“Flush Fear Fast” Blog #150
What am I worried about right this second?
Are my priorities consistent with my highest health?
Can I get out of my way today and let HIS light take over?
When it comes to disciplining my life, that’s where I truly need help the most. If I can
recognize my own weakness, I can learn to love myself right where I’m at. Why am I even
talking about discipline right off the bat? More than anything else what do I fear day in
and day out? Discipline in my life helps heal my life regardless of who I am concerned
about, regardless of what else is going on, regardless of setbacks.
By disciplining this moment, then comes the hour and the day and the week. Suddenly a
month of discipline and finally a year! I cannot hide behind other vices any more. Maybe
fearful of something happening in my family, maybe there is a health issue, maybe money
problems every where I turn. Yet, do I choose to hide behind the fear of pills, drinking,
drugs, self harm? Am I ignoring to pay my bills, refuse to start a budget therefore I will
keep falling behind? So continue the saga of sadness I absorb the “illusion of fear”. FALSE
EVENTS APPEARING REAL. Immediately I can turn this around.
If someone I know is ill, I can show up with my best attitude and live “for this day”, not just
for me, but for them! Realizing I don’t have yesterday and tomorrow is not here yet, I only
have this beautiful day. IF there are financial issues, I tell myself, “I will find a new way, a
new opportunity, a new direction to go.” I must remember to keep instructing myself over
again.
“THIS TOO WILL PASS. GOD REALLY DOES HELP WHEN I TRY TO HELP MYSELF.”
So often getting caught up in the “What if”....what IF this happens and I can’t fix it? What IF
a person close to me is suffering and I can’t help them? What IF everything around me is
caving in, and I don’t know what to do? Well, I DO KNOW WHAT TO DO…. I START WITH THIS
MOMENT. FLUSH AND DISCIPLINE ONE THING AT A TIME. I PRAY FOR HELP AND GUIDANCE. I STAY
QUIET IN SOLITUDE AND LISTEN TO MY HIGHER SELF DIRECTION. So often the “lower self me”
(the little me) refuses to climb up inside me. I must climb up internally to the “Higher self
me” WHO wants and knows and must be in charge!
Many, many years ago I was alone at Easter time. I was feeling sorry for myself and the
more I thought about how bad my life was, the worse it got. My mind was racing and I
went from one terrible scenario to the next. I was convinced the universe had it in for me
and just when I walked into my kitchen for some water, I looked out my back window.
Witnessing my entire stone retaining wall had collapsed, I stood frozen in fear. Rain, mud
and dirt were flowing toward the back of my house and into my window wells! At the end
of the rain storm, there lay a massive stone retaining wall completely collapsed with mud
and dirty water all over my backyard. Water had also seeped down Into the lower level of
my house. I was alone at the time and did know what to do. My profession was in real
estate at the time, and had also just lost a big sale on a house where I expected to receive
a big commission. I remember looking up at the sky and saying to myself, “what’s the use…
everything is caving in around me, why does it matter?” I went up to my bedroom and laid
on my bed and cried. Filled with rage, I screamed out to God, “why, why do you have to
have it in for me?!”
Then a very strange event happened. I looked over at my white wall and I could see a
vision. I felt this amazing presence of love in my room, so overwhelming. I saw a beautiful
white vision and was suddenly acutely aware of angelic energy and a voice in my room
softly speaking these words:
“What goes around, comes around…be strong for there is no other good choice.”
I immediately felt a sense of relief regardless of what was ahead of me. I now knew this
situation in my life as a teaching moment and I was not to give in. Selfishly, I wanted to
hang on to this moment. I felt so safe. Regardless of what had happened, a peacefulness
came over me. I was allowed to detach from my present struggles. I sensed such love
around me and began to feel strong and acutely aware of truth. I was in tune with “the
higher self me”. It was not like anything I’d experienced before.
As I look back I remember another strange thing happening. A day or so later I was
leaving for my office and there were some workers doing yard work at my neighbors
property. I stopped to ask if they did repairs on retaining walls. Ironically, that was their
forte. Less than a week later, I had three strong young men repairing my wall for a fraction
of the normal cost. I also was more relaxed and decided to hold an Open House and met
a couple who not only listed their home with me, but wanted to buy a larger home as well!
I am not saying all my problems were instantly erased. What I am saying is from the
“vision in the room”, I flushed my fear fast. I relaxed. I prayed. I accepted the light of
Christ and felt at peace.
How often my mind had raced from one thought to the next. How often fear crept its ugly
head in and tried to cause havoc. Too often it was so easy to give in to a desperate, dark,
dismal moment. Yet, this is what darkness wants! Worry, stress and fear have to be
flushed from my mind with discipline. Quickly I put my hands together, “Help me Jesus”.
Quietly I begin to hear:
“You know, you’ve got this!” You can handle this moment IF Y O U truly trust!
I will NOT give up or give in or quit. Flushing the fear, I find determination for courage. With
faith I say to myself after prayer, “I did hang in there!” I will not fear my challenge.
Overcoming each stressful situation brings greater meaning to my life.
Focusing on one thing at a time, I feel protected. I trust in HIM. Worry ends where MY Faith
begins!
Can I face what I fear and choose to discipline my day?
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