Mental Crisis Now?” Blog #160
Do I feel mentally crippled from my latest set back?
Why can’t I keep using the higher inner self tools I need?
Where can I find courage to navigate my day now?
We have a Spiritual and a Mental Crisis in America today now. More people than we know,
embrace an Atheistic-Humanism belief system, a belief without God. A while back in
September of 2024, there was a ground breaking study done by Dr. George Barna. He is
the Director of Research with the Cultural Research Center at Arizona Christian University.
He presented a chilling possibility saying, “hundreds upon thousands of Americans are
spending tens of millions of dollars investing in drugs for mental health solutions that are
treating the wrong problem”. He presented compelling evidence that “many mental
health struggles, including anxiety, depression and fear could stem from worldwide Biblical
deficiencies rather than psychological or chemical imbalances.” He said granted, “some
mental health issues are undoubtedly biological and require professional treatment”.
However, Barna states that ”his studies highlight a startling connection between mental
health and possessing a Biblical worldview. There is a strong inverse correlation between a
lack of Biblical beliefs and frequent mental health issues.”
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? … This amazing veteran researcher believes he has studied people
around the world who are filled with fear, anxiety and depression. America is faced with an
alarming rise of great mental health issues! However, here is the kick, Barna believes the
current mental health treatments are MISSING THE LIKELY CAUSE OF MENTAL HEALTH
CRISIS. Here are the consequences of people worldwide. Dr. Barna believes “his research
shows adults who possess a Biblical worldview (a belief in God) are significantly LESS LIKELY
TO EXPERIENCE MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES”. These people tend to enjoy more fulfilling
relationships, a clearer sense of purpose and greater resilience in the face of life’s
challenges”. Dr. Barna went on to say, “People with a Biblical worldview (an understanding
that God is here for them) have greater joy, peace and fulfillment. because their lives align
with Gods design”. His report went on to state that one in three young people have
problems with some type of mental illness. Interestingly enough, one of the biggest
problems are anxiety disorders and substance abuse. Alcohol, drug addiction and severe
anxiety disorders are rampant. (There is a whole separate analysis on these addictions)
Dr. Barna says, “It is not uncommon to find young adults trusting feelings over facts,
seeing no real purpose to life and reject any existence of the Biblical God. Add to this, no
real purpose or meaning to life for them.” So most people have a lifestyle that is
inconsistent, lacks hope and is filled with fear”. His report went on to state that more then
ONE DOZEN commonly held belief systems with people today fuel their fear. People reject
moral truth, and rely on their own guidance rather than a belief in God’s existence. THIS IS A
VERY EMPTY FEELING INDEED. Without God = No purpose to life.
WHEN GOD COMES INTO MY HEART = I FEEL SAFE, PROTECTED WITH PURPOSE.
The worst part of fear is that it mushrooms, it grows until it is out of control. How long can
artificial means help inner darkness? I have said it so many times before when I shared
my own back story and talked about my inner struggles with overwhelming tragedy. Yet, I
am not now nor can I ever be, prepared for “the unexpected”. I have put in place strong,
daily inner faith in tact and solid. So therefore, I can state confidently, regardless of my
outer world struggles, inside me, (because of daily discipline) my faith is secure. I stay
spiritually connected, strong and I feel safe. I never stop praying in the morning and in the
evening. Often during the day I keep it simple, yet hear myself saying, “Thank you for
Helping me Jesus,”
Can I let go of my fear and bring forth faith in Jesus Christ?
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“Sick of Stuck?” Blog #159
Do I personally feel respected in all parts of my life?
Am I honest, kind and loving to people that matter?
Did I do something that makes me feel good about myself today?
“Keep on doing the same things, and the same things keep happening”.
Life doesn’t come with an Owners Manual. To complicate my life even more is to know that
I am given “Free Will”, even though HE is waiting to lead me in every facet of my life. Then
the Ego (the little Lower Self) creeps in and complicates it even more by crushing my
confidence and making me depend on Lower Self thinking. I need to find a way, today, to
get my “Higher Self” back and at the helm of ME always.
A most sacred thing in life, is the Freedom to choose what I want to be. So when I choose
wisely, (I might pick up the book: “Inner Excellence” and read it carefully), it’s so worthy in
me to try higher self things to do. It makes me lock in to inner Happiness. I choose healthy
friends to make me feel good about myself. This starts me off in the right direction. I am
not stuck in any way today when I know I have a new day to start over with. I begin to feel
inside of me a stirring of new, vital energy, knowing I have this “new higher choice” and
fresh start. I say to myself over and over, “just keep going……just keep going and don’t
look back”. I am determined to use every experience - the good , the bad, the hard, the
easy, the happy and the sad. I process it and soak it in. THEN I learn from it. I must admit
to myself once and for all I am definitely sick of being stuck in a rut.
Only I know when I PUSH myself UP to be better or do I just decide to settle. Maybe it’s a
relationship, a job, or school or silly things I shove into filling hours of my day. Maybe I
rationalize ways to sit on the computer or my phone for hours and hours.
It’s never the answer “to just settle”settling for what I don’t want? Maybe just for today,
I can decide to PUSH ME HIGHER. Say the right, healthy words inside of ME - so important. (I
AM strong - I AM courageous - I AM disciplined)
Try to overcome a “silly fear” maybe I’ve carried this with me for so long, I forgot why I am
afraid. So now I try hard to make “me” feel better about myself even in the littlest way. I
START BY DOING SOMETHING KIND FOR SOMEONE ELSE. I TAKE OBSESSIVE THOUGHTS OUT AND
OFF OF ME. I AM CHOOSING TO DO SOMETHING KIND FOR SOMEONE ELSE NOW. Suddenly, my
life fills up with meaning. I NOW FEEL UNSELFISH. LIVING LIFE w/INNER LOVE.
HOW do I RESPECT MYSELF? It starts internally …. way down deep. I SEE my own self worth.
What is the gauge? IF I don’t feel good about “me”, I have to start over now. Otherwise, all
my life I will feel uncomfortable. I will sense something is not right. I will intuitively feel
beyond the shadow of a doubt - I short-changed myself, period.
A famous writer and a woman who ran for President this year, wrote an amazing book. It’s
by Mary Ann Williamson. She states this, “our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. For it is our light, not our
darkness that most frightens us…”
DID I LISTEN TO AND HEAR THOSE LAST WORDS?
“IT IS OUR LIGHT AND NOT OUR DARKNESS THAT MOST FRIGHTENS US!”
WOW. I TAKE THIS ALL IN AND THEN REMEMBER MY GREATEST ADVOCATE IS HERE NOW,
THE Holy Spirit OF OUR LORD Jesus Christ WAITING TO HELP ME 24/7 DAYS A WEEK. No
more sick of being stuck. I am filled with the Holy Spirit and start living my highest life
today.
Can I get out of my sick, stuck rut and start new now?
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“No Addictions?” Blog #158
Is it imperative for me to learn to heal myself?
Are my thoughts repetitively dark deep down inside of me?
Do addictions hide inside me, trying to control who I am?
There is a saying out there that “it takes 30 days of practice to change my cravings for my
old addictions”. I decided to do this one day at a time. Believe me, IT WORKS! I started this
“Plan of Action” by eliminating and avoiding the THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL BAD. Smoking
and drinking and drugs …. GONE. Fried, greasy food …. GONE. Soft drinks REPLACED WITH
LOTS OF WATER ALL DAY.
The recipe in life to healthy living is NOT that hard. Too many calories = obesity. Too much
sugar = diabetes and tooth decay. Too much fat = heart disease and cancer. Too much
alcohol cancer and too much meat = prostrate cancer. These are just a few. But I noticed
when I DON’T get up and eat something in the morning that is good for me, I have less
energy, I am cranky and I can’t focus as well. PLUS the Immune System is supported more
strongly with large doses of love, laughter and exercise.
So let’s get to the Addiction part….so many types of Addictions that people have no idea
about. There is worry addition. Worry about something morning, noon and night . How do I
face this day? My life its filled with fear. I have headaches all the time, I need this pill or
that pill to focus. At the end of the day - exhausting. One doctor I read about said, “keep
the body and the mind and the spirit BUSY”. Stay interested daily. Find a good book and
then find another. Keep a couple books going at once. Addictions to anything at all can
be consuming.
How to tell if I feel addicted to something? IF I DESIRE SOMETHING ENOUGH TO LET IT
CONSUME MY THOUGHTS DURING AN ENTIRE DAY, THIS CAN BE AN ADDICTION. Most of us know
there are gambling, gaming, sexual, eating, not-eating, the internet, shopping, drug
addictions, food addictions, and self harm. All addictions are created in our brain. Very
few people understand how powerful our brain truly is. When I decided that I did not, and
could not and WILL NOT abuse myself in any way, I started in a simple fashion. ONE DAY AT
A TIME. I told myself I was NOT addicted to any type of food, drug or behavior because I
AM THE ONE WHO HAS POWER OVER MYSELF. NOTHING CAN HURT ME OR DESTROY ME OR
MAKE ME AFRAID UNLESS I ALLOW IT TO. It is fascinating to find that once I make this
decision, my brain hears that I have set aside my lower self personality in favor of my
higher self spiritual growth! I am on this planet to learn, grow and take part in my own
lessons given to me.
I HAVE GREAT POWER INTERNALLY WHEN I DO NOT GIVE IN TO MY LOWER SELF.
I want to share something with you right now, there are times when life gets dark for me,
there are lots of times when I begin to doubt, times when I cry. YET I LEARNED, this is when I
am most challenged to pick up my tools that I have been given internally. Put my hands
together and say, “Thank you for helping me Jesus - I can’t do it alone”.
I have found the hardest thing about my faith is to have complete TRUST. My belief has
often been likened to a tug of war with Jesus and me. He’s given me this golden life raft
attached to a golden rope. All I have to do? Give him all my struggles and hang on to the
life rope, trusting internally. Yet my human side pulls at it when I use my lower self thinking
that has often tried to trick me into believing I DO IT ALONE.….just keep worrying a little more,
just keep on worrying and stay stuck.
QUICKLY, I catch myself, lifting my thought processes into “higher gear”. I see now, the
addictions are gone. One day at a time I will survive. Most people see life in this order:
Physical - intellectual - emotional - spiritual.
THIS IS WRONG. To have balance in life from addictions we need to rearrange the order of
our life. Therefore my life needs to be:
SPIRITUAL - EMOTIONAL - INTELLECTUAL - PHYSICAL
Why is this? The Spirit feeds the emotion, which balances the intellect, which directs the
physical body to perform one-hundred percent.
Can I let go of my internal addictions and replace them with trust in Jesus Christ?
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“Healthy Hero” Blog #157
It’s just another day….but will I do my life differently?
All my stress, all my sadness and all my fear…..will I give it to HIM?
Just for now - believe what is truth - Now, let HIM help me?
The other day I was pulling out of Starbucks and saw a man at the side of the road. He
looked extremely haggard and I could not even tell his age. He was holding a sign that
said, “I need money for a cheeseburger and a bag of weed”. I looked out my rear view
mirror as the light changed and saw the car behind me. They rolled down their window to
give him money. For the next few hours I struggled with how I felt about the words on his
sign!
Was I mad at what he wrote? Was I just ashamed to admit it? What had things come to
anyway, for this person to be in that situation? What one day turned him into a street
beggar? When I finally figured myself out regarding that situation, I realized this was the
scenario we live with today. He was just blatantly “out there” with his truth of what he
wanted money for. I am willing to bet, he was not always a street beggar. This man had
not always stood on the street corner begging for a cheeseburger and a bag of weed.
When did things turn? Yet, here he was today, and if someone gives him enough money
for these things, will this be his “way of sustaining himself” day in and day out until what?
What IS it that really bothered me about this whole scenario? On so many levels I can say
this person gave up on “Trying in society to make it how?” Maybe at the end of the day,
this is all he really wants. So then, therein lies the rub. I KNOW I want something different. I
want my body to be healthy. I don’t want to put weed into it. I don’t want temporary fixers
to relieve life stressors. I want to feel life. I need to feel and act and live out everything I am
given because it took me ages to figure so many things out. Realizing now, there is NO
ESCAPE FROM LIFE EXCEPT DEATH.
So I can do it the easy way (which I truly do believe is giving it All to Jesus) or I can fight the
internal battle with darkness and never win).
I WANT TO HELP MYSELF HEAL EACH DAY. I WANT TO ACCEPT TODAY’S SADNESS.
My LETTER to myself: “Dear Self, “I want to start healing inside me with healthy information,
healthy food, inspiring music and “honest” people.
I AM READY to clean out the garbage once and for all. NO ONE CARES ENOUGH ABOUT ME AS
MUCH AS I NEED TO CARE ABOUT ME. I want to become my own best friend. I will not judge
others. (Not even the man asking for a cheeseburger and a bag of weed - because there
but for the Grace of God, go I.)
In so many ways, this sounds lonely - but quite often the facts of life are lonely. It’s okay.
There are reasons why we have to incorporate the words courage, fortitude and discipline
into my life. I need to implement these words into my life IF I want to be my own HEALTHY
HERO. Above all, I must remember AGE has nothing to do with it. I can start at any age to
be healthier.
What is courage? Doing something I know I have to do - it is hard - but I do it day after
day. Now its for my best health.
What is fortitude? Enduring what I must do with great courage, for my best health.
What is discipline? The practice of training myself with courage & fortitude to become
my daily habit.
All across the country today, right before Feb. 2025 starts, there are people who have no
home to go home to. These are not people who were destitute or starving or street
people. These people were part of a natural disaster. Floods in North Carolina and fires in
California. Now they have no homes. I point this out because not one single one of us, is
immune from the “Unexpected”. We do not know when or if something is going to happen
to get out attention internally, big-time! I start today with new priorities. I look at life
wanting to heal from the inside out. I want high health. Therefore, I must take responsibility
for myself. I am the only one who knows internally IF I have UNHEALTHY HABITS. As I said
before - I HAVE ONLY TODAY TO WORK WITH.
So, I look in the mirror and say to myself: “Help me Jesus become my own Healthy Hero”..
No more a question, but a promise: I start today with internal discipline all day long.
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”Recipe Rescue” Blog #156
Right this minute….can I do something positive for myself?
Why do I have to give in to my Lower Self nature now?
Winston Churchill once stated - “Success consists of going from failure to failure without
loss of enthusiasm”.
My story is this, I have had lots of darkness try to take me over. I will never give in to it. I
have had heaps of sadness and death around me also try to cripple me. I’m determined
to stand even taller in its midst. Some days, even now, dark drama, depression and
problems try hard to sneak into my being to seize my energy and fill me with dread. Yet, as
God is my witness, I will not let it in! I remain stronger than ever before. Nothing can shake
my discipline over self to be even more courageous then yesterday. I will use my Recipe
for Today and every day. I feel clear and committed with constant support from my Lord
Jesus Christ. HE is right here waiting for You too.
Every person on earth has their own story. Each of us have something that either pushes
us forward or paralyzes us with fear, and keeps us stuck. No one person is free from pain.
Each and every one of us must experience all parts of “life’s little lessons”.
The secret in life for me is the Recipe I use to come back from all my darkness! So many of
life’s Trouble teachers are “filled with grief”. The grief we feel when we lose anything. I
believe we fly blind with out HIS help. I have said this throughout my Blogs. I believe before
I experienced such darkness, I WAS “flying blind”. I was going through life just “existing” It’s
not what I had, or what I owned, or who I was with, that mattered most. It was my
deliberate desire to create different drama each day. I buried myself in artificial busywork
and things I “thought” were important so I was able to stay ahead of “ME”, my own self.
This is why I believe “mental abuse of ones self” through vaping, drugs and alcohol are
some of the toughest teachers. They are cruel setbacks. They are addictive animals that
crave on a persons soul and keep a person down! These cruel, deceptive, dark reasons for
slowly becoming addicted to outside forces are the reason for letting go and not looking
internally for Higher Self help that is waiting because of FREE WILL. A RECIPE FOR TODAY
and all the internal Light waits with HIS help.
One time I was at a bar and restaurant in Minneapolis. I was having dinner with a friend of
mine who was a highly evolved Soul and a renowned Spiritual Teacher. She set her fork
down and pointed over to the bar saying, “I have been watching that one person over
there, all evening. He has been drinking more and more until now he is cut off, not allowed
to be served any more. I have witnessed so many of these frightening scenes. As he sits
there, I can see dark, burning energy pour down into the top of his head.” Then my friend
turned to me and said, “Remember the old saying - “The Devil made me do it?” This is
literally how the dark energy works. When a person decides to bring drugs and or alcohol
into their being, this is all about FREE WILL - Angels and Higher Self Help are not asked for.
Rather, the DARK FORCES are invited in and get to work, creating havoc with the thinking
processes. And so life goes. Light versus darkness. It is all around us. However, Light
prevails.
Alas, at the end of the day what is the basic Recipe Rescue that keeps me going?
MY RECIPE FOR TODAY
I WAKE UP and surround myself in Christs’ Light - I pray.
I eat a Healthy Meal for Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner.
I Get Fresh Air each day - I walk 15 min. one way and back (30 Min. Total)
I say Positive Affirmations while I walk (I go thru the alphabet - 10 Each)
Whoever or whatever has bothered me - I immediately forgive.
I seek out ONLY Healthy relationships for me to to be in.
Understanding: I am here for a reason - What is it?
Every day I try to Read something Healing, Healthy, Helpful for Me.
Every day I am Learning Lessons about myself. - What are they?
I AM learning to Laugh at Myself more each day.
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Can I incorporate these recipe rules into my life to help me daily?
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“Higher Self Help” Blog #155
Why do I keep thinking I have to go it alone?
What is the reason behind this anger at myself?
When will I be ready to replace “lower self thinking with Higher self help?
If I see someone screwing up their life, I can have pity for you, but I can’t fix you. Each and
every one of us have FREE WILL. For what ever reason, regardless of how much I continue to
do things the wrong way, I seem to be afraid to ask for HIS help. It’s almost as if I am
ashamed. Yet internally I know the answer is only HIM.
Often I have said to myself, “I feel like a failure, because I don’t know the answers”. As we
leap into the New Year 2025 - hard to believe we are already two weeks into it. January
should be all about my good health. Resolutions for healing internally.
I need to understand, “Heal the spirit and the mind will grow - heal the mind and the
body will follow”. As usual - it is the hardest to go quietly into my mind. I use this Recipe:
RECIPE FOR STILLNESS WITHIN
I QUIET MY MIND BY QUIETING INNER VOICES WITH DEEP STEADY BREATHING.
I DO NOT TALK TO MYSELF INTERNALLY - I AM LEARNING TO BE STILL AND KNOW.
I DO NOT DWELL ON ANYTHING ELSE AROUND ME TO DISTRACT OR INFLUENCE ME.
I NOW FOCUS ON INNER ‘HIGHER SELF GUIDANCE’ TO STEER ME AWAY FROM
NEGATIVE, SAD, DARK THOUGHTS. WHEN THEY POP UP I QUICKLY SAY,
I AM OKAY, I AM SURROUNDED IN LIGHT, I LIVE IN THE LIGHT OF GOD. I AM FILLED WITH
CHRIST LIGHT.
MY GOAL TODAY - THINK GOOD THOUGHTS, EAT GOOD FOOD AND PRAY OFTEN.
Remembering The Key to Healthy Living is incorporating Higher Self Thought.
Therefore I LET GO OF ALL THINGS IN THE PAST RIGHT UP TO TODAY. THE PAST IS GONE.
YESTERDAY IS GONE FOREVER. I ONLY HAVE TODAY TO FOCUS ON AND FORGIVE OTHERS.
I finally understand the key to Healthy Higher Self Living is getting in touch with my Higher
Self. Therefore, learning each day to quiet my mind and tune out the outside world of
“Senseless noise”. It is not easy to do this. IT IS NOT EASY TO EAT RIGHT. Every person’s life
revolves around food and drink. I’m starting to see how healing Humor is. Therefore, I NEED
TO LEARN TO LAUGH AT MYSELF. LAUGHTER IS HEALING. I Can try to go a bit easier on myself
and see life gets better each day.
So today I will share RULES FOR BEING HUMAN. I have received a body to live with. I may
like it or hate it, but it is mine for the entire period that I am alive on earth. I should want to
bring some good healthy things to it. I AM GIVEN LESSONS TO LEARN FROM. I might as well
look for my higher self to help me go forward. I understand a lesson will be presented to
me in various forms until I have learned it. ONCE I have learned it, I get to go on to the next
lesson. There is no part of life that does NOT include lessons! If am alive, there are lessons
to learn from.
There are NO mistakes. ONLY LESSONS TO LEARN. Growth is a process of trial and error.
The failed experiences are as much a part of my process as the ones that work!
What I make of my life is up to me. I cannot love or hate something about another
person unless it reflects something I love or hate about myself. I have all the tools and
resources I need in life right INSIDE OF ME. WHEN I TAP INTO MY HIGHER SELF life gets easier
So NOW I relax and realize learning lessons will never end - I can trust now in my HIGHER
SELF for essential inner guidance. Jesus Christ shows me HE is here. HE is the greatest
Advocate I can ever imagine having in my corner. I accept HIM now. I understand there is
no one else on this planet like me. I AM FILLED WITH HIS LOVE. Every soul wants to at long
last be found. I CAN finally find my HIGHER SELF and live IN PEACE. I CAN stop imitating and
envying other people. I CAN FINALLY say, ”this time, I have found my path in life at last by
living each day to it fullest with no regret”.
Can I accept my Higher Self is waiting inside for me now?
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“Anxiety to Peace” Blog #154
Depressed, worried, anxious, can I beat it?
Daily feeling I face impossible situations all alone?
How CAN I turn anxiousness into peace inside me?
In the midst of all my daily struggles how often was I tempted to panic, yet gave way to
artificial means to keep it at bay. My own life looking back, had always been filled with dark
dilemmas. However, in the past few years I have taken to heart the importance of
“balancing my day” so I do not give in to stress, anxiety or panic attacks.
I acknowledge this fact now: God has me solid in the palm of HIS hand.
I DO NOT EXPERIENCE anything I cannot handle. God never gives me more than I can
handle. DAILY I LIVE MY LIFE IN COMPLETE CONFIDENCE I THRIVE IN HIM.
However there is a caveat to all of this: **
** IF I purposefully choose to DO IT ALONE, go my life alone without GOD, IF I deliberately
push the envelope so to speak. Defying all awareness GOD IS HERE TO HELP ME, I am alone,
all alone. I AM ON MY OWN because I DEMAND IT. ATTRACTING THE WRONG SITUATIONS, I
ATTRACT THE WRONG PEOPLE AND NOW WALK DOWN A DARK PATH.
A great rule to remember is this:
EACH AND EVERY PERSON IS GIVEN F R E E W I L L. GOD HELPS ME WHEN I ASK FOR GODS HELP
AND WANT HIS HELP AND PRAY FOR HIM TO BE IN MY DAILY LIFE
Knowing all this, immediately I am at peace. Peace defeats anxiety WHEN I trust HE has my
back. The biggest part of anxiety and stress is living too far ahead of myself. What will
happen tomorrow? what about the next week? What will I do when all else fails? and on
and on…… overthinking gets worse, worry does not stop! Sleep does not occur. Lying in
bed, toss and turn, running from one situation to the next as hours tick slowly by. ONLY
possible to live TODAY. As I look back, I remember a specific time when the build up of all
“my stress” made me go to see a therapist. So many life stressors were causing me to no
longer feel in control of my own emotions. My mother had been killed, a trial was coming
up, my marriage was in shambles. Difficulty going to work, not being able to sleep and
nowhere to turn for money was creating more darkness. Never could I sell enough houses
to pay the debt mounting around me.
I had always been confident my greatest strength was my ability to “sell a house just right
for someone”. Now lately I was second guessing myself and driving down the freeway
wanting to scream. I had never in my life felt this way. Even worse, I was no fan of
medication so going it alone (with the exception of a few drinks at night) was the norm for
me. Now however, I had to do something! My mounting stress each day, constant bills
and more problems … I wanted to just hide out in my bed! As I pulled into a parking space
and walked into this therapists office, I remember thinking “nothing can really help me at
this point, why did I come? I need to just get back to work!” I remember how comfortable
his office was. There’s also an aura about this man, I always believed certain people give
off a powerful light when “they appear very balanced”. This therapist seemed to radiate
just that. I looked around the room. Amazed at how relaxed immediately I felt in this
warm, inviting, safe place. A big mahogany desk with papers in place. An overstuffed, tan
leather chair rocked slowly back and forth, as he sat behind his desk. White hair, a dark
woolen sweater over a button down shirt reflected a soft smile creasing the lips as this
man motioned for me in to sit down. I chose one of the two velour wing back chairs with a
round table in the midst. A bible sat open in the middle of the table.
“So how are you today?” he smiled. Not the least bit intimidating, we started a very real
conversation and I shared a brief history of my painful past. “Stress is a great teacher”, he
said. Then going on to share the ten most stressful things occurring in a persons life that
can push someone over the top. In one way or another, he told me I hit at least five or
more of them. Smiling this wonderful little old man kept talking and I found myself hanging
on his every word. Softly he spoke, “do you find yourself with lingering worry, what might
happen next and anxious at every turn?” I sat quietly nodding my head up and down. He
kept right on speaking and smiling, saying to me, “Well young lady, IF you feel defeated,
YOU ARE!” I cannot help you with your unbelief. I can only help you with your CORE belief. At
your core, YOU WILL discover YOU. Can you accept you are a child of GOD? I smiled and
said I was a Christian at heart, “Well, then,” he said. “We are half way home!” Your anxiety
will now turn to acceptance. HIS will is now in your life. Any force against you seeming
impossible, just see HIM. Just for today. Stay with TODAY. Close your eyes now and give it
ALL TO HIM.”
Taking a deep breath, I did just that. ..quite remarkably that was how it all happened.
CLOSING MY EYES, I HANDED OVER ALL MY ANXIOUS GRIEF TO HIM. Instantly a feeling of relaxed
peace came. The heaviest load was LIFTED! I handled one day at a time……
I go forward because I feel HIS power, sending super natural energy taking away anxiety.
The secret was I found I did NOT have to go alone. Once I was told this was a LIE. I will
never go backwards again. My life changed instantly. JESUS took away the anxiety and
replaced it with the PEACE of GOD that passeth all understanding and safe guards my
heart and my mind and my being forevermore.
Can I let go of anxiety today and bring peace into my life now?
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“Just Do it?” Blog #153
No matter what I try, do I fall back into the old habits?
How much of my life is artificial information right now?
Where can I possibly gleam new direction - and stay with IT?
So now we have closed the door to the old year 2024. Never to return again. There are so
many of us out here who actually are really glad to be done with this year. I heard a
fascinating fact today, I heard “most Americans now take at least four prescriptions every
single day”. FOUR prescriptions are the norm! Yet, how many of us have sat down and
drawn up a chart of a NEW healthy way I want to start eating? How many of us have
decided to leave a TOXIC RELATIONSHIP now affecting my health?
How many of us can say TODAY IS THE DAY I START OVER FOR 2025?
IF a little magic genie went around the country and closed all the liquor stores and all the
vape and pill stores and shut down the aisles with all food that is processed, that leaves
only the outside aisles to deal with. Then we would have to COOK OUR FOOD FROM
SCRATCH and eat RAW FOOD FROM THE VEGETABLE AISLES. To further my dream, WHEN I GO
HOME THERE ARE NO MORE MURDER MYSTERIES, NO MORE CRIME SHOWS, NO MORE DARK AND
DANGEROUS PROGRAMS TO TRY TO GRAB MY ATTENTION. I THEN fantasize receiving a notice
in the mail saying, “Once a week it is mandatory you meet and greet your neighbor. Find
out how they are doing. Meet their family! Plan a get together and just enjoy each others
company.” Then when going each year for a physical my holistic Health Practitioner now
sits and listens to “the way I live and eat and navigate my day”. Imputing a healthy plan of
action and “Prevention from Disease” If this were so, much fear would be removed from
our daily way of living.
Why can’t I do this? Most of all because LIFE HAS CHANGED COMPLETELY. Most of us no
longer pick up the telephone or CALL someone to see how they are! WE ONLY TEXT EACH
OTHER. NO VOICES ARE HEARD. NO EMOTION IS SHOWN. NO INTEREST. I know in my own life it
appears to be getting busier and busier with mundane stuff. Quality and Love and
understanding all appear to be on back burners with so many relationships ongoing right
now.
How do I fix this? LIVE EACH DAY WITH AN UNDERSTANDING HEART. Why can’t I do It? Life gets
in the way. People push a different direction. It gets cold. Instead of learning how to be
more understanding with any person I may have a disagreement, it is less and less likely I
pick up the phone and just talk. Far more likely I will TEXT. THE COLD OBLITERATED, ‘THIS IS IT”
TEXT.
How many of us have built a wall around our entire life right now? Do I want to believe
living in a shell is good for me? Who EVEN writes letters anymore when I can TEXT…TEXT TO
MY HEARTS CONTENT. NO ONE CAN FEEL, SEE OR HEAR HOW I EXPRESS MYSELF.
This year I want closer relationships with others, others who are authentic. I want to
express myself telling only the truth. I want to have an understanding heart and purposely
NOT judge another human being. WHY CAN’T I JUST DO IT?
I can do this now. I now have tools in place. I now have my best friend; JESUS.
Remembering now, I understand tools are useless IF I DO NOT USE them. So at the forefront
of my day, before I leave my bed I pray, “Help me Jesus”. I am cleansing my thoughts and
taking deep breaths. This always helps me go forward and do “HIS WILL, NOT my will”. In
place now is discipline, discernment and the biggie……DETACHMENT.” I DETACH FROM ALL
THE PEOPLE AND ALL THINGS I CANNOT POSSIBLY FIX. I say to myself; ‘Yes Lord, I can DO IT”
I believe I have help from Jesus today - no more Why Can’t I do it”
I say to myself, “JUST DO IT - START NOW!”
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“My Gift…” Blog #152
Where should I start becoming healthier?
How can I find my own way out of “darkness”?
When will I have the strength for new challenges today?
So Christmas has come and gone. There are some people in my life that will always
disappoint me if I allow this to happen. I continue to say I am not judging others, yet…. I
know in my heart this is what I do. Probably the biggest marker of awareness is my own
“disappointment” because others DO let me down.
Today I am going to be aware of just 4 days left in this year. What exactly do I want? If I
can be honest with myself, the biggest gift I can give to myself and to others is
“BEING PRESENT IN THIS MOMENT”. My gift to myself and others is MY HIGHER SELF.
I remember looking back on years gone by …. always so very busy. I always had so much
to do. Even when in the “Presence” of my children, my family and my friends. Where
exactly was ME? When have I been ABLE TO APPRECIATE OTHER PEOPLE IN MY LIFE FOR
EXACTLY WHERE THEY ARE AT TOO?
So today, it starts with Mindfulness. I can beware of being with whoever I am seeing and
listening to where they are at. l can contribute something healthy, positive and loving to
my conversation with another person. Above all I can turn off my “racing mind” and just
listen to where another person I am going to be with, is at. I WILL LISTEN/not judge. A
beautiful gift I will give to myself today its SELF CARE. I will eat some healthy food. I will not
take in pills or drugs or drinks that sabotage my thinking. I will find a way to get some
physical exercise and I will find someone to laugh with. How can I do this? I have decided
to take life more LIGHTLY. I must see regardless of the situation in front of me: THIS TOO
SHALL PASS. So for where I am at today and where I have come from, I now accept
whatever comes into my life, I WILL HANDLE LIFE EACH DAY. MY GIFT TO MYSELF IS MY
CONFIDENCE IN THE CONFIDANTE OF JESUS. I will share anything I want to, I can give all my
trials and all my worries and fears to HIM BY DOING THIS, IT REMOVES ALL OTHER PEOPLE I
DO NOT NEED TO GO TO TELL MY TROUBLES TO. MY BEST FRIEND HAS BEEN A GIFT TO ME ALL
ALONG.
As I open my gift to myself carefully today, I start with prayer in the morning. Then knowing
that my Body is the Temple of God - I REFUSE TO PUT DARKNESS INTO IT. I am careful. I drink
lots of water for hydration. I say powerful positive affirmations throughout the day. I look
at each situation that comes into my life and I pray,
“HELP ME WITH THIS SITUATION JESUS, knowing no-one on earth has my unique talents, I
Immediately find Peace.“
Above all continuing to reflect on the three gifts Jesus has given me because I asked,
Discipline . Discernment. Detachment. I discipline my life in a healthy manner.
I discern what is good and what is not good. AND THE KEY……. “I DETACH”. I continue to
remember I can only help others who ASK for my help. I let all worry go. Understanding
now every NEW day is My Gift to myself from my LORD to start over. Knowing the love of
Christ surpasses all earthly knowledge, I do the best with the gifts I have been given. I am
right where I am suppose to be, learning, loving and leaving all darkness behind. “I say to
myself Thank you Lord for all the gifts I have been given to heal my life and I go forward
knowing this will be a Happy New Year 2025.
“Can I accept my gifts to my Higher Self and work with them today?
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“Christmas Rules” Blog #151
“Can I ask myself a new healthy question today”
Is my mind calm and relaxed regardless of what’s out there?
Do I push away depression when it appears suddenly?
We are days away from a most holy and revered time of the year - Christmas.
There is only one reason for Christmas - The birth of God’s only Son. HE was a man who
walked among us and truly lived his life by example. What example am I talking about?
LOVE. To love one another as each of us would want to be loved. How many people out
there do not feel loved? This is the key to life and living life feeling loved. I feel HIS love
embracing me now. Looking back on my own life, I realize I felt scared all the time, I did not
feel loved. I was raised in an abusive, alcoholic selfish family. There were no rules.
Ironically, because I was able to visit my grandpas’ house often, I was able to gleam a
different, healthier, more loving side of life. However, as I grew up, I buried away my
resentment for the family who treated me so indifferently. When parents are absorbed
with their own addictions, children grow up “on the outside looking in”. All I ever wanted to
do was make money “so I wouldn’t have to live like that!” Yet, never did I look inside me at
my own lessons. That is not until the universe sent me a powerful message with such loss
in my life - it got my attention big time. I HAD to start searching. Instantly, I felt differently. I
believe “Hope is healing”. What do I mean by this? Hope brings in something better.
Hope for a healthier way to view my life. Hope believes things really can get better.
Jesus Christ is all of those things.
When I realized this person came to earth and grew into a man who knew all the while
what his own destiny was, it was astounding to me. Most of all I accept how difficult just
maneuvering each day is. Imagine having the power to overcome any adversity, bring
miracle upon miracle into someones life, and change darkness into light. Imagine
spending three years day and night, walking and talking with his twelve disciples, only to
have them turn their back on him! Only to have all the good, all healing, all the miracles
proving who he was - DENIED! All the while people were turning against Jesus , he could
have called a legion of angels to save him from anything. Yet, he refused to use his
divinity, instead he chose to remain human to the core. This is my definition of LOVE
personified at its GREATEST for Mankind.
Christmas Day was when Jesus was born, Kings traveled far and wide to bring him
Frankincense, Gold and Myrrh. They were told a “Holy King” far greater then each of them
had been born and was waiting in a manger. It has always puzzled me to hear people
deny Jesus lived when they accept all the other Roman Rulers and famous people who
lived exactly during this time period!
Christmas Day is the Birth of Our Lord Jesus Christ who lived every day with internal
Rules and purposeful Intent. I choose to follow HIS rules. HIS number one rule -
“Love God with all my heart and all my soul and all my mind.”
The next rule is to .love my neighbor as myself. If I cannot be around someone because
of their toxic behavior, I can pray for them from a distance. No one can fix another person
I accept this. Christmas Rule number three: “I let go and let God”
I let go of anger and pray to learn something new each day to improve myself. These
Beautiful Christmas Rules help me to walk in light each day. Walking in The Christ Light, I
learn to ignore the darkness. One day I heard a teacher explain the way boundaries and
rules work. She described an experiment in which teachers removed from a school
playground all of its fences, leaving the playground open. At the end of the playground
field was the street, and traffic whizzed by day after day. The school principal took notes
and watched in awe as the children were set “free” to do as they wished. All of them
congregated around a small area and did not venture into the open field. When the
playground fence was put back up, the children ran freely and creatively, coming up with
new games that took up the entire playground area.
Everyone needs Christmas Rules. When we have rules in our lives, our life runs smoothly.
When I wake up in the morning and tell myself I am not going to listen to a negative
person. I am not going to listen to dark music. I am not going to go on my phone or
computer or iPad and search up Tiktok, or Snap or FaceTime just to spend idle, dark hours
in tempting moments of illusionary fun. My life is too valuable. My time is precious. My
days are filled with rules that allow me to learn to love myself more.
Now I understand the people I bring into my life are those people who I will learn valuable
lessons from - am I ready? I will write down today Christmas Rules helping my life run
better. Rules bring in balance. I am in charge of me and I accept My Body is the Temple
of God. I will not abuse my body in any way. My mind is centered in truth. Therefore I feel
loved by Jesus Christ who was born on Christmas Day.
The Christmas Rules are actually all wrapped up into one: For Jesus replied,
“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind
AND love your neighbor as yourself”. No more fear, for HE is here!
.Can I write a list of Christmas Rules for myself now?
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“Flush Fear Fast” Blog #150
What am I worried about right this second?
Are my priorities consistent with my highest health?
Can I get out of my way today and let HIS light take over?
When it comes to disciplining my life, that’s where I truly need help the most. If I can
recognize my own weakness, I can learn to love myself right where I’m at. Why am I even
talking about discipline right off the bat? More than anything else what do I fear day in
and day out? Discipline in my life helps heal my life regardless of who I am concerned
about, regardless of what else is going on, regardless of setbacks.
By disciplining this moment, then comes the hour and the day and the week. Suddenly a
month of discipline and finally a year! I cannot hide behind other vices any more. Maybe
fearful of something happening in my family, maybe there is a health issue, maybe money
problems every where I turn. Yet, do I choose to hide behind the fear of pills, drinking,
drugs, self harm? Am I ignoring to pay my bills, refuse to start a budget therefore I will
keep falling behind? So continue the saga of sadness I absorb the “illusion of fear”. FALSE
EVENTS APPEARING REAL. Immediately I can turn this around.
If someone I know is ill, I can show up with my best attitude and live “for this day”, not just
for me, but for them! Realizing I don’t have yesterday and tomorrow is not here yet, I only
have this beautiful day. IF there are financial issues, I tell myself, “I will find a new way, a
new opportunity, a new direction to go.” I must remember to keep instructing myself over
again.
“THIS TOO WILL PASS. GOD REALLY DOES HELP WHEN I TRY TO HELP MYSELF.”
So often getting caught up in the “What if”....what IF this happens and I can’t fix it? What IF
a person close to me is suffering and I can’t help them? What IF everything around me is
caving in, and I don’t know what to do? Well, I DO KNOW WHAT TO DO…. I START WITH THIS
MOMENT. FLUSH AND DISCIPLINE ONE THING AT A TIME. I PRAY FOR HELP AND GUIDANCE. I STAY
QUIET IN SOLITUDE AND LISTEN TO MY HIGHER SELF DIRECTION. So often the “lower self me”
(the little me) refuses to climb up inside me. I must climb up internally to the “Higher self
me” WHO wants and knows and must be in charge!
Many, many years ago I was alone at Easter time. I was feeling sorry for myself and the
more I thought about how bad my life was, the worse it got. My mind was racing and I
went from one terrible scenario to the next. I was convinced the universe had it in for me
and just when I walked into my kitchen for some water, I looked out my back window.
Witnessing my entire stone retaining wall had collapsed, I stood frozen in fear. Rain, mud
and dirt were flowing toward the back of my house and into my window wells! At the end
of the rain storm, there lay a massive stone retaining wall completely collapsed with mud
and dirty water all over my backyard. Water had also seeped down Into the lower level of
my house. I was alone at the time and did know what to do. My profession was in real
estate at the time, and had also just lost a big sale on a house where I expected to receive
a big commission. I remember looking up at the sky and saying to myself, “what’s the use…
everything is caving in around me, why does it matter?” I went up to my bedroom and laid
on my bed and cried. Filled with rage, I screamed out to God, “why, why do you have to
have it in for me?!”
Then a very strange event happened. I looked over at my white wall and I could see a
vision. I felt this amazing presence of love in my room, so overwhelming. I saw a beautiful
white vision and was suddenly acutely aware of angelic energy and a voice in my room
softly speaking these words:
“What goes around, comes around…be strong for there is no other good choice.”
I immediately felt a sense of relief regardless of what was ahead of me. I now knew this
situation in my life as a teaching moment and I was not to give in. Selfishly, I wanted to
hang on to this moment. I felt so safe. Regardless of what had happened, a peacefulness
came over me. I was allowed to detach from my present struggles. I sensed such love
around me and began to feel strong and acutely aware of truth. I was in tune with “the
higher self me”. It was not like anything I’d experienced before.
As I look back I remember another strange thing happening. A day or so later I was
leaving for my office and there were some workers doing yard work at my neighbors
property. I stopped to ask if they did repairs on retaining walls. Ironically, that was their
forte. Less than a week later, I had three strong young men repairing my wall for a fraction
of the normal cost. I also was more relaxed and decided to hold an Open House and met
a couple who not only listed their home with me, but wanted to buy a larger home as well!
I am not saying all my problems were instantly erased. What I am saying is from the
“vision in the room”, I flushed my fear fast. I relaxed. I prayed. I accepted the light of
Christ and felt at peace.
How often my mind had raced from one thought to the next. How often fear crept its ugly
head in and tried to cause havoc. Too often it was so easy to give in to a desperate, dark,
dismal moment. Yet, this is what darkness wants! Worry, stress and fear have to be
flushed from my mind with discipline. Quickly I put my hands together, “Help me Jesus”.
Quietly I begin to hear:
“You know, you’ve got this!” You can handle this moment IF Y O U truly trust!
I will NOT give up or give in or quit. Flushing the fear, I find determination for courage. With
faith I say to myself after prayer, “I did hang in there!” I will not fear my challenge.
Overcoming each stressful situation brings greater meaning to my life.
Focusing on one thing at a time, I feel protected. I trust in HIM. Worry ends where MY Faith
begins!
Can I face what I fear and choose to discipline my day?
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“Birthday Gone?” Blog #149
Do I understand I can never go back?
Can I find strength to start a “new page” today?
In my mind, will I substitute darkness for light now?
Today is my daughters birthday. She would be forty four years old today. Yet, she is not
here anymore. No matter how much I justify, rationalize or invent reasons to make life
different. Truth is truth. The cold, raw, honest truth stings….so I pray.
I understand less than I ever thought I did about life. I have many issues with family
members and those who I hold close in my heart, who are now so far away from me.
Labels we attach to people are what hurts. Yet, my own person feels needed strong
awareness of what I must address before year ends. This takes courage.. It’s time now,
time to start over and find a way to pick up premier pieces in my life. It is time to be
brave. Time to decide not to be with this person or that person who may pull me down.
Time to take the reigns and steer myself on to higher ground. So many of my own
birthdays now are gone. So many opportunities though, to see life differently. What have I
been absorbing about myself each and every day? There must be forgiveness for
myself first. Taking off the rose colored glasses, I see how critical it is to embrace painful
parts of my life where healing is needed. If I am truly in a place wanting to heal, then there
are absolutely no conditions. There is no area set aside for blame. There is no place for
the “what if’s”; no place for “only looking at it my way”.
I must start there. Each one of us, want to be loved, appreciated and respected above
all. Then God must fight my battles of unfairness, not me. Understanding this, I accept
eagles fly higher than crows do any day. Only a fool wants to continue to argue and
ignore peace. Even IF I am convinced I AM RIGHT, it’s better to seek peace. So on this pain-
filled birthday gone, I reflect for a moment.
I spend a paragraph on the daughter I loved with all my heart. My daughter who chose
darkness over light. I too was in darkness thinking I could help her, fix her, heal her. I
watched her go from one dilemma to the next, all the while, ignoring the giant elephant in
her daily life. She did not and could not and refused to see the light of her five year old son
and the light of her eight year old son. Rather day after day she chose drugs and alcohol.
In the end, she died alone in a hotel room of toxic alcohol poisoning. Three and a half
years ago, I remember going there on a sunny June afternoon, like it was yesterday. Her
beautiful sons are left behind to a life with one remaining parent who also has these same
dark choices to deal with daily.
Yet, truth is funny in an ironic way. IF I promise myself from this day forward I will only
speak the truth, am I prepared for repercussions? Rather, I dare pray for discernment.
How many people will be hurt and refuse to listen and strike back when truth is told to
them with only honest intent? Seldom does it work. often, the truth hurts too much.
People do not want other people telling them the truth about themself.
A great awareness this year. Sometimes the Universe wants us to just stay still. Know
when statements should be withheld. Discernment is critical to every day awareness. I
am going to pray today for three things in my life:
Discipline
Discernment
Detachment.
I now want to discipline my life with “Higher Self” awareness today. I pray for discipline in
every part of my life today. I choose to want to do “the right thing daily”.
I pray for “Discernment”. I desire the ability to discern. all situations. I want to view my
life with spiritual guidance and an understanding heart.
Lastly, I desire to have detachment. To be able to detach from emotional situations.
Sad things are out there I cannot fix, they wear me down. Although I need to see and find
and accept my lesson in these situations, I desire to be able to “look at my life through
“Jesus Eyes”. I want to turn off the emotional draining and view my life from a distance of
higher self perspective, awareness and love. I accept my first love is for my Creator, my
Lord Jesus. Then I do not become disappointed when earthly things let me down. I push
myself today to rise above my darkness.
We are in the Season of Advent. The first week of Advent reflects a great emphasis on
waiting. Waiting for the Birth of Jesus Christ: the main focus. Waiting each day in ones life
can be very draining or it can be healing. Someone might be waiting for that healing
telephone call from a family member. The waiting may go on for an endless amount of
days, weeks, years. I can call someone else who wants to hear from me. I can reach out
with love to another soul.
Someone may be waiting for an apology that may or may not ever come. Someone may
be waiting for their health to change for the positive. Now that is something each of us
can have some control over. Each day I must try my best to fuel the body with the
“Highest energy possible”. I have learned many ways and have access to many internal
tools. However, it can be a punch in the gut, a set back out of nowhere. If suddenly
another person is angry, hostile, unloving, what is hurting me the most right now? I step
back, take a breath and see this as a critical time. I MUST NOT GIVE IN. Using every higher
self tool, I PRAY 24/7 for courage, strength and the light of Christ to guide me.
IF I am waiting for others to change….God is waiting for me to change!
So with deep breaths coming and going, with prayer in place, I feel love in my heart. I go
forward…..I take on my NEW day. I send my daughter silent birthday wishes wherever her
soul may be. I say, “Happy Birthday honey, I will always love you. Your birthday celebration
may be gone from earth but your memory remains in my heart.”
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Can I look at birthdays’ gone and find new awareness now?
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“Truly Thankful?” Blog #148
Still dealing with personal pain?
Do I ask “Why did this have to happen to me?”
Am I learning the lessons that I have been given?
Thanksgiving has come and gone. When I look at my life, I have to say now, what am I truly
thankful for? So very many parts to my life have been overshadowed with heartache,
sadness and lots of pain. Ironically, I would not want to be the person who I was before my
major heartaches took place. I look at my life and I am still thankful. I look at my life and I
feel truly blessed. I look at all of my sorrow and loss of those people who were so dear to
me. Yet I am thankful for the good memories we shared.
There is not a singe person alive who does not experience some sort of pain and
heartache and sadness. I look at my father who was a tyrant in our family, a very real
mental and physical abuser and I might ask, “Why, why did I have to be born into this
family?” Yet - quietly, softly but firmly the universe answers back, “these are your most
important lessons to learn from”.
WHAT, I scream inside me…
How can there be any lessons here?
The universe once again speaks out softly, quietly but firmly.
“You are to learn many great lessons from this father. First and foremost you are to see all
the tools he used to destroy his life.” I saw immediately how the choices he made were
dark and dangerous and dismal for us children. However, as I grew, these too became my
choices. Choose good or choose bad. THIS IS HOW WE GROW INSIDE. Along the way
there are many detours, many escape routes, many dark tempting flags. I look back on
my own life and see my young brother, intelligent, funny and so kind…..barely out of high
school and smoking and vaping and damaging his mind and his body. No one could help
him. No one could rescue him. NO one could save him. The darkness and drugs had
taken over. First a little here and a little there, then suddenly the darkness hooked him. All
of his twenties wasted away. Yet, I am thankful for the early years. The memories I had
when he was healthy. I am thankful for all my remaining children who are scattered
across the country and hopefully will choose wisely. We live in such darkness now. All
around us are stores on every corner selling “bad things for the brain”. There is a very
powerful person who is out there right now in our country and I must say I really respect
how he raised his children. His belief was to tell them this:
“I will support you at every turn but you must promise me you will never smoke, never drink
and never take any kind of drugs. Then you are ready to take on the world”. All of his
children have watched him and listened to his advice and passed these words of wisdom
on to their children. This is my belief completely. Daily now I can only insulate myself with
good tools to take on my day. I try hard to live by example. I pray for strength love, and
light to engulf my family. I pray for them to have courage to “JUST SAY NO” when
temptation is their greatest. I am thankful for goodness, love and healing that comes to
me daily when I pray for it. Mostly because I know this - I believe LOVE is the strongest
force in the universe. Nothing is stronger. Love will defeat evil at every turn. When I don’t
understand “why this is happening now”, I quickly put my hands together and say, “Thank
you Lord for this lesson that is being given to me to learn from”. What matters most
regardless of my age, right now, is this:
“What am I learning about myself today?”
I am going to play a little game for a moment and ask myself this question:
‘What IF everything that happens to me in my life - is there TO TEACH ME THE LESSON I
NEED TO GROW FROM RIGHT NOW?
No one ever said life is suppose to be easy, working hard on self brings success.
I might have a family member who moved away from me, what is my lesson to learn?
Well, there are a lot of messages here. “Tough love” for one of them. Forgiveness and
fortitude for another. And above all unconditional love.
Every person is in charge of their own being. Each person is given Free Will. I have free will
to build myself up or to tear myself down. It’s completely up to me. I can try my best to
show my children good habits, honest intentions and to be goal orientated. Yet IF there
are vices along the way that keep them stuck. We…
You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make them drink!”
Life is all about learning every single day ONLY what I am open to learning about my life. I
believe if I have a health problem there is much to learn about. What is going on with my
body? Am I eating the right kind of food? I need to not just survive but to THRIVE? Am I
getting fresh air to restart and “refresh my entire being”? Do I pray daily for help? In order
to become truly thankful I must always ask, “What am I suppose to be learning from what
just happened to me”? Then I go quietly inside of myself and ask this again. How can I
grow from what has just happened to me? Every time I do this, I grow stronger and
stronger and stronger. I then become aware of my “true self” and my real power surfaces.
For added empowerment when I sit quietly I see myself surrounded by a brilliant white
light. I ask again, “Why is this situation happening to me? Suddenly my anxiety turns to
peace. I feel peaceful without questioning. For I know in my heart, this too, shall pass.
So as today comes to a close, I remind myself of what I am truly thankful for, My life. For
learning lessons will never end. If I am alive, there is a lesson to be learned. I trust in my
higher self. There is no one else on this planet like me. Every soul wants to at long last be
found. I thank JESUS I am finally finding myself. I can stop looking back, stop blaming and
stop being angry at other people. I can say this time and mean it, “As each day goes by, I
am thankful for the lessons I have been given”
“What am I choosing to be truly thankful for today?”
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“Lifetime Rules” Blog #147
When Belief goes out the window, doubts and cynicism rush in…so watch out!
Do I doubt myself in all the good things I could accomplish today?
Have I sabotaged myself into thinking ”what’s the use”?
How much fear do I face each minute and not even realize it?
One of the main reasons so much crime is created in our country today is because of the
lost belief in the “ONE who created us”. Pessimism is rampant, despair is everywhere, and
people continue to refuse to have faith. We live in the afterglow slowly fading of our
forefathers faith as it rapidly diminishes. Ironically every dollar bill and every coin traded
for goods has the explicit words written, “In God We Trust”. Why can’t we understand this?
Being a Christian in the U.S.A. up until just a few years ago, was taken for granted. As
recently as the 1990’s 90% of adults in the United States identified as Christians. But today
huge numbers of adults are switching out of the religion where they were raised to be
“unaffiliated”. Whatever that means! Why bother going to church when it is an
inconvenience and there are better things to do, right? The biggest problem with this
rationale is church continues to be a powerful place that brings a person into harmony
with Jesus. Daily living in ones home and outside the home have too many escape routes,
too many diversions, too many ways to avoid finding personal faith in Jesus Christ. That
being said the number one rule for my life is making HIM my main focus and number one
priority, day in and day out. Then I commit one hour a week to going to church because I
feel it brings balance into my life. I will add in an old saying here, “try it…..you might like
it!” As the calendar clicks off the days of the month, we are coming up on the last six
weeks of this year. I would like to incorporate some of the most important rules for my
lifetime of living now. I have put together twenty four of my rules and today I will focus on
twelve of them:
MY LIFE AWARENESS LIFETIME RULES
Daily I ask God to Forgive me for anything and everything I have ever done to harm any one in any way. I forgive all others for hurting me in any way.
I will try to love myself and others unconditionally today and going forward.
I control my own life. I will never turn my power over to another person or let another person control me.
Every day I learn something new. Learning brings me awareness, power & insight.
I let myself be loved by those who care. I allow love in and feel love each day.
I bring balance into my life daily. I give my body balanced activity daily.
I go easy on myself. Every day I set realistic goals that I can succeed at.
I create my own life. I can ask for help, yet, in the end I listen to “my higher power”
I seek to find work that satisfies me and rewards me and challenges me.
I live in the present moment. The past is gone. life is lived in “light of God only”.
Bringing new healthy experiences into my life is something I aim toward.
I keep moving forward regardless of life challenges, I stay Christ-centered.
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These are my important lifetime rules which I have incorporated into the very
fabric of my being. In doing so, I feel safe. In memorizing these rules, I feel
balanced. I stay on track with a daily plan; I feel energized. So today I
leave you with this last comment about lifetime rules, “don’t ever quit”.
Never, ever, ever. DO NOT QUIT LIVING A HEALTHY, HONEST, CHRIST CENTERED LIFE.
Here is a wonderful favorite poem I share with you now.
“DON’T QUIT” BY Edgar Guest
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
when the road you’re trudging seems all up hill,
when the funds are low but the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must…but don’t you quit!
Life is strange with its twists and turns,
as every one of us sometimes learns,
And many failure turn about,
when we might have won, had we stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
you may succeed where ever you go.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt.
You can never tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far.
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,
Its when things seem worse that you must not quit!
CAN I FOLLOW THE RULES AND ASK FOR HIS HELP TODAY?
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“Health ALERT!” Blog #146
Can I clear my head and sit in silence today?
Does my body and my mind crave discipline?
Am I alert to living a holistically healthy life?
The other day I went in for my annual physical and something my Doctor said has stuck
with me. He said, “I see so many people every day who are on a myriad of medicines, over
weight and daily depressed.” He said, “yet….they eat poorly, they do NOT exercise and they
have no plan to change how they live, so I can’t help them with that!” I listened quietly and
agreed with him. Thinking about this more I feel I am of this belief: “it is not how long I live
that matters, but the quality of “how“ I live my life each day that matters! Then peace
of mind will come naturally.”
Somewhere in the world right now, there is a small town with a few thousand people who
have pretty much figured out the secret to living a balanced life. Here, in this town,
hundreds of individuals have already reached the ripe old age of one hundred! They walk
around and live life looking like they are sixty and feeling healthy too! Sickness is rare.
Stress takes a back burner. The sun shines more than it does not and the main staple of
food for these people is rice, beans and corn tortillas. Oh yes…. and exercise daily with lots
of walking. Now working well into a persons nineties is just something that is taken for
granted. Most of the people who are approaching one hundred, look forward to each and
every day. There are no televisions, radios or cell phones. The average home has a few
rooms. The average family has a mother, father, their children, grandparents and great
grandparents, all living together happily under the same roof. People who live in this town
go to bed when the sun sets and rise when the sun comes up. There is a lot of fruit grown
and a lot of fruit eaten. A couple times a month a chicken is butchered to add to the rice
and beans and tortillas. Dinner is eaten late in the day and many stories are told as the
day winds down before the sun sets and the last hammock has stopped rocking. People
in each family care about one another and the wisest words of wisdom are shared by the
elderly and revered by the young. This is a place where all is right with the world. There is
little to worry about and less to fear. Here the people are healthy, happy and content in
their small town of Nicaya, Costa Rica. The people who are already one hundred years old
and beyond are treated with overwhelming kindness. There is little stress here, and most
of all people share a beautiful secret, these people live lives with a strong sense of
purpose. Feeling needed, they want to contribute to the greater good of each of their
families. They also drink a lot of hard water that has high concentrates of calcium and
low rates of heart disease! These people eat light dinners very EARLY IN THE DAY and then
relax.
Elderly not only live with their biological families and extended family but they get frequent
visits from their neighbors who story tell with much laughter throughout the day. They
believe the more a person has possessions in life, the more a person has to worry about
and watch over them. In so my words, a simpler life is an easier, less stressful, healthier life.
Now if I were to decide to incorporate even a few of these great “life lessons” into my own
life, I could and would and should be much healthier.
People who live in Nicuya are a quiet, reserved faith based people. They do not talk about
it but they live it. Believing in a higher power (God), they love their neighbor as themself.
They work hard each day for the meager food they eat and are so thankful for everything
they have. No one takes their health for granted, but seem to automatically understand
that “less is more”. There are so many lessons we can take away from the Costa Rican
culture of the people who live in Nicuya. Scientists and researchers have studied these
amazing people who live on a tiny little peninsula in the Northern region of Costa Rica. Still,
after many years, there are so many mysterious parts to their culture. Yet one thing is
sure, with no radios, no televisions and no cell phones, they keep themselves busy without
boredom day after day and live to be very old and very healthy. There is much
opportunity to find stillness and in the quiet of ones’ heart, one learns about what is really
important in life. Perhaps the takeaway I leave you with today is how easy is it to simplify
our eating and living habits. It’s important to learn about what resides in my heart. These
people have more time for quiet solitude and in doing so, discover untapped potential in
the very core of each of our beings. Jesus Christ has given me a unique character with
opportunity and intelligence to become all that I can try to be regardless of my age. I
pray, asking for direction now. Immediately feeling the hand of God rest quietly upon my
heart. I know HE helps me, shows me and guides me in the highest divine direction. I am
at peace.
Mother Theresa said it best when she stated:
“People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered, forgive them anyway. If you
are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives - be kind anyway. If you find
serenity and happiness, they may be jealous, be happy anyway. The good you do today,
people will forget tomorrow. Do good anyway. “Give the world the best you have, and it
may never be enough. Still, give the world the best you’ve got anyway.
You see in the final analysis, it’s between you and God, It never was between you and
them anyway.
Is there a health alert I can correct with prayer today?
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“Afraid of….?” Blog #145
What scares me today, can my brain figure it out?
Can I stop being a coward and have compassion for myself?
How do I learn about “being afraid” and change it into courage?
Experts suggest that the human mind thinks any where from 60,000 to 80,000 thoughts in
any one day. So if that is true, how do I STOP sabotaging all my good thoughts and where
do I find myself getting courage to try anything new?
Years ago a famous movie came out called “The Wizard of Oz”. This movie was all about
Dorothy. Dorothy is caught up in a tornado in Kansas and hits her head and falls into a
deep sleep. She is a young girl who was trapped in a “dream state of mind” and loses her
way home to Kansas. In her dream, she learns quickly about good and evil. For she meets
the Good Witch of the East who tells Dorothy she must go to the Emerald City of Oz to find
her way home again. Dorothy meets up with three friends all of whom are lacking
something important in their lives.
She travels with the Scarecrow who needed a brain and wants intelligence! She travels
with the Tin Man who was made of metal and has no heart and so lacks compassion.
Then there was the Cowardly Lion who just wants to be “brave” and needed to get rid of
his fear and find some courage! Yet, the best part of the entire movie was toward the end.
Dorothy and the scarecrow and the Tin Man and the Cowardly Lion all go to Emerald city
to find what each of them feels they are missing. When they finally got to Emerald City
they had to over come their fear and face Oz. Dorothy managed to pull back a curtain
(this is a great metaphor for the “curtain of life which is often so deceptive). She pulls back
this huge curtain and finds a little man who “appeared to be’ a frightening, fearful,
dragon-like monster and yet was nothing more then a “made up machine orchestrated
by this little old man! The entire showcase of fear based sensation was all a ruse! Nothing
more to it than a made up machine. How much of our fear is actually like that as well?
This movie was made in 1939 = over 85 years ago and the message is still loud and clear
FACE YOUR FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY. F E A R. FALSE EVENTS APPEARING REAL.
Now what do you think the point of the whole movie is?
“Use your brain and care about yourself to have compassion and inner courage so you
can overcome your fear”…this was the message!
Dorothy was to meet the Good Witch and take on the Bad Witch. That’s enough for me to
know this suggests there are good angels and there is darkness. There is good and bad
and I always know that nothing can harm me IF I do not allow it to. I will always choose
good in my life. At the same time, part of my being afraid can come from over-thinking
situations as well. Going over and over something in my head until I manage to jump to
all kinds of unpleasant outcomes, all kinds of conclusions, all because of being afraid to
see something in a different “light”. So many times what I am afraid of never does turn out
to be what I thought it was going to be! Plus it’s time now to let go of all the things I could
not possibly “fix”, let go of whatever I was afraid of. It’s all okay. Today ls filled with brand
new opportunity to choose “Not to be afraid….”
There is always something challenging each one of us. We must face each and every day
with an inner calm and decision to do this while being “unafraid”. Some people are afraid
to meet new people. Some people are afraid to try something new. Some people are
afraid to travel. The biggest step forward is in MY CONTROL. I can make a “step by step
plan”, and then I can practice “mindfulness”. This is grounding myself with deep breaths,
put myself in the present moment by walking through the entire situation. Maybe I can
find a person to trust and share “what am I afraid of….”. The more I face what I am afraid of
today, the healthier my life becomes with strength, purpose and clarity.
It takes discipline to listen to myself talk about “what I’m afraid of…?” When I am able to
acknowledge this. My life gets more relaxed, easier to deal with each day. Every person at
one time or another imagines the worst about a situation, yet usually somehow those
fears never really materialize. More often than not, things turn out much better than one
would expect.
For setbacks are unavoidable, but “giving up” is unforgivable!
I have said many times in the past - I remember to rely on my internal weapon of
strength. this shows me how to face “me” and be unafraid - So prayerfully, I speak,
“help me now, Jesus”. Immediately, I am lifted into a higher state of mind. Daily now I
continue to pray for courage, clarity and compassion for myself and others too.
“Can I identify what I am afraid of today?”
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“Angel Help?” Blog #144
Will I be able to navigate for myself when the “unexpected” happens?
Is there a lonely part in my heart, that waits for HIS light to come in?
How do I know I have a Guardian Angel that is just for me?
Today is “All Saints Day” (Celebration of all the Saints known and unknown). Isn’t is ironic
how All Saints Day follows Halloween?! Saints and Angels are all over us today. I believe
the most fascinating stories of miraculous encounters have to do with angels. I also
believe every person has a Guardian Angel and they only have to sit quietly for a
moment, reflect, pray and ask, and then most often, the Guardian Angels name will come
to them! My guardian Angel is with me always and when I need help the very most -
miracles occur. First and foremost, we have to admit we are totally surrounded by
miracles we cannot see. So many people do not realize when their Guardian Angel is
trying to get their attention and they come to them in dreams. Dreams can be in-depth
conversations with your angel or visions of past situations and even warnings. For as long
as we existed, it is a known fact that children and animals are likely to see a spirit guide.
Then as we grow older and hardened, we dismiss any idea of something that we cannot
concretely see with our own eyes. It is important to pay attention to your “gut feeling” pay
attention to your “Intuition”. These resources tell a person IF it is right or wrong to go
forward with the next plan of action. On the flip side of that, ever have something happen
that makes the “hair stand on the back of my head and I say to myself; “that’s a bad idea!”
I believe that when I get a stronger relationship going with my Guardian Angel, I can begin
to hear the “voice of reason” so much more clearly. One of the most beautiful parts to a
Guardian Angel is they have access to the Akashic Records. This is a library of vibrational
energy going back to the beginning of time. We are here on earth to learn our lessons
and to help other people. So often we get side tracked. So often we feel isolated. So often
we feel we are all alone with no help out there. This becomes a lonely arena inside my
own heart. Most of the loneliness comes from resisting the help of Jesus Christ. There will
always be a price to be paid for going in our own way. We are then constantly tested.
Constant setbacks. Continuous unseen ways to try to get our attention to “turn around
and make the choice for HIM”. We have it all at our fingertips. Yet for some reason the
pride takes over and the inner conflict and refusal for HIS help is put in place.
In order to get in contact with Jesus Christ and my Guardian Angel, I need only sit quietly,
put my hands together and ask for help - now. It is so important that little children are
listened to when they want to tell their stories about heaven that they remember. For, if
they are not guided and helped to incorporate Jesus into their daily life - it becomes too
late. By the time they are five or six years old, they forget.
One of the greatest questions people want to ask their Guardian Angel is this: “How can I
be happy on this earth?” Very quietly the voice of reason speaks internally and says: “You
can be as happy as you want to be”.
A fascinating true story was told about little three year old Johnny: His young mother
states, “I was putting my three year old son to bed, when Johnny asked for a good
bedtime story. For many weeks we had been reading adventure books about colonizers
and soldiers and great warrior leaders. As I started to read another book, Johnny stopped
me and said: “No, tell me a story about Grandpa Robert.” I was really surprised because
this was my grandpa! I had never told him a single thing about this man. I could not
imagine how or where he had ever heard his name and he was only three years old. On
top of all this, my grandpa had died over twelve years before I had even married, so his
name had never come up in our home. I said to my son: “How do you know about
Grandpa Robert?” My son smiled up at me. “Well Momma”, he said reverently, “He was the
one that brought me to you on earth”.
Babies and little children tell beautiful stories about the heaven they came from, when we
are open to hearing them. These beautiful stories about angels are real and waiting for
us to believe them.
Angel help is overflowing with unconditional love for each one of us today.
Every day we can ask for help with absolutely anything and angel will do their best to steer
us in the right direction - always whispering help IF we are open to it. However, remember
the Caveat, We came to earth with our own Free Will. God and all HIS angels will never
interfere or intervene in our life, unless and until I DECIDE TO ASK FOR HIS HELP.
I have many of my own stories that I know are miraculous in nature. I have felt the Holy
Spirit come right through me and knock me over. I have met ordinary people who I
happened to meet “by chance” and now know they were angels walking on earth at that
exact moment to help me in my time of need. There have been amazing sightings and
situations and stories that have happened “out of the blue” when I least expected it, yet,
now looking back, I always had prayed for HIS help first and no matter what, ANGEL HELP
SHOWED UP.
Can I take a moment and ask who “MY Guardian Angel” is now?
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“Key to Life” Blog #143
More heartache happen?
Feeling weak, filled with fear?
Standing on the brink of sudden sadness?
I decide to pray and internally, quietly hear, “don’t just go through it, grow through it!” Put
those shoulders back and hold that head up high. You are not a quitter. You are not
created to just be defeated. You are created to overcome all your difficulties! Now feel it!
Feel the most powerful force in the universe warming up inside of you. For I, Jesus Christ,
AM right here by your side and I AM not leaving you, ever! ANY problems you face, we face
together.
It’s just ME giving you the power of “choice to choose”.
DO YOU GIVE IN or, DO YOU CHOOSE TO GROW?
When I heard those amazing words, I knew I am always protected.
Still, living day to day, I am beginning to see that I do not grow when I complain about
things in my life. However, lately there has been a new growth level to each situation I
encounter. I AM NOW AWARE. I look at my life with out the “poor me glasses on.” Instead, I
feel incased in a “power-filled, insulated armor of spiritual steel protection”.
MY INDIVIDUAL PROBLEMS SHOW ME HOW TO GROW POWERFUL INSIDE ME.
I keep remembering over and over - I do not grow in the good times. I only grow in the
difficult times when I am challenged to push myself and understand that I AM SO MUCH
BETTER THAN I REALIZE I AM. I AM SO MUCH STRONGER THAN I FEEL. I AM SO MUCH MORE
COURAGEOUS THAN I BELIEVE.
By staying with HIM in the worst of times, the darkness will not stop me. So mentally it does
not matter if someone is angry, tries to hurt me or darkness surrounds me, I can face my
fear head on with a spiritual spine of steel. I will get through this and there will be a better
tomorrow. I am becoming mentally productive.
NO MORE POOR CHOICES. POOR CHOICES KEEP ME STUCK.
For Jesus knows everything I am going through. There is nothing wasted in my life. All the
good, all the bad, all the sadness, all are needed for my internal growth. This brings me
day by day closer to HIM. This is where I find the KEY TO LIFE.
I call HIM - JESUS shows up.
There may have been times when I want to throw in the towel, but I see now that my
problems I managed to solve, took me up and over the darkness and they will again! Just
going through that bad break, or horrific set back and so much sadness have shown me
an internal integrity I did not know I have. My set backs no longer define who I am, they
have helped me grow strong. I see know that as long as I am alive, there will be days with
problems.
However I have found the KEY TO LIFE…JESUS.
“MY problems have strengthened me. By praying and staying with Jesus in the worst of
times, HE has brought me through all the darkness. HE will never leave me. Only Jesus has
the final say to my life. For HE holds the KEY to my Life.
Can I pray for an understanding heart today?
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“Don’t Give Up!” Blog #142
No person feels more alone in life then when darkness fills every thought.
All around can seem hopeless, empty and worthless… yet this is MY signal!
At the darkest time, comes the greatest growth, IF I open up to it.
Did you know that our world generates about a billion tons of garbage every year? Every
day about three million pounds of solid waste garbage is dumped into Cateura. Many
families exist out of pouring through the garbage to find food to eat. There is a place in
the world called Cateura, Paraguay. In Cateura the children are so poor, they have to play
in garbage dumps to get their entertainment daily. This is a true story about a people
who turned trash into music for everyone to hear about all over the world. These are the
facts about the garbage picker, a music teacher and a group of children who didn’t give
up but desperately wanted to learn, even though they lived in a dark, desperate
Paraguayan slum of poverty, waste and pollution.
These young children had a man who helped them learn beautiful music. Now they were
a testament to the transformational power of music and the resilience of the human spirit.
This true story was made into a documentary, “LANDFILL HARMONICA”.
Truly a remarkable group of young people who found a way to transform garbage into
musical instruments. When their story went viral, their orchestra became a global
sensation overnight. They suddenly were transported into a new phenomena of arenas
and “sold out” concerts all over the world! Favio Chavez, guides the recycled orchestra of
children. These children play instruments made entirely out of garbage!
Fifteen year old Tobias plays a saxophone made from a drainpipe, melted copper, coins,
spoon handle, cans and bottle caps. A young teen girl plays a violin made out of wooden
spoons, bent forks and old cans. Their cello has an oil drum for its body. String pegs are
made from old cooking utensils and even the heel of a worn out woman’s shoe.
As the children became more and more famous around the world, they have become
respected and that is everything, said their conductor. “They now need to get an
education because along with self respect, that is something sacred.”
Isn’t it amazing how something “triumphant can be made out of trash?” One persons
garbage is another persons treasure! How inspiring it is to see trash turned into music
and now played for people around the world. All because someone cared enough to
make a difference.
Today is the day to see my life differently. To see all the sadness, all the pain and all the
set backs as growing opportunities to be all I can be from a higher self perspective. Today
*I AM no longer intimidated by MY past. I am no longer afraid of the future. So that brings
me directly in place for the perfect present moment. Therefore, right now I am going to
play a game with myself for this next week. I am going to tell myself that every single
thing that happens to me is FOR A PURPOSE OF GROWTH ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. KNOWING I
ALWAYS GET TO CHOOSE A CARD. WHICH CARD WILL I CHOOSE. “The poor-me” card or the
“grin and bear it” card? Keeping that thought in mind, there is a way to keep out intrusive
thoughts by telling myself “nothing can ever harm me if I don’t allow it to”. So quickly I
surround myself in the Light of Christ. Then I add the powerful affirming statement.
“I will be in the world, but not of the world. I am discipline, discernment and
detachment”
Now There is nothing against me, I hold ONLY to truth. All things happen to me today for
my higher good.
I feel Jesus is here with me at this moment.
HE waits for my words to share my greatest need. No plans of giving up, or giving in, or
staying stuck. I think, “Lord you know what’s in my heart, you know where I struggle and
you know where I need to be pushed. Help Me. I will not give in, I will never give up, never,
ever, ever.”
Can I take this moment and speak honest words I must tell HIM now?
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“Defy Darkness” Blog #141
What sneaks in and depresses me now?
Do I “just settle for whatever” today?
How CAN I find a “higher self” mentality?
From the time I was a little child, I knew the difference between right and wrong. I
definitely had examples given to me. Yet, in the people around me - I see now, how I
continued to make excuses for choices I made. How can I better myself? Years ago I
remember being in junior high school. I lived with my Grandpa and Aunts in a big old
house that felt safe. A couple of blocks away lived an Italian family with three sons and a
daughter. I became really good friends with the daughter. In fact, I envied her because
she dressed so well, had gorgeous black hair and perfect skin. Always thinking she was
favored as the only girl in the family, I was shocked years later to discover the truth. This
girls father would only spend time with his sons. Regardless of what his daughter did, she
was ignored in the family. He also was known to be a tyrant. Shortly after high school I
heard she moved out of the house to work and live on her own. Sadly, she got into the
wrong relationship and became abused by her boyfriend. People say she just wanted to
fix him. Nothing she did could prove herself worthy to her father. So she poured her heart
into her boyfriend and he started to abuse her. Petrified of what her father might do, she
moved out of state with her boyfriend, only to have the abuse intensify. After a few years
of such a horrific relationship, he cast her aside and she moved back to the only city she
knew bruised and forlorn. Talking to other friends, I discovered this decision cast a black
cloud on her life and she went from one abusive relationship to the next. I remember also
liking a boy who was extremely good looking, athletic and kind. He seemed to be fairly
smart in class when he was called on. In tenth grade he started to notice me and told me
one day he had discovered something that made him feel “on top of the world”. He
walked home from school with me and we talked. He shared how his parents traveled a
lot and then left him alone to figure things out. We talked about why he was choosing to
smoke weed and how nothing in his life gave him such a good feeling as being high. He
had given up football and had different friends now. Later in life friends shared with me
how he died tragically of drugs at a very young age. I remember many of my own
choices growing up and people I brought into my life. Now looking back, I see various
people I chose to get close to had huge problems that did not seem to matter to me. I
also felt drinking, smoking and partying were a big part of life.
Sometimes it does take an event of such magnitude in ones one life to want to go in a
different, healthy direction and bring positive change. However, it also can be a simple
choice of “wanting to live healthy, safe and at peace. Through prayer for me, an
awareness comes into place and a new direction is ahead. Simply said, “Help me Jesus,
please”
One of my most profound teachers in higher self awareness showed me an important
truth. He was an amazing older gentleman who was a therapist by profession. He told
me, “Normal people are boring to you, it’s the excitement of the the dysfunctional roller
coaster that keeps you going back to these people.”
In my world at the time, this was “jaw dropping”. I had parents whose only priority were
themselves and seeing to their daily addicting habits. Because of this, they failed as
parents. They did not give their children a healthy, moral, safe upbringing. We owe this to
our children if we are parents. For twenty five years, until I was married and out from
under, I swore to myself that I would never have people in my life like that. But even then,
did I really believe this? NO, my internal attitudes my personality and desires for what I
“Felt” were right choices, had already been formed. Some things have to be unlearned.
When we are so set in our ways that we have blinders on - WE CRASH.
How true is the statement, “You can run, but you can never hide from yourself”?
Whether I moved to the East coast or the West coast, it mattered not. I still always had
choices to make for who I felt needed to be in my closest inner circle of influence.
Three quarters of a century have come and gone and I am still here, trying to figure out
life day by day. If someone asked me “what is the greatest lesson you’ve learned”? I
would say “I seek Jesus daily. HE shows me my Body is the Temple of God, so be kind to
it - be kind and non-judgental to other people, learning my lessons daily”. I have no
need for drugs, smoking or drinking. I try to find ways daily to be the best version of my
higher self. I can hope to be with no regrets when I leave this earth. Every person comes
into someone else’s life for a reason. This may be good, or it may be a test. Yet, it is
always up to me to find my “higher self purpose” now.
IF I am depressed, sad or lonely regardless of my age, I can reach out to someone less
fortunate. How can I do this? By giving of myself. By showing love to another less
fortunate human being.
Today I was in the store getting a pair of shoes for my son. My husband was with me and
started talking to a man waiting patiently next to him. This man had just lost his entire
home, all his belongings and everything he owned in a house fire. Up to that moment I
was caught up in the material world of “what to buy for my son”. My husband reached out
to him and we both felt better. Reaching out to someone who is isolated, alone,
compromised by health issues. Reaching out to a person in a nursing home, ask for those
who are alone - reaching out to foster care child, even with sending a letter. Asking to
pay a visit. This past summer I visited a nursing home where some of the people living
there had never got a single visit or call from any family member. Every person wants to
feel needed. Each of us want to know someone cares. There is so much we can do IF we
really want to stop thinking just about ourselves. I can defy the darkness around me by
focusing on another human being in desperate need! When I choose to do this, a dark
veil of depression is lifted. Years ago Mother Theresa was approached on a NYC street by
a journalist. He asked her, “How can you keep doing all this when all around is more
misery, killing and disease? Don’t you somehow find it so futile?” Mother Theresa was a
tiny little elderly nun by now. Her kind searching eyes smiled up at the gentleman and
said,
“One person at a time”
When I am kind to myself and others, I feel the hand of God gently holding my hand.
Can I do something for someone in need today?
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