attract healthy, supportive, good people into my

life. I told myself as I walked twice a day for thirty minutes each time, “I AM a good,

healthy, peace-filled person”. Breaking this habit, I said to myself “with God in my life, I

have nothing to fear”

I have never stopped doing my affirmations every single day.

As I go on my walks, I do affirmations and I become more and more centered. Healthy

Habits start every single morning with a prayer while still in bed. Simply said: “Help me

Lord, I cannot do it alone today, thank you”.

Breakfast is important. Eat something healthy. Try fruit, yogert, all grain cereal, free

range eggs, and/or protein bar for snack. Then lunch can be fruit smoothie or soup and

salad protein snack and dinner is more salad with fish and lots of vegetables, potatoes,

or hot soup. Water is major: I try to drink one half of my body weight: (If 120 pounds)

60 oz. = 4 bottles of purified water. = 15 oz. bottles= 4) I wake up and drink one to two

bottles in the morning. Later in the afternoon another water and one at night before my

dinner. NO dark television shows, they are too disturbing. Even the news at times can

be so graphic I turn it off. Above all Daily Habits need to be Healthy. Higher self driven.

We can all do this, a little bit at a time.

Each of us can learn to be at peace with being alone. Time alone is strengthening.

Quiet time is very healing and a time to connect with the Holy Spirit within each of us.

It’s time now for courage to approach the wall of fear in our lives, and ask for help.

See the wall turn into a doorway where HE is waiting to help us grow.

“Can you Help me have healthy habits today Lord”?

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“Avoid Evil” Blog #55

The definition of Evil: “Profound immorality and wickedness, especially when regarded as a supernatural force, or as in peoples actions, harmful or undesirable…”

Are violent/horror movies ok to watch? (dark energy into the atmosphere around)

Dark, rap music a good thing to listen to? (more dark energy into the mind)

Whats wrong with getting high or smoking weed? (giving up our free will to evil)

Any or all of the above can affect the way you look and live and see your life daily.

There was a wonderful article written about the extreme affects of alcohol on a person

who eventually becomes an alcoholic. A renowned metaphysical doctor said that he

walked into a bar late one night to meet a friend. He did not drink himself and was

a very evolved person. At any rate, he shared how he stood in the packed bar and

noticed one man in particular, who was very drunk. He watched awhile longer and

witnessed this man drink to the point of oblivion. He now was ready to pass out. At

this point, the doctor believed that the man had given up “his free will”. He was no

longer in control of what was happening to him. The next thing the doctor witnessed

was quite unbelievable. He said because he felt he was so evolved, he was able to

see and feel things alot of people are not able to do.

“He saw a reddish dark evil energy penetrate into the top of the mans head” just as

surely as night becomes day. Now you or I may say to ourselves, that is simply

absurd! Yet, what if its not? What if when people drink too much or take drugs and they

then unconsciously give up their “Free Will? Have you ever heard the saying, “The devil

made me do it?” I know I have shared something out of the norm, yet who really knows

for sure? Why DO people do things, mean, cruel, violent…that they regret later? So often

people say in a drug or drunken stupor that they have no idea what they were doing.

They were living in a “total black out”. What a careless, callous, cruel way to live ones life.

Every one of us know some kind of event or story or reason, why we think and believe

the way that we do. This makes up our belief system.

At all costs, its important to insulate, protect and keep sacred the human spirit.

The body is truly the Temple of God. Every day we can become stronger internally.

We have the means to do this. Our mind can think whatever we want it to. Find good

things to learn about every day. If you have children, keep them OFF of social media on

the Internet. This is way too dangerous, period. “THE AVERAGE PARENT SPENDS 3.5

MINUTES A WEEK INTERACTING WITH THEIR CHILDREN” (Raising Healthy Teenagers”)

Yesterday I read about Senators Blumenthal and Blackburn unveiling a Bill called “Kids

Online Safety Act” keeping children off internet until age 18. “We have no idea just how

dangerous the Internet is”, they stated. “It is gut wrenching”.

So there is a myriad of reasons why my Christian Faith makes me feel secure. I just

outlined the “way the world is working now and most of it is saturated in darkness. It is

not necessary to have a discussion about whether or not Evil exists. Just turn on the

radio at any time of your day. Yesterday, Michigan University on a Sunday night had

three students gunned down, with more wounded in the hospital and the man who did

it killed himself. “Drug overdoses have reached record high with teen deaths in the

United States using Marajuana laced with Fetanyl and synthetic opioids reachng

unprecedented levels…/CNN 23”

“Non religious population now makes up half of the USA”. (Pew Research”19) Wilkinson &

Finkreiner, state “Every 42 seconds there is a divorce in America”. Definitely there are

more people just living together than getting married, its easier, but does it feel like

“the right thing to be doing?” Yet, does any of it matter anyway? When do or did

we decide to throw away “our moral compass?”

Perhaps people find that its easier to sit and stare at the the computer in darkness.

Why “turn the light on in our life, is it just too uncomfortable?”

For many of us, there are internal lies that begin to appear like the drip of a faucet.

Let’s take Social Media. So much a part of our day. It is now so prevalent and so much

an accepted part of our daily life that (TRT World) states: “ The average person spends 9 - 10 hours a day on social media”. Kids are getting into Snap Chat feeds and

interacting with bullies. Average age of smart phones to kids is 10 years old. Kids are

becoming incredibly depressed from Social Media.!

What ARE they taking in? What ARE we watching? What changes our beliefs? What

especially are “young people” seeing, absorbing, and believing?”

The American Journal of Public Health just posed: “There is increasing evidence that

the Internet and Social Media influences (teen) suicide and suicide related behavior”.

”Self Harm posts are surging on Twitter” ….and Teen suicide especially in teen GIRLS has

skyrocketed……” There is a post that is called the “art of seduction” read by little kids!

In “USA Today: “Three quarters of all teens have watched pornography on the internet”.

After all these statistics, where does Good versus Evil sit? It’s there but we need to look.

More and more parents are using the Internet as a babysitter for their children. More

and more people are addicted to harmful sites on the internet and unable to stop.

I remember when the Apple computer came out and I got an Apple iPhone. One night I

sat in the dark and was looking at the front of my phone, I suddenly became aware of

the apple on the front of my computer with a “bite out of the apple”.

For the first time, this reminded me of Satan tempting Eve in the Garden of Eden with the

apple, coincidence? The way things are headed, I don’t really think so. I have talked

about these things to bring you new awareness. It’s important to have an

understanding of the world we live in now and if you read my Blog, why I write about the

things I do.

In a few simple words, My Christian Faith IS my insurance policy for my life. I can’t

imagine living life without it. Waking up in the morning, I need to believe in HIM.

Throughout the day, I need to feel protected and when I go to sleep, I pray to forgive.

We are tested in different ways, this is the only “marker” for our internal growth, our faith.

The world is so complicated with billions of people, historic and profound inventions.

Does it make sense to believe all of life is for naught? All goes up in a puff of smoke!!

Nothing left, not even our soul? Absolutely not! Our soul lives on after death we go

home. The real truth exists by simply looking around. In the vast universe, Love and

beauty and goodness prevail. IF they did not, we could not survive a moment longer.

Hope would most certainly die. Billions of people who believe, would believe in vain.

So we must believe. Gods Son came to show us HIS Good.

HIS TRUTH replaces the lie. HIS LOVE replaces the hate. HIS LIGHT replaces the dark.

At all costs, .avoid evil. The real definition of EVIL, Living backwards!

Spell it forwards: it spells L I V E. We are born into the world to use a Higher Nature.

To understand we have two natures: Why do we have two natures? This is

because we are given FREE WILL. We are allowed to decide for ourself in everything.

So we have a “lower self nature” and a “higher self nature”. This is the good part.

In my body where I live, this is how I think; “ I choose to have a positive, higher self

attitude every day. I exercise and walk. I have good nutrition, I drink one-half my body

weight in water daily. Minimum; 4 bottles of water. (I understand that sugar

compromises the immune system and brings in disease) I study and I read and I say

affirmations. I choose to only attract loving, healthy people into my world”.

Inside our conscience mind IS truth. The Devine Light is within us all. It is waiting to

connect. Remember: we have Free Will. We are asked now, to invite the Holy Spirit into

our life. Each one of us must be brave, decide to discipline with good habits daily. Now

I leave you with GOOD NEWS. Today I heard that Asbury University in Kentucky is on its

10th Day of a Marathon Church Service. People from all over the county have been just

showing up, witnessing and telling their story of healing. Nobody knows how it started

happening? AND the number one book still selling in the county today: the Bible.

I leave you with the little prayer I like to say daily:

Serenity Prayer:

“God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

the Courage to change the things I can -

and the Wisdom to know the difference”

“Can you ask for Higher Self clarity today?”

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“ALL Alone” Blog #54

I remember I was driving very fast. I had to get home and that’s all that mattered.

It didn’t matter that it was a snowy slippery, VERY dark night yet, I was driving way too

fast. As I came around the corner, I did not see the roads sharp turn once again.

I braked but it was too late, I hit two trees head on. Later, they told me my car was

accordianed and no one understood how I was flung from the car and miraculously

saved that night. Obviously, it was not my time to go. The next thing I remember was

laying in the hospital hearing the doctor say I had a 50/50 chance of survival. However,

through all of this, something inside me told me “You are not alone”. I definitely believed

in prayer not to give up, throw in the towel or stop living.

The car accident I speak of happened over fifty years ago, but I am tuned into one

specific fact, convinced beyond the shadow of a doubt, I am never alone. I believe

none of us, are ever left alone.

As I laid in my hospital bed hurting in places I didn’t even know I could hurt, I just

remember how something came over me, quieting me. There was an inner voice

a providence of peace stronger that any force I had ever felt. I will never forget it.

I sensed a pull or a push as if spurning me onward and telling me to not give up.

I see now, a miracle takes place when one lets go and brings in Power of Prayer.

Over the years, have seen Miracles at work in my own life. People can change in a

breath.

Events take place that were never thought to be. At times, I used to think when I was

young, the universe heard me say this and yelled back; “Okay, here comes some more

heartache”. And so went my life.

Yet, all through my life when I resorted to “lower self thinking and actions”, I just

experienced more heartache. Yet, the peaks and valleys combine to make us much

stronger. My own trials and tribulations have made me kinder, more compassionate.

My own tears of suffering have shown how others suffer too, this makes me feel less

judgmental every day. In the real world, losing a loved one is permanent. Then making

that choice to go on, one reflects where in the world does indescribable inner strength

come from? No one person can feel another persons pain, recognize their suffering,

sense their loss, unless each of us can authentically choose to say “there but for the

grace of God…..go I”.

I remember one day I was so mad at a friend for monopolizing our conversation and

just talking about herself. Then just when I was ready to tell her off, she called and told

me about a serious health issue she was now dealing with. How quickly the tables turn.

What is important in our relationships each day? I understand there are times when it’s

important to clear ones head, take a walk, and THEN pray for discernment. (to choose

wisely)

However, in desperation, in solitude and misery one can slide quickly out of “choice and

get stuck in “desperation mode” This is DECIDED DARKNESS.

There is only one healthy choice, move out of this lower self thinking. ASK for Devine help

and PRAY to invite the Holy Spirit in! Simply say, “Thank you for helping me NOW Lord”.

Now we are open and the light of Christ pours into our inner sanctum….into our heart

and soul and mind. It is here and now that desperation is quickly replaced with:

discernment. ……. detachment……… discipline.

Discernment now allows choice to make the right decision for “self.” Detachment

separates the “lower self” in darkness pushing thru, up into “higher self”. Discipline

showing how to stay on track, NOT SLIP BACK INTO DARKNESS. WHY am I so set on talking

about “Lower Self “versus the “Higher Self?” Because There is a fight going on day and

night between these two natures! The lower self nature is filled with “I am all alone!!”

“Poor me!”, “look what I’m going through!”…..obsessing, analyzing and magnifying

personal problems constantly. STOP saying “no one understands what I am going thru”.

This is a false belief. Try this new way for instant, powerful results.

Where is the “Higher Self” in all of this? Right inside each one of us.

Waiting……. waiting….

Patiently waiting with Jesus right there. Waiting for us to make this HIGHER choice. HE is

ready to hold our hand and let me and you feel we are NEVER alone. Higher Self thinking

keeps “depression” at bay! You are powerful internally by feeling HIS hand in yours.

Did you know your light (once it is eternally lit) will never go out? Billions of people DO

BELIEVE ….. they DO believe there is a God. From the day we arrive on this earth, we are

given a Guardian Angel. Do you want to know your own Guardian Angel’s name? At

night just before you go to sleep, close your eyes and simply ask. Ask the name of your

Guardian Angel and suddenly a name will pop into your head! Now we feel we are

watched over. Feeling all this unseen help is comforting. Every one of us can now grow

stronger, be better, feel braver in this knowledge.

I share a small true story which I hope empowers you even more. Years ago during

WWII there was a young fighter pilot who was with the Royal Canadian Air Force. John

loved flying more than anything else and was stationed outside of London. In the

middle of a raging war while John was in London, he decided to write a poem about his

flying experiences. He sent a copy of this poem he wrote to his family back home. Just

three months after he sent the poem, he was tragically killed in a mid air collision

training accident.

John Gillespie was only nineteen years old. Here is the poem he wrote:

“HIGH FLIGHT”

By John Gillespie

“OH ! I HAVE SLIPPED THE SURLY BONDS OF EARTH AND DANCED THE SKIES

ON LAUGHTER-SILVERED WINGS,

SUNWARD I’VE CLIMBED, AND JOINED THE TUMBLING MIRTH OF SUN-SPLIT CLOUDS

AND DONE A HUNDRED THINGS YOU HAVE NOT DREAMED OF—

WHEELED AND SOARED AND SWUNG

HIGH IN THE SUNLIT SILENCE. HOVERING THERE, I’VE CHASED THE SHOUTING WIND ALONG,

AND FLUNG MY EAGER CRAFT THROUGH FOOTLESS HALLS OF AIR

UP, UP THE LONG, DELIRIOUS BURNING BLUE

I’VE TOPPED THE WIND-SWEPT HEIGHTS WITH EASY GRACE

WHERE NEVER LARK NOR EVER EAGLE FLEW -

AND WHILE WITH SILENT LIFTING MIND I’VE TROD

THE HIGH UNTRESSPASSED SANCTITY OF SPACE,

PUT OUT MY HAND,

AND TOUCHED THE FACE OF GOD.'

“Can you believe you are never alone?”

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''Heal My Life” Blog #53

There is only one YOU.

A good, healthy life starts with taking care of You. What you see in the mirror, is what

you get - period. Do you check yourself daily for these two things? It’s important to

monitor our Humility and Integrity levels. Are you completely honest with yourself?

Can you forgive yourself daily, forgiving those near and around you? The greatest

challenges lie in those that have come in and out of our life. Have you remembered to

leave the adults to their own “lessons to learn”? Well, a clean slate starts today, we must

admit, we only have today! we are here where we are suppose to be with tools

internally to choose from. Someone once asked what does FEAR stand for?

False - Events - Appearing - Real …… 97% of what we worry about, never happens1

Lets try another word, EVIL. Now, spell it backwards…..

L I V E . That is not a coincidence! None of us want to purposefully live backwards.

Yet, day after day, it appears many of us do the same things, with the wrong outcome.

There is a rhythm to life. We need the pain, the good, the happy the sad to learn all

about ourselves. Life is tough a lot of the time, sometimes its so tough, we stay stuck.

There is a universal understanding about HIS help. First, HE is always there for us. WE

can always depend on this. Then again, human beings were created AND given “FREE

WILL. This is major important because IF we donot ask for help from JESUS we are on our

own. The purpose and intent of prayer is to bring Jesus right to us. Through prayer we

can ask to bring in humility - to humble ourself and see our weakness and failures and

navigate from a lower self thinking to a higher self mode. This type of prayer - “asking to

humble ourself” removes lower self wallowing in fear. Pray for your highest good and for

those who struggle around you.

THEN “let go” after the prayer. For you are now in FAITH mode.

Your prayer was just sent to the “highest problem solver” in the universe. NOW you can

trust 100% your prayer was heard and will be answered in HIS time frame. If you have

faith, then KNOW this is no companion to worry.

In order to Heal My LIfe try hard to STOP these four (4) Habits:

1. Thinking or Obsessing about people or past drama daily

2. Change and control these thoughts or they will control You

3. Hours spent in wasted time on Facebook/texting/internet = NO exercise.

4. Facing Failures judgement/alcohol/self abuse/drugs/worry

Remember: “The Body IS the Temple of God”

BODY - Exercised and balanced with prayer DAILY

MIND - Clear (of confusion/obsessing/addiction)

SPIRIT - AWARE OF THE HOLY SPRIT WITHIN ME SO, I ASK FOR HIS HELP

We we are all given “free Will” - to live life and do it on our terms without HIS help.

That is IF we want to choose that hard, difficult, sad way. Then so be it. Still, we have two

choices to make. Go it alone, or ask for his help and guidance.

So, choose we must, a lower self hard, difficult path or the HIGHER SELF CHOICE that

brings us Jesus Christ who walks with each one of US. No one will ever be given more

they can handle.

Here is one of my favorite poems:

‘FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND’

by: Flora Haines Loughead

….ONE night I dreamed a dream;

As I was walking along the beach with my Lord,

Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.

For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,

One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

After the last scene of my life flashed before me,

I looked back at the footprints in the sand.

I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,

especially at the lowest and saddest times,

there were only one set of footprints.

This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it,

“Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,

You’d walk with me all the way,

But I noticed that during the saddest and most

troublesome times of my life,

there was only one set of footprints.

I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most -

You would leave me?”

HE whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you,

Never, ever during your trials and testings,

when you saw only one set of footprints,

It was then that I carried you.”

“Are you ready to have Jesus Carry You?”

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“Boxed In” Blog #52

How about this for a start to our day ~ Let’s crack the Box wide open!

We wake up, stretch and walk over to our mirror. We look in the mirror and we say the

following firmly, “I will tell the truth today. I will tell the whole truth, and nothing but the

truth to myself and others, so help me God”. Can we do thls ALL day long?

Remember when we were little, everything seemed to appear so much bigger?

Remember how our house looked giant? Everything in our world was brand new?

Now, how quickly we take our sacred life for granted. How often we feel overwhelmed?

How many times are we forced to admit,” I can’t climb out of this box I’m in”.

However, the human body is unbelievably strong, honest at its core and knows right

from wrong. Every minute of every day the body is healing itself.

So, what are the requirements for being and feeling “boxed in?”

There are four corners to this “box.”

!. The first corner is “LIES”. Lying to oneself, about anything at all.

2. The second corner is “FEAR”. Fear of the truth, that lies deep within.

3. The third corner is “GUILT”. Guilt about the way life was handled in the past.

4. The fourth corner is “BLAME”. So much of our past is blamed on doing it wrong.

We have all heard the old adage, “Tell one lie and ten lies will be told to you.”

I remember a story about myself in middle school. Shortly after I moved over to my

Grandpas house, my aunts had purchased a nice used bike for me. I was beyond

excited. After I had started my new school, I was aware immediately of the cliques and

groups of kids who were the “haves” and the “have-nots”. I was definitely a have not.

There were the popular girls with their Sabor purses, their Capezzio flats and their Mohair

sweaters. One day after gym I thought; who will ever notice if I just take a yellow mohair

sweater from a bossy, popular, pretty girls locker, who I secretly envied? She had so

many.

I did this and brought it home and hid it under my bed for the longest time. I would

figure out later how to explain it to my aunts. After a few weeks, I went to get it under the

bed and it was gone1 I didn’t dare say anything to my aunts because it was stolen and I

had not found a story to fill in all those ugly lying blanks.

Not even a week later I rode my bike up to the drop store after school, for a cherry coke.

As I came out of the store, I saw my bike had been stolen! I was beyond heart sick and

beside myself with anger as I raced home to tell my aunt what had happened. She was

old and I was young and it was just the way she looked at me that made me feel

insecure and she would never understand. I was crying hard as I walked into the

kitchen. My aunt turned from the sink where she was peeling potatoes and after

listening to my story, she firmly spoke. “How can you possibly be sad?, “she said. “The

universe always has a way of righting itself. Was the sweater you took, worth losing the

bike you loved so much?”

I felt my face go crimson. I watched as she turned her back on me. I felt humiliated to

the core. Yet, I had learned a very powerful lesson. It was not only about stealing

something, but the lies that go with it. I had been lying to myself and others as well.

There’s an old saying that goes like this, “oh, the vicious webs we weave, when we

practice to deceive”.

It is very difficult to tell the truth to ourself twenty four hours a day, seven days a week.

So…….. we justify, we ratlionalize, we dread, we ignore and……. we put off the TRUTH.

What am I talking about here? I am talking about complete honesty.

Way back in middle school it was hard to be honest with myself. I did not have the

right to take something that belonged to another. Let alone carry such jeolousy

and anger. Yet, once we go down that path, we rationalize truth away. Luckily, the bike

incident and a severe aunts lecture taught me early on about this important virtue. I

never forgot it. I learned my painful lesson.

Perhaps there is someone that really needs to hear the truth from you TODAY?

Are you brave enough to tell the whole truth to this person?.

How would it change a relationship? What is to be gained from doing this?

We are all ministers to one another. We are all here to help each other. If we lie and are

guilty of making a choice that was impulsive, we can learn from it. Who do we blame

for things in our life? Above all, where is our fear coming from? Well, there are only so

many parts to the day that we exist in. We sleep, we eat, we work, we socialize.

NOW - in the working and socializing of our lives come the dilemmas, the dramas, and

the dis-ease, and at times….darkness. It’s important to ask ourself, “do we like and can we tolerate the work we do?”

If so, then it’s not the work. Do we feel peace-filled around those in our inner-circle?

If not, WHY NOT? What is there to discuss? Is there a white elephant in the room?

If we don’t address our biggest concerns, where do they go? How are they handled?

Trust me - they eventually manifest in our health somehow. Or, if another person

needs to be dealt with and you put it off, there will be more high drama until you

address it. If we have children that need our attention, or our guidance we must step up

to the plate or reap the consequences. If there is a family member or someone close

that needs to hear an “honest appeal”, best to pray first for guidance asking, “Thank

you for resolving things between this person and myself for the highest good of all.”

Then march right in and talk truth, tactfully, truthfully and with unconditional love in

your heart. It will all work out for the best.

Now, onto “being Boxed in” …. in this “box” we create for ourselves. We can easily

disassemble this box! We must disassemble this box. Draw a picture of “goal posts” on

four corners of a page. We need only put up boundaries to live within these goal posts.

Herein are the “goal posts of GOLD and the new framework of our lives, IF you choose to

accept this. we can paste to our refrigerator.

1. GRACE - Gods grace replaces blame.

2. FAITH replaces all our Fear.

3. HONESTY replaces all the Lies.

4. BRAVERY replaces all Blame.

My recipe for Healthy Living starts with HUMILITY.

Each person needs to possess 100% Humility.

Saying each morning, “Not my way today Lord, but THY WAY today Lord”.

Humility Definition:

“A person with humility needs to accept another way may be better than the way we

are currently living and doing things”. In other words - Humility is Freedom from pride or

arrogance. When we agree to humble ourselves, we can then hear our “higher self”

guidance. This now allows us FREEDOM from feeling and being “Boxed In”.

It all starts with one quiet earnest prayer.

‘CAN I stop feeling “Boxed in” Lord?

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“Let it Go!'' Blog #51

Have you ever been so angry it took over your thoughts day and night? Have you ever

been so afraid of something that everything in your power kept you stuck? Have you

gone back and forth, and regretted something you did or said over and over?

Absolutely, most of us can answer yes to all of the above. Anger, Fear and Regret are

three thieves that rob us all of our peaceful self content. Lots of us have said we need to

get a hold on our tempers. That will fix everything, but only for a bit. Where does all that

anger go that resides inside of us? Others of us have said fear keeps us stuck from

doing things we really want to do. Then the other biggie, Regret, that giant sink hole that

can swallow us up fast if we but allow it.

When I was a small girl, one of my favorite things to own was a big balloon on a string.

Most often at birthday parties balloons are given out and can be hours of fun.. I

especially remember one balloon Id been given at a party. All my friends were taking

them outside and running down the block fast. As I ran out the door, my balloon

caught on the door hinge, the string dislodged and I watched in sadness as my balloon

floated up, up, up in the air and disappeared from sight. Would you believe me if I

told you that is exactly the way to make anger, fear and regret leave? Anger, Fear and

Regret can disappear from our thoughts in a blink only IF we are willing and want this to

happen!

I most certainly do not say this lightly. For I am a great example of a person that for a

very long time in my life, carried fear, held on to anger and big time, regret. I held mass

quantities of fear and my anger was bundled heavily with regret. I have to say

unequivocally that there was not one ounce of real faith working inside of me either. Did

I think that mattered? Not at all. I let this eat at me day and night. This was a life that I

had always known, why change things?

As far as I was concerned, all I needed to do was busy myself and bury myself and

consume myself in my work. I sold houses for a living, so that was not hard to do. The

biggest problem with all of that is this: there must be BALANCE in Body, Mind and Spirit in

order to not just survive…..but to thrive! Otherwise, all that darkness can eat you up and

cause serious harm in health and mind and spirit.

Yet, I did not know any of this and I was not even inerested in finding a way out. If my

thoughts that seemed to consume me so much of the time, got to be too much, I just

poured myself another glass of wine before I went to bed. I was so tired from working so

hard, this usually did the trick. I remembered my neighbor had given me a ticket to go

hear a famous guru who was giving a seminar on “Mindfulness and Peace”. My anxiety

had been getting the best of me lately, and I realized I still had the ticket. I made up my

mind to go because it was the next night.

Once I arrived it was mind-blowing. There had to be a couple thousand people

there. The crowds of people were everywhere and I somehow found a seat midway

center and packed between two very chatty individuals. I sat down and hoped no one

would talk to me. The man to my right looked like a mid 40’s science professor and was

laughing and talking animately to the woman next to him. I tried very hard to

concentrate, but this night all the tragedy and sadness in my life were catching up to

me. My anger and fear and regret had been coming out in blatent panic attacks,

randomly. I was beginning to be unsure of my self composure and I was filled with

more anger, fear and regret until it was getting to be too much. I sat there trying to

concentrate but it was hard to hear and I had decided at the intermission, I would leave.

After all, I rationalized, no one else probably had been through what I went through, so

why should I think I would learn anything here tonight any way? I was about to get the

surprise of my life.

At the intermission I was squished between people trying to make their way to the

concession stand and I just wanted to go to my car. Suddenly a hand reached out and

touched my shoulder, I turned around. It was the man who had been sitting next to me

and now he was standing here still smiling! What in the world did he want with me? I

looked over at him, almost annoyed he had the nerve to touch my shoulder. Then he

spoke some words that wound up having more impact on my inner life healing than all

the therapy sessions, all the books and tapes I had ever listened to. He looked over at

me kindly as he began to speak: “I hope you are enjoying yourself as much as I am

tonight”. he said. “You know, I lost my wife and four daughters in a house fire. I am so

thankful for the lessons I have learned from their losing their lives in the fire that night, I

hope you have a good evening.” With that remark said, he disappeared into the crowd

and I never even got to know his name! I was overcome with emotion from what he

had just said to me. Not to mention the fact that I had summed him up, sitting next to

me, to be someone that didn’t have a care in the world and maybe was even a tad

overbearing.

Yet, once again, I did not know this person at all. The universe was proving different to

me and what a learning moment this had become. Now as I hurried to my car, I was in

a state of emotional, overwhelming confusion. Yet, I also felt I was amazed at my own

inner calmness. I sat in the parking lot and cried for a very long time because I felt the

universe had showed me real truth tonight. WHAT IF everything happens to each of us

INDIVIDUALLY to learn the lessons we are suppose to learn? IF that is true, then the anger,

the fear and the regret are all blindfolds.! They are just there to get our attention,

address what we need to correct and MOVE ON. I can honestly say, my anger left me

that night for all the wrong doing I could not fix. My fear was replaced with faith

because I felt the hand of God upon my heart and turning my head in a different

direction. My regret was instantly replaced with “real reason”, understanding in that

moment, my past held the only tools I had then and when the student is ready the

teacher appears “that was then and this is now”. I started praying that night, in real

earnest, and I will not stop as long as I live. For I now know HE is here and listens to every

prayer I pray.

“Can you find a way to “Let it Go” tonight?

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“A Way Out..” Blog 50

It is so easy to get up every morning and just do the same thing. Every person likes the

familiar. We are comfortable with what we know. Change is hard. More often than not,

we are thrown into change without realizing how it came to be. Another person, an

event, a life changing moment when we leave the familiar behind. Nature in all its

beauty is a great teacher. Take for instance the furry, little caterpillar crawling around

on the ground. At some point it goes into a “cocoon” and miraculously, a Monarch

Butterfly takes its place. Why does this happen? My take on this is because it is “free

now” The lowly caterpillar crawled around the earth until it was his time. Time to

change. Time for the cocoon. Then time for the bright beautiful butterfly.

Our time on this earth is a lot like this and very important. Its important for each one of

us to separtely see the individual lessons we “each are meant to learn”. Then we evolve.

I remember a time long ago when my favorite place to be was up at my Grandpa’s

cabin. Why? This was a magical, beautiful safe place to be. More than the old log

cabin filled with history, it was the people there who created the drama, the lessons and

the memories. The old aunts were amazing cooks and they fussed day in and day out,

over my grandpa. They could make a fabulous meal morning, noon or night. Always

there were wonderful aromas coming out of the old log kitchen. Home made Danish

coffee cake baking in the oven, a pork roast marinating on the counter for dinner.

Chocolate chip cookies in the oven. On the days when the sun was out, the lake was

serene and smooth. Water skiing would be perfect. Yet my aunts would be scurrying

around after the big breakfast dishes and now on to the morning wash. Hanging the

white sheets out on the line with clothespins clipped securely in the morning sun.

Nothing smelled better than fresh sheets, blowing in the breeze, and the beds made.

Yet, why do I bring this up now? Because there was a safety net of peace in all of this.

I saw how they revered and cherished and took good care their father. My own life had

been so fear based before I moved in with them. Yes, now I had a lot of chores to do, but

it made me feel good about myself, and they would always be there.

I never gave it a thought that things would change. My aunts and my grandpa were

getting old, but in my mind they were fixtures in the old summer cabin. They were tough

on me, I must say I never really felt their love. But I gleamed something so much more.

I watched and observed and saw my Grandfather for ‘who he was’ more than anything

else. My aunts would gossip and spill their anger at times on all the different family

members, and my grandpa just watched. He said nothing. He watched and listened

and ate all the good food they made. The delicious, different Devine aromas coming

out of the kitchen, somehow made me feel safe. My grandpa sitting in his big easy

chair in the great paneled vaulted room with that massive stone fireplace overlooking

the Lake, brought it all together.

What’s not to love. The entire irony of it all was me. Where was I at in my own head?

In one simple word. Young! I was young and anxious and filled with the need for

excitement. Yet, somehow my grandpa without ever knowing it, made me feel safe. His

presence and his “way of living life” gave me subtle, silent, inner hope. My own parents

were emeshed in their selfish, alcoholic, demanding world. Small children took a back

seat to their daily dark drama and by the time I was thirteen years old., internally I was

tired of the fighting, screaming, and crying that kept me awake night after night.

So I asked my aunts and my Grandpa IF I could move in with them. This is where I lived

for three years and finished high school.

I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE EASY. My aunts were demanding and tough and workaholics.

Often they talked badly about my family. They claimed to be Christians and follow the

Bible and go to church, but they didn’t live that way! It was okay for me to think badly

about my parents, but it cut to my core when my aunts said cruel things. So I was

confused a lot, but never scared there. I thought I had found solice and definitely a

“way out” of all my problems. There’s a great saying, “If you want to make God laugh,

tell him your plans”.

Living with my aunts and Grandpa was anything but easy. They were demanding. An

old German family that worked seven days a week and more if they could have! Their

life was built around their restaurant business that seemed to keep them emblazoned

with energy night and day. Ironically it was not my aunts that gave me the inner

fortitude and courage and drive I feel I have, but my Grandpa. He was the one that

lived almost to one hundred. Was there a special way out of trouble that he taught me?

No, not at all. He showed me something better. He had learned the art of acceptance

and observance and inner peace. This was a man that seldom spoke. Yet, when he did,

we all listened. This was a man way into his nineties that awoke, shaved, put on his Old

Spice and fresh ironed white shirt, rolled up his sleeves and came down to a big

breakfast every morning and started his day. He was interested in every part of life. He

read countless papers daily. He lived with his three daughters in a big colonial and

carried on quietly in life, one day at a time. Silently, he showed me he had found “a way

out” of fear. His Bible lay on the table beside his bed, opened daily. It was the simple

way he lived life that made me “feel safe” and subconsciously see I too, had “a way out”

of my fear of anything.

By the end, the big old cabin had been exchanged for a home in Arizona. The hot sun

and the desert in bloom was a great memory I still have. I watched his daughters cook

and clean and magically prepare a beautiful meal three times a day for my grandpa.

There was one morning I especially remember, he had come down to breakfast and I

smelled his clean shaven face pass by me at the table. A White linen table cloth and

five course breakfast await him. “How you feeling” today, Grandpa,?” I said. “His warm

twinkling eyes smiled back at me, as he said; “with my fingers Barbie”. I watched as he

slowly ate his morning prunes, then on to nice hot oatmeal. Coming up was a

homemade omelet with his favorite cinammon roll freshly baked and hot out of the

oven. All this topped off with a little real cream in his coffee. When my grandpa had

finished his breakfast, I sat there amazed. He knew just how to do it and was ready for

the day now. At twenty three I had a lot to learn.

Smiling, he drew a big sigh of contentment. Looking over at my aunts he spoke, “You

know girls, I’m gonna take a little rest and I‘ll see you later”. Slowly he got up and I

watched him at almost ninety seven, walk up three flights of stairs.

Then my mind shifted, it was time for a swim on such a beautiful, sunny day. I was at

the swimming pool not even an hour later. The hot sun felt good and I was drifting in

and out of sleep. My eldest aunt came running out to the pool and gestured for me to

come quickly. I went running up to my grandpas bedroom, stood there silently for a

moment and took in the peacefulness. Very slowly I walked over to my grandpa and

touched the tip of his nose, It was ice cold but the room felt warm and inviting. I

remember the sun dancing on the white Chenille bedspread that had been carefully

folded back. My grandpas dark dress pants still had the press in them as he lay on top

of the bed. His hands folded carefully over his chest. He looked so very peaceful. I

remember looking down at him and still feeling so safe by his side.

Why? Because once again, he was showing me the “way out” and it wasn’t scary at all!

My grandpa had survived and lived and thrived to be almost one hundred years old

and he showed me how he did it. Everything in his life held balance. Whether it was

food, or drink, or conversation, there was moderation in all he did. And he never judged

anyone. More than anything else he loved to laugh with his nightly show of Red Skelton.

Above all, his quiet faith endeared and showed me the “way out” of all fear.

“Knock and the door will be open, for HE is waiting. Jesus Christ is truly here.

Can your find a way out of fear with HIS light?

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“Powerful Change” Blog #49

We wake up in the morning, hopefully with a clear head. All that we did or didn’t do,

should have been resolved in prayer and meditation before we went to sleep.

Now is a brand new day. Here is a beautiful thought:

“I am content exactly where I am.”

What a wonderful surprise for each of us to discover being alone is not lonely.

“I am loved and alive and not lonely.”

There is power in this exact statement. No one person is better off than the next. We are

each given different life experiences day in and day out, to learn from. Then we move

on to the next. Our whole life is one learning experience. We are only alive to love, learn

lessons and help someone in need. Then we leave earth, only and if and when it is our

time to go. In the meantime, its okay to have fun too.. Learn to love yourself and have

fun with self. I am sure there are alot of people who just plain don’t know how to enjoy

life? My best way to start all over at the beginning of a brand New Year is this. “assume

nothing”. Do not assume it will be a beautiful or gray day tomorrow, work with today.

Do not assume other people are out to get you, ignore you, are against you. Work on

“YOU”. Make a plan for your own day and start by being good to yourself. Perhaps do

something you want to do least. Exercise? Go for a walk? Forgive someone?

TAKE NOTHING FOR GRANTED. DO NOT DEPEND ON OTHER PEOPLE FOR YOUR HAPPINESS.

When I say assume nothing, this is what I mean. No one knows the working mind of

another person. No one knows what is on their plate and the stress they carry within

them.

With that thought in mind, I am, going to tell you about a situation that happened to me

years back. I was living in another state and I had decided to go to a Weekend Seminar

on Mindfulness and Solitude. I was checked into a religious facility where the people

attending the seminar were all given a room with a twin bed, a table and a lamp. There

was a small bedside rug and a shared bathroom down the hall. No electronics. No tv’s,

no radios, no use of our phone (except for emergency). To say the least, it was very

stark. However, I loved where I was and the desert setting especially in the Springtime

was breathtaking. Now I had promised myself that I especially wanted to learn some

techniques for “peace and solitude”. After putting all my things in order, I was ready to

explore. There was a short time before dinner when we could walk the property and

meet other guests. I found a younger woman had checked in and was right next door

to me. She appeared to be near my age. I thought she would be a perfect person to

meet and start with. So I walked next door and because there was a small window in

the door, I could see she was in the room, with her back to me. I knocked on the door

quite a few times, each time a little harder. However, for what ever reason, she decided

not to come to the door and even meet me! All the same, I knocked hard one last time

and then walked away, actually quite miffed. She was a very pretty woman and I could

see that she dressed simply but lovely and carried herself well. I immediately became

frustrated and my mind was racing. “Why did I even come here”, I started to think. At

this point, I was almost ready to give up. However, I thought so many others are just

arriving and I have not even gone to my first dinner. It was important for me to give this

another chance. I am not going into the small details of every thing that raced through

my mind. But I will say this, Its amazing how my opinion of one person could taint my

day. I know I could have learned so much more if I hadn’t been focusing on this

situation and could have learned about myself. I was preoccupied with fixing a

situation that was out of my control. Was it pride? Arrogance? Anger? It doesn’t

matter. All are wrong. Here is why the end of the weekend held such importance and

why this experience meant so much to me, even after all these years. Over the next

couple of days I saw this woman off and on, every time I saw her it was somewhat ironic

that I would either be in line behind her standing for food or somewhere across the

room where our eyes did not connect. However, when I was in line behind her, at least

once or twice I tried to talk to her from behind and she did not seem to have the time of

day for me. I talked softly to her and she did not even turn around! I HAD DECIDED SHE

WAS JUST TOO STUCK UP. By the end of the seminar all of the twenty four guests were

placed in a large circle in a big room and we were were told to share why we came to

the seminar and one main thing we had learned. I sat there listening as we went

around the room and I am not going to pretend to tell you. All this time I carried with

me over the weekend, anger and confusion as to why this woman chose to just ignore

me like this. Did she think she was better than me?

Well, remember a ways back in this blog, when I mentioned “assume nothing”? By the

time the questions got to this woman across the room, I was staring right at her. Now I

could hear her respond and see just what kind of a Christian would be so unkind and

ignore me all weekend when I was trying to be her friend. Interestingly enough, it did not

turn out anything like I imagined! The universe has it’s own way of teaching different

lessons to each of us.

Suddenly there was another woman that pulled up a chair next to her. She took a paper

from this woman’s hand and began to read, “I am so thankful to be here at this seminar.

I have struggled since birth with my deafness and I now want to thank everyone who

has helped me feel welcome.”

WHAT….? What did she just say? What had I been assuming all weekend long? For the

past three days I had thought she just didn’t care to meet me! I assumed she just didn’t

want to answer the door! I ASSUMED she was too arrogant to turn around and talk to

me!

Does anything I say register in your life about assuming things? Of course we all do this.

Now is a great time to start with baby steps and just work on “O U R S E L F’. One baby

step at a time. Nobody else problems or troubles or issues are up to us to correct. We

cannot fix another human soul! We are here and alive and on earth to work on SELF.

I think there was a strong message in the story I just shared. Whether it is a family

member, or a friend, or anyone who has hurt us - it is all behind us now. There was a

lesson in that situation to learn from.

We are preparing, if you are reading this BLOG, to start now with Powerful Change. We

can all start together and be willing to say this,

“I will assume nothing from this moment forward”.

We all know from my last Blog “Who” we can call on for unseen help and HE is right here

waiting for us. The Lord Jesus Christ is our best friend. We are never alone. “The proof is

in the pudding”, as the old saying goes. Good thoughts show good actions.

Say “Lord I need You” then ask, “What is one thing I will not assume?”

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“New Year’s Hero” Blog #48

It’s the end of the year. In all honesty, can we all look back in truth? Here are some of

my favorite ideas on how I stay connected daily. As we look back, I privately reflect,

going forward, how will l do things differently? Of course, I have thought about all of my

life’s burdens, but I see, everyone has them. So how to best tackle life and If Hero’s are

out there, what DO they look like? WHY do we look for love in all the wrong places?

Because we don’t see HIM first.

Day in and day out - subconsciously, we seek happiness. Yet, its as fleeting as a

butterfly, as lasting as a moments laughter or a beautiful song. A fact to remember is

this; “Our body is the Temple of God”. Whatever does this mean, it means this: JUST TAKE

GOOD CARE OF IT.

A soul lives in your body -

Your body holds a mind -

Every one of us has health - The KEY to life is balance in ALL three of these.

First and foremost we must learn to love, respect and forgive ourself, and go from there.

Do we care for, or abuse our body daily? Do we cherish good thoughts, or do we dwell

in lies? It’s hard to start new and it takes work to improve health, nothing that is

worthwhile is easy. The baby steps count - one step at a time.

So after tomorrow its a NEW YEAR. Can we abandon all “Bad feelings” Let go of what we

cannot possibly fix?. Here is a fact of life. ONLY work on SELF. SELF is the only part of you

that you can truly work and improve on. NO ONE ELSE. In the big picture of Life, it just

doesn’t matter “what they did to you”. You must move on! HE is here for you all the way.

Each one of us are right where we are suppose to be. You are reading this, right? So life

is gonna be okay. Day after new day, then its New Year’s Day. Grab it and start a new

way.

Reflect, look back and “learn to discern” THEN move forward. Letting other peoples

problems not affect the way you choose to live your life. We put it off, don’t we?

Whether its a pill, another drink, or whatever, what can replace this now to take away the

pressure? HE will do it. HE IS THERE FOR US. HE will NEVER leave.

When we put things off til tomorrow, tomorrow still comes, then what? Are there even

more “troubled tunes” to listen to? Of course there are!

Here is a great verse from a song back when - “Love on the rocks, ain’t no surprise, just

pour me a drink and I’ll tell you some lies..”

We are still looking for that hero right? No one person has a quick fix for anything

anyway. Life is full of bumps and bruises. So many platitudes out there reminding us

that “Life is not for sissies or the faint hearted”. If all this is true, How can we possibly

measure up? Let’s go back to bed and get up again and go look in the mirror and who

do we see? YOU. Only You can get it all together and have it be okay, I promise you are

not alone anymore.

NEW YEARS start up TIP #1 Speak softly to self saying, “I can’t do it alone, Thank you for

helping me now Jesus”. Suddenly a feeling sweeps in and over us. Now we sort it out

correctly. Praying brings in LOVE, mass quantities. Then LOVE brings in Forgiving, this lifts

burdens.

The Last day of the year is tomorrow. We all have some homework to do….. New Year’s

RESOLUTIONS 2023. Here is where it is time to PUT IN WRITING AND SAY ON PAPER -

“This is the last day I will ever …………..”

“This is the last day I will try to fix someone I can’t fix ………….”

“This is the last day I will Lie to myself about anything ……………”

Put this list on your refrigerator and follow through with good actions. By writing your

resolutions you and I can STOP BEING STUCK IN DOING THE SAME THING. YES, change is

fearful. Yes, it is tiring and looking for answers alone is frightening. So today I come with

answers. Honest Life change Happens in a breath when you remember to say this,

“I thank you for helping me and walking with me now Jesus”. Then a heavy heart sighs,

for now a feeling of peace is replacing all the lies. The veil is lifting and all that is left is

YOU. You begin to feel strong and realizing now strength has been inside you all along.

The hopeless feeling is gone. HE was just waiting for YOU to be strong. When HE puts

aside the veil to finally show HIS truth, you realize that truth is crystal clear. Of course HE

has been waiting, always waiting, patiently waiting, and he shows the truth-filled, honest,

real you. For deep inside your heart, the New Years Hero is YOU!

Go forward and experience this blessed New Year 2023 with brand new tools.

Happy New Year and May God Bless you with love in your heart always.

Can you start with seven honest New Years Resolutions?

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“Believe It, Or Not” Blog #47

What beliefs make up you who you are? We are the sum total of our belief systems.

Are Santa Claus and Jesus Christ real?

We start out life by going to school, finishing school and then believing in what? STOP a

minute, many of us have no clue what to believe in! The majority of us quit studying

anything after we get out of school. We take on belief systems that “fit into the moment of

wherever we are” and we “never look back”!

FEW PEOPLE STUDY ABOUT HISTORICAL THEOLOGY, THE UNIVERSE, OR THE MAN JESUS?

We refuse to believe in miracles, yet how is a baby really made? How can billions of

different faces be created out of one circular shape? Where to rainbows REALLY come

from and then go to? What do we even know for sure?

Years ago a little girl wrote to the Editor of the New York Sun Newspaper. She asked a

simple question. It has since become history’s most reprinted newspaper editorial!

“DEAR EDITOR:

I am 8 years old. Some of my little friends say there is no Santa Claus. Please tell me the

truth, is there a Santa Claus?“

Signed:

Virginia O’Hanlon.

115 West. 95th St.

New York, NY

Dear Virginia:

“Your little friends are wrong. They have been affected by the skepticism of a skeptical

age. They do not believe except what they see. They think nothing can BE which is not

comprehensible by their little minds. All minds, Virginia, whether they’re mens or children’s,

are little. In this great universe of ours, Man is a mere insect, an ant in his intellect, as

compared with the boundless world about him, as measured by the intelligence capable

of grasping the whole of truth and all knowledge.

YES, Virginia, There is a Santa Claus! He exists as certainly as LOVE and GENEROSITY and

DEVOTION exist. And they abound and give your life its highest beauty and joy. Alas - how

dreary the world would be IF there were no Santa Claus. It would be as dreary as if there

were no Virginia’s! There would be no childlike faith, no poetry, no romance to make life

tolerable. We would have no enjoyment except sense and sight. The external light with

which childhood faith fills the world would be extinguished. Not believe in Santa Claus, you

might as well not believe in fairies! The most real things in the world are those that neither

children nor men can see. Nobody can conceive or imagine all the wonders that are

unseen and unseeable in the world. There is a veil covering the unseen world which NOT

the strongest man or even the united strength of all the strongest men that have ever

lived, can tear apart! Only FAITH, poetry, LOVE and romance can push aside that curtain

and view the picture of the supernatural beauty and glory beyond. Is it all real?

Ah….Virginia, in all the world there is nothing else more real and abiding. No Santa Claus?

Thank God! HE lives and HE lives forever. A thousand years from now Virginia, no ten times

ten thousand years from now, HE will continue to make glad the hearts of childhood.”

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Simple belief in something so great is a miracle in and of itself. JUST BELIEVE IN HIS LOVE.

Open your heart and you will feel it.

“One Solitary Life”

HE was born in an obscure village. HE worked in a carpenter shop until HE was thirty.

HE then became an itinerant preacher. HE never held an office. HE never had a

family, or owned a house. HE didn’t go to college. HE had no credentials but himself.

Twenty one centuries have come and gone, and today HE is the central figure of the

whole human race.

All the armies that have ever marched, all the navies that have ever sailed,

All the parliaments that have ever sat, and all the Kings that have ever reigned,

Have not affected the lives of men on this earth,

as much as this one solitary Life. (Jesus Christ)

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C. S. Lewis writes: “Once in our world a stable had something in it that was bigger than

our whole world…..”

How can anyone go out into the night, look at the moon and the stars and not believe?

HE is everything to believe in. HE was love personified. HE is the Christmas miracle. Love is

in every song, every story and every family that has ever lived. Believe now and feel safe.

Believe now and love. Believe and be at Peace.

I say this Christmas Prayer for all of us,

“May we have HIS courage to forgive someone who has hurt us badly. May we continue to

look at life with no regrets. And, may we see each other through Jesus Christ’s eyes only”.

As we come to the end of 2022 let us all remember just how fleeting Life is. None of us

knew as our family gathered together, that it would be Bridget’s last Christmas.

Now listen to Bridget….

Now I believe the soul of Bridget lives on. She is learning, and loving, and listening to

angelic guidance given for her soul’s growth. May she live eternally in the Light of Christ.

A Blessed Merry Christmas to each and everyone of you.

Can you prayerfully ask to see others through Jesus’s eyes only?

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“Pain Proves What? Blog #46

It’s interesting to note that one of the greatest atheists (non-believer in Jesus Christ)

was C. S Lewis. Here was a world renown author, who wrote the famous books,

“Chronicles of Narnia”. He wrote countless other famous books as well. Did you know

C. S. Lewis is one of the most famous Christian writers of all time? How did this Atheist

become a Christian? Did his pain have anything to do with his beliefs? When this

famous writer was only nine years old, his mother died. Then C. S. Lewis entered WW11 at

the ripe old age of nineteen. He saw death first hand and was almost mortally

wounded. He left the war after only six months. This famous atheist questioned “how

could a good God allow so many good people to die?” Suffering and pain are all part of

the process of Life.

Every single person goes full circle.

I believe that this famous author lived in an analytical world. He pondered life and

looked at life from an intellectual schism. However, he sought happiness in the outside

world in another human being. He married for what was only a short time of three years

and watched his wife die of cancer. I am assuming this man’s pain humbled the man.

For it is only in pain and suffering that we are chiseled and molded into something

much better. This is “where God takes a breath and works seriously with us”. I believe

Jesus Christ in all his humanity, took on the suffering and pain of others. He came into

the world perfect. He taught simple perfect laws. He showed by perfect example how

to live. He stepped out of his humaness to perform miracles, one after another. The

ironic twist to all of this is HE could have come down off of the cross, but HE chose not to!

In his human pain, rather saying, “Father forgive them, for they know not what they do”.

But none of this was enough for mankind!

For this mans entire being was a threat to all those around him. Why? Because no one

person could walk in HIS footsteps. Therefore C. S. Lewis realized that all intellectual

answers as to “why” we have pain and suffering is because we learn about Christs light

through pain, patience & fortitude. This digs in deep through our complacency. Pain

exists as a “great teacher” to us intimately.

Human pain is the “attention getter” and brings us to our knees. Pain helps us to

reorganize our thoughts, reset our priorities and readdress where our true grievances lie.

It’s interesting to note here, that years back when 9/11/2001 occurred and many

thousands of lives were lost - amidst all the mass of metal and debris from the Twin

Towers crashing down to the ground, right in the middle of all that debris was a

perfectly, untouched cross from the church across the street. Symbolic in all its

simplicity in such a secular world. What is the message that was being sent here?

Now we look back to how this famous writer discovered his own Christianity. We are

told he wrestled for years in his atheist state and then suddenly realizing one must go

down, way down, before a person can begin the arduous journey up. Up into the light

of Christ and this is where C. S. Lewis discovered Christ in a beautiful English garden.

In “Wallaby Woods, this beautiful English garden captivated this analytical atheists’

being. Christianity completely turned him inside out.

Of course, I cannot begin to summarize how this famous Christian writer, who wrote

countless books on his own personal journey, went from being an atheist to a Christian.

It is not possible to summarize this amazing fact in just a few sentences. One would

have to delve deeper, read one or many of his famous books. But this fact remains,

C. S.Lewis is a reputable source for conversion. What a fascinating, astute, scholar.

His garden experience makes me wonder what do I actually SEE each day?

When I wake up and walk out into the secular world around me, what am I open to?

Yes, I am alive, but what stands in my way of constantly pushing me up the path,

up onto the higher road? In my own lifetime I have suffered profound pain. I have

questioned and doubted and suffered to the very core of my being, I have cried out; “IF

you are here, WHERE are you Jesus?”…. “WHY was I put here?”

“Why did I have half my family wiped out, taken from me in horrific ways?” I kept myself

in darkness for a very long time. This was my own personal pain. Now, as I look back at

the young person I started out energetically as, I see a stranger. Here was a young

woman, foolish and fear-based. Fear was always at bay, I look back and see a person

that was hiding out from her “higher self”, totally clueless. I had little or no interest in

finding a place in the Christian community. I had no interest in learning about the man

Jesus. I actually only looked at any type of faith as perhaps a feeble “911 call”. “Maybe”, I

rationalized, “I might cry out in an emergency. I might call out in the depths of my

despair, in dire need. But only IF it ever really got that bad…”

I think people have no idea what they really need for their pain. People, like my

daughter Bridget, use drugs, alcohol and pills to camouflage their pain. Most people

don’t know when it gets to a point of no return.

Then one day, when I least expected it, it got that bad. My pain finally brought me to my

knees and did just that. I am humbled to say I was lost but now feel very much alive.

I am a true believer in Jesus the man, and Jesus Christ my Lord, my Savior.

Miracles have definitely happened to me. No question about believing in HIM.

There is such a peace-filled comfort in knowing a real person that took on his humanity,

in all his perfection, cared that much about me. I feel safe now.

Do you want to believe in Jesus Christ?

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“Up, Over Anger” Blog #45

““I’ll be home for Christmas, you can count on me. Please have snow and mistletoe and

presents under the tree. Christmas Eve will find me where the love light beams, I’ll be

home for Christmas - if only in my dreams…….”

One of the oldest songs to celebrate the holiday season says it all. Nothing is worse

than seeing people who once loved each other, say hateful painful things to each other.

People who know each other well, (familiy members) can hurt each other in cruel,

intimate ways that only they know and keep score about. In your family, you know who

is vulnerable and how to take advantage of the situation. So when you think they

deserve it, think again. It may last a lifetime.

Be vulnerable, be open to change, willing to look at shame, sadness and regret

internally. If not, the other choice wins out! Stay in a prison that is built internally with

walls of resentment. Yet somewhere deep inside us lies inner wisdom, intuition and

imagination wait to do things differently.

I was looking at a few Christmas cards I started getting and am sad to see two cards

from a divided family. Last year one card came, from the same people. They have a

beautiful family and yet, are now divorced. Today there are more divorced families then

there are married families. More hate is replacing love that cemented judgement. All

the while the children are watching and hurting and waiting….Does anybody care?

Today in the secular world we have to ask ourselves, “what really counts?” Where is the

light that shines bright in each heart today as we get ready for HIS birth at Christmas.

Can you replace dark thoughts with light?

Can you replace fear with Faith?

Can you replace anger with acceptance?

Our children, family, health? The universe will always get our attention. If suddenly we

are given notice that something very serious affects our health. Does it not take center

stage? Of course it does. This puts all in perspective.

Yet, day in and day out we wrestle with our rage. We debate internally what this person

or that person did to us. We take this to heart and we keep it locked safely away. Our

ANGER AND all the JUDGEMENT.sitting deep within us. An old saying goes like this;

“We are not punished for our anger, but certainly our anger will punish us.”

WHAT IF All our anger is uinderstood now to be “our own lesson to learn from?”

Look at the person you have issues with, ask for help from HIM to see them differently.

Ask to see others thru HIS eyes. Even if you are not a faith-filled person, this will work!

Suddenly all anger, resentment and judgement is replaced with acceptance. A quiet

peace takes over you just where you are.

I started my Blog in the Memory of my daughter Bridget because I first came to the

realization and, understanding that above all, I could not fix things for her. One cannot

control another person.

I see now that I am alive because I can only love, learn and forgive myself. When

children are born, it’s time to give up selfish desires. Life becomes healthier when one

acceps this. The sad piece to this is: IF we donot have spiritual ammunition and spiritual

weapons to fight the darkness that comes creeping around, and the tragedy may befall

us, then darkness starts to control our life.

Drip by drip. Until it takes over and we forget…… we give up control and we give in to SELF.

We give in to anger and our life dives into a downward spiral. That is until we can’t rake

it anymore…….. and “our true self says a little prayer for help. The way is so simple. Yet, It

took me a full circle through all my anger to accept HIM.

If you just read this and choose to answer with the words “but,… except,… or if only…”

NOW search Your heart for truth. Maybe someone needs to hear the following words…

Simply say “I love you, Lets agree to disagree”. That statement may build a bridge that

goes over the wide river of discontent.

I was so angry at my father for all the terrible things he did to himself with his drinking. All

the abuse to my mother and family. Then after college I moved away out of state. I

was determined never to come home again. Then I heard from a family member my

father was dying of cancer. As much as I wanted to go home, my anger kept me away!

I was so bitter and angry. Then I did not come home until it was his funeral. Too late to

say our goodbyes. That was over forty years ago. To this day, I wished I would have

handled it differently. Yet, death is clearly permanent. It is truly a great teacher in so

very many ways.

Death is overwhelming that way. It waits for no one.

The KEY to all of this is self Love. IF I can love myself. Then I can learn to forgive myself.

Big giant key is SELF. We have to start with ourself. Forgive ourself for how we look at

ourselves and how we are judging others and what we did in the past. This resolves

much anger.

Everyone is on their own path.

If I were given the chance before I came to earth, to actually SEE my life and where it

was to go - I am sad to say, I would be petrified, afraid to do it definitely, not willing to

take the risk. Yet, here I am. My whole biological family was devided by horror and

death. My daughter, now dead and no more. The very idea that I could fix things

differently is pretty futile. However I am now resolved to this fact:

”KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.”

THE more you learn about your own self and spirituality is powerful. Who am I today?

I would not trade “ME” for the young woman I started out as. “I finally feel alive.”

We are on a road to a place of peace. No anger, hate or judgement, they do not exist.

“There but for the grace of God go I”……..

Can you let go of your anger today?

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“A Memory……” Blog #44

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(Memorial in lieu of the funeral I was never allowed to have for my daughter.)

Today I take time to remember my daughter Bridgets birthday. This Sunday December

4th, she will have been gone one year -5 months and 14 days. Most of you never knew

her. Many of you wonder what can be gleamed from this? Others may feel it too

depressing to read. However, I vowed to myself in her honor, all Blogs will be positive,

insightful and above all, uplifting in sharing my coping skills.

Todays Blog is My gift to Bridget’s Spirit. For above all, I believe her soul lives on.

Quiet has replaced her energy.

Faith has replaced my fear.

Acceptance replacing my anger.

I look back now, only at her goodness. “Blessed and beautiful” her Priest had told us as

she was Baptized in her Catholic Faith and went on to take her First Communion. Bridget

did well in school, graduated and went on to Indiana University where she made her two

best friends. Laughter and healthy living saw them through four years of college. There

were plans together and beyond as college came to a close, Bridget did a Semester

abroad in Seville Spain, where she went on to Paris, France meeting her Mom and family

with best friend and Julie’s parents. We all traveled Europe together. The girls had great

plans for their lives ahead.. Her brother and friend wanted her to move to NYC and go to

Graduate School.

Bridget was torn, thus she moved to Chicago instead.

Graduating with a Masters Degree in Early Childhood Education, Bridget finished all her

years at DePaul University. She stayed on in Chicago with favorite cat and dog for a few

more years. Bridget was choosing day in and day out on her own.

We do not know “the why” in choices she made. When Bridget came back to her home

state, she worked as a teacher at Blake Private School. She was a great teacher and

taught third grade. She had her own apt overlooking a lake.

Then she met someone and decided to marry.

We designed a beautiful diamond ring from her Grandma for her engagement. We

gave her a keepsake wedding in a tiny, rustic church over looking a big lake. On a sunny

day in August, with relatives and 150 friends to help celebrate, Bridget had high hopes

and dreams she’d married someone who loved her. After a few years we saw that this

beautiful Mother had bore two healthy, adoring sons, just a couple years apart. In the

eight years Bridget was married she went on to accomplish alot. In this short time

frame she created a prosperous Moving Business from scratch. Because of her

marketing skills and savy business sense this allowed them to build a beautiful home for

their children, family, dog and cat.

Bridget was strong and bright with a very funny nature. I find joy in remembering her

beautiful essence. Internally, I focus on her contagious laughter, uplifting words and her

kind heart. For Bridget was determined to instill in her sons faith in Jesus Christ our Lord.

She made a commitment to Baptize both her boys after they were born. “Regardless of

what happens, Mom “ she had once said - they are protected now”

Whatever else she did, nightly she said prayers with her boys, talking about the man

Jesus. There was such beauty in watching her gardening. Many years giving me

pottings and plantings for Mothers Day. Her love of nature only added to her goodness

Practically speaking, Bridget was a phenomenal cook .Singing and humming all the

while preparing a favorite spaghetti dish in our Southern kitchen where we moved.

Once Bridget sent me an App of her favorite Guru, telling me “meditation brings me

peace Mom”. This beautiful woman was the personification of style . Her ingenious

creativity showed “why” she loved scrapbooking and poetry, putting together all her

memories in homemade picture books. Her favorite poem I share at the end.

Until the last few years, Bridget was able to maintain a beautiful presence and a model

manner of dress. Daily she put herself together in a flash and seemed to appear right

out of Vogue Magazine. Determined to make things work, she created her own sense of

style. Lively, lovely and so kind. she was always ready to help the underdog.

Determined and ready to “Fix things”. Trying harder with no thought of self.

Rationalizing ways to make things better. Let it be known her boys and her animals

adored everything about her.

When Bridget married for love, believed in love, she hoped for love in her marriage.

I say nothing more about that for I choose to share only good memories.

There were always two roads for Bridget to take before her life stopped…..

“It made all the difference”.

My precious Bridget Laura Elizabeth is in the Lords domain now. Here Jesus Christ holds

and heals and fills her soul forevermore with light. Arch Angel Michael, Arch Angel

Gabriel and Arch Angel Rafael clearly watch over her Spirit by day and night. I speak

with complete confidence in the knowing as I pray daily for Bridgets soul.

In light of the Eulogy I was never permitted to have, I leave it at that and dedicate this

poem and songs to her memory. This was her favorite poem.

“The Road Not Taken”

by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood, and looked down one as far as I could,

To where it bent in the undergrowth. Then took the other one just as fair,

and having perhaps the better claim, because it was grassy and wanted wear,

though as for that the passing there had worn them both really the same.

And both that morning equally lay, in leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh… I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how one way leads on to way,

I doubted now IF I would ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh somewhere ages and ages hence,

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -

I took the one less traveled by,

and that has made all the difference…..”

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“Bridget … you will be forever missed”.

I Love you, Mom.

“Alone & Alive” Blog #43

We’ve all felt lonely. We’e had horrible feelings of loss. Each one of us has been

afraid. Even the Queen of England in all her glory, showed her humanity and fragility

with sadness in her heart. She spoke on November 24, 1992 “I have not looked back on

this year with undiluted pleasure. This year has turned out to be an “Annis Horribilus”

(horrible year).” Windsor Castle went up in flames, and three out of her four children got

divorced. She said, "I am not alone in thinking so, about this year. Wisdom is lacking in

those who have instant opinions on all things great and small, without knowing truth.

So I tell you, we cannot pray too often. It is possible we have too much of a good thing

and not know it. Yet, he who has never failed only has the right to be the fiercest critic.”

So you can see, we all have been through tragedy, even the Queen of England herself,

hasbeen to a scary, lonely place. When we get to that scary, lonely place, how do we

cope?

When the cards have folded all around us, that’s when we want to hide from truth.

I decided I needed help after the recent death of my daughter Bridget. There was an

open wound in my heart not healing. Everything I did to keep busy just was not

working. I could not sleep at night and it was getting worse. I prayed for help and very

quickly I learned about a wonderful, counselor that had an opening. After a year of his

inspiring wisdom, this gentle elderly man truly has helped me figure more things out.

FDaily prayers of thankfulness, and I say seldom trouble sleeping for the most part. His

wisdom I pass on and now share with you here.

When I first met with this wise man, he asked me the strangest question, “What do you

think Hell would be like if you were not alive?” I sat frozen in silence. What did this have

to do with why I was here? He sat there smiling and in a very quiet, firm voice said,

“No one is alone. No one is alone, except by choice, things keep happening the same

until a different choice is made.

There is light and dark.

There is good and bad.

There is Heaven and Hell.

A person in Hell may suddenly be shown their life through the eyes of each person they

have hurt. This is true Hell.

Then he took a deep breath and said, “Best you move on to

Being Alive. So many out there feel dead and not alive.”

What did he mean by this statement.?

Loneliness and isolation are everywhere. Life is difficult, but try we must. Trying each

day is what it’s all about.

NEVEFR QUIT TRYING..

Did you know that Grandma Moses did not even start painting until well into her 90’s?

That’s a positive statement. Yet on a negative note, going forward lets say you try to

help someone. You make a delicious dinner, you put on some soothing music, and you

build a big roaring fire for them to come sit, in out of the cold. Yet your sad friend walks

in the door, looks around and turns their back on your help, choosing to go back out

into the dark of night all alone. They refuse your help no matter what you do. Understand?

I knew exactly what he was alluding to - trying to help my daughter; Bridget.

let them go - they go by choice. Nothing you can do to stop them.

WORK ON YOURSELF NOW. WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT.

He sighed and with kind eyes looked over at me. “Angels are all

around us, now we just have to be ready to feel them.

You must accept that for you everything is going to be just fine, rememberer the

good always, let go of the bad times”. I was crying with tears of hope. When I left

that day, I left with a sense of peace and more knowing, in my heart.

And tonight I say, If you are reading my Blog, whatever you are going through,

We all have been through something. We all have been saddled with loneliness.

take comfort in knowing we all are in the same “boat of LIfe” together. We all get up

every morning, put on our clothes, and go out into the new day.

We will experience the lessons of this day.

Each of us may have sadness or joy. But now we have tools to deal with life. Only a

FOOL chooses to take on life’s problems alone. For without the light of Christ to show us

the way, we cannot feel alive. I remember the last parting words with my counselor.

He was smiling as I stood their with more tears running down my cheeks.

“Perhaps all the people who have come and gone in your life today, were there to

help you understand how to become a better person.

We all hurt sometimes. We all have loss, and .we all have love. Look to love Yourself.

You know how to do this because you have the “Internal tools of Jesus Christ light”

We lose people along the way, but each of us are here for a specific purpose, choose

good until it’s time for you to go. Go out, find your way, and give back with all the tools

you’ve been given. Smile at the memories of those close to your heart, who helped in

your becoming stronger. Now go in the knowing you are never alone, Jesus Christ and

your Guardian Angel are with you always. Learn to Love Yourself.

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“Believe or Blame? Blog #42

Taking a deep breath, I think to myself; “Who do I still blame”? It is easy to think of all

the people I could simply blame for what I feel they have done to me, where I am at in

life and why I have pushed others away. Some people call this the “Blame Game”.

Others refuse to look at truth. Others have been legitimately hurt, yet can we forgive?

What causes a person to suddenly back away from someone? Many people can go

through years and hang on to a grudge. Other times we can reflect back and say to

ourselves: “no matter what I do or say, that person has always treated me badly”.

Other people may say to you, “don’t let someone walk all over You!” Easier said than

done, right? There is not one person out there that does not have some kind of

relationship problem in their own family. We all have a family that we come from.

Many years back, we decided what role to play in the family; are we passive or

aggressive, and it sticks.

As Holidays grow closer, friends and relatives decide the same thing. Grow closer or

stay away. Drama or discipline? Why do the Holidays have to be so dramatic? Why

do so many negative events wind up happening around the holidays? Why do

families stay deliberately away from each other? Better still, why is it so important to

be together JUST for the Holidays?

An ironic twist to all of this is this. On Christmas or any special holiday we most

certainly want to include those we love. However does thot mean you want to see

those people!

Days go by, lives get lived and priorities are made. Many hurts are not dealt with.

Personal hurts lie seething internally with sadness. Little by little in this secular world

we live in, families see less and less of each other. Families are less likely to be in

harmony as well. Because of the internet and cell phones it is easy to have these

as our mediator. We can “check in, leave a message, day is done”. Days, weeks,

months and now years go by. Why bother? Families are broken not just from divorce,

but internally as well. The secular world is winning out. The younger generation find

no need for Christian rituals like going to church or baptizing the children. People are

too busy with their own lives. Divorce, not marriage, takes center stage now. Drinking,

drugs, drama……. material gain, more money spent on what? Children are the

bystanders watching in the wings. Grudges are formed. Decisions are made. The dye

is cast.

Where am I going with this? Truth cannot be diluted. If you are a Christian, Christmas

is the holiday to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, period. This is not about a pretend

Santa Claus and eight tiny reindeer with a Christmas tree decorated for what?

This is the birthday of a real person. This person lived and died ovef two thousand

years ago. If you don’t believe this, the holiday should not be celebrated. Our children

should be taught this. To be able to embrace the belief in Jesus Christ brings

opportunity of a powerful light-filled thought. This belief allows children to have “faith”

instead of fear. If children are not raised this way, what happens, whose to blame?

We need to believe, all our prayers, young and old, have a place prayers go to. This is

belief. This is faith.

The person who was alive long aga, could have blamed everyone for what was done

to him, but HE did not. Instead, in HIS short thirty three years of living, HE gave concrete

examples for how we should live day after day after day. Is this being passed down?

What examples go to children? There is no truth greater than this. When truth is

embraced, blame has a funny way of disappearing. We have “only ourselves to

blame for our own daily actions”. If today, we have love in our heart, we have nothing

to regret. If today we blame others, we need to go back look at the lesson to be

learned here, ask HIM to help sort it out internally. We are stuck when we refuse to see

past anger that has not gone away, time to ask for HIS help before this year is gone.

A clean slate brings in forgiveness to anyone and everyone that has hurt us.

REMEMBER, we all have the tools to deal with life as we go through life, some people

refusing these tools. We must forgive them ANYWAY! Time to move on. There are no

exceptions.

The following poem is written by an unknown source but says it all….

“THE COLD WITHIN”

Six humans were trapped by happenstance, in bleak and bitter cold.

Each one possessed a stick of wood, or so the story is told.

Their dying fire in need of logs, the first man held his back.

For of the faces around the fire, he noticed one was black.

The next man looking across the way, saw one was not of his church.

He couldn’t bring himself to give the fire his stick of birch.

The third one sat in tattered clothes, his coat needed a stitch.

Why should his log be put to use to warm the idle rich?

The rich man just sat back and thought of the wealth he had in store,

and how to keep what he had earned from the lazy, shiftless poor.

The black mans face showed revenge, as the fire passed from sight.

For all he saw in his stick of wood was a chance to spite the white.

The last man in this forlorn group, did nothing except for gain.

Giving only to those who gave to him, was how he played the game.

Their logs held tight in death’s still hand was proof of human sin,

They did not die from the Cold without, they died from the cold within.

How many hardened hearts are out there tonight, put to shame?

Can we let go and believe in HIM or continue on In blame?

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“Never Give In” Blog #41

At the end of this day, as day gives way to night, we all have one thing in common.

No matter where we are, we can stop for a moment and go out into the darkness and

look up at the moon. The big, beautiful peacefilled moon. He’s waiting there for us.

One of the last things my daughter Bridget did was text me an uplifting message.

She had been driving in her car a couple weeks before she died.

”Mom, you have to go outside and look at the gorgeous full moon right now!”

This was a positive statement. I will stay with that and believe in Bridgets heart,

somewhere for a moment in time, she saw goodness. Yet in sadness I must recall,

the addictive darkness that she gave into won out.

I want to talk today about not giving in. We can’t ever give up or give in! My husband

and I watched a totally inspiring World War Two movie a few nights back. A powerful

movie showing the strong hold that Hitler had taken all over the world. He was gaining

speed, pushing his dangerous, dark beliefs, and bombing Britain. Yet, Winston Churchill,

on October 29, 1941 said this, “We will never give up, we will never surrender…never, ever

ever”! Remember this is one person making a decision for the whole country! What did

it take to inspire him to talk this way? Courage! Discipline! Self Worth!

George Washington, Abraham Lincoln., Mother Theresa, all of these people have made

such a difference in our world because “they knew who they were”.

My own self worth has come from these basic principles. Every day I do what is

expected of me. I try to do the things I like least, first. Inside me are spiritual tools I have

found to give me strength. I need each day.

I believe My Body is the Temple of God, so I live my life according to this belief. One of

our most famous football coaches down through history, was Vince Lombardi. He said

“Today is a New Day in your life, take nothing for granted and failure. is not an option”.

He and his team beat the New York Giants 37 - 0 and went on to win two Super Bowls

after that! WHAT DID HE BELIEVE IN?

HE SAID “LOOK AT THE BASICS IN YOUR LIFE, WHAT IS EXPECTED OF YOU?”

“SHOW UP. BE PRESENT. SAY YOU LOVE YOURSELF”. WATCH WHAT HAPPENS”.

I practice these basic daily disciplines to find my strength and this gives me courage

to deal with today. Thats all we have. These are my weapons for the harsh reality of life.

The quickest way to tap into YOU is just ask. I ask patiently in prayer, until I feel the

sensation of prevailing peace. Throughout my day I remind myself to say, “NOT my will,

but Thy will be done in my life today”. “Show me God, how strong I am, I thank you for

this”.

Marianne Williamson is a famous Author of many books. In one of them she quotes:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate! Our deepest fear is that we are

powerful beyond measure. It is our light and NOT our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves; Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually,

who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the

world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel

insecure around you. We are all meant to shine. We are born to make manifest the

Glory of God that is in all of us. It’s not just in some of us. It’s in everyone. AND as we let

our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As

we are liberated from fear, our presence automatically liberates others. What an

amazing piece of information. I hope you go back and read this again. This is a clear

path to your healthy future.

As this year winds to a close, what priorities sit upper most in our mind today? It’s

important to understand “How I look at my past situations as learned lessons and then

I let go. This gives us a. clean slate for a New Day. Unhealthy emotion arises in all of us

when we stay stuck in regret, uncomfortable judgment and/or seething in anger. By

paying attention to how I feel about things that have happened, I then can tap into my

“authentic self”. It was time for me to stop blaming others. At the end of the day,

“Others are only mirrors of ourselves”. This is the gift Jesus gives to you and I.

“He’s never gonna give you up, He’s never gonna let you go, never gonna tell you lies.

and hurt you. Most of all, he’s never gonna say good bye.

So sit tight — feel HIS safety net surround you, listen to these simple phrases tell it all.

Watch HIS powerful peace of plenty take over your pain. Whatever it is, wherever you

are, however you feel - HE waits for you. It’s almost the middle of November now. This is

a sacred time of year. Angels are around us, they walk among us and hear us. Ask for

help now. Feel their amazing, angelic, love energy support you. Trust this to be true.

Its easy to believe you are an amazing, important, blessed Soul filled with HIS love.

Can you feel the energy of your Guardian Angel surrounding you today?

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