“Truly Thankful?” Blog #148
Still dealing with personal pain?
Do I ask “Why did this have to happen to me?”
Am I learning the lessons that I have been given?
Thanksgiving has come and gone. When I look at my life, I have to say now, what am I truly
thankful for? So very many parts to my life have been overshadowed with heartache,
sadness and lots of pain. Ironically, I would not want to be the person who I was before my
major heartaches took place. I look at my life and I am still thankful. I look at my life and I
feel truly blessed. I look at all of my sorrow and loss of those people who were so dear to
me. Yet I am thankful for the good memories we shared.
There is not a singe person alive who does not experience some sort of pain and
heartache and sadness. I look at my father who was a tyrant in our family, a very real
mental and physical abuser and I might ask, “Why, why did I have to be born into this
family?” Yet - quietly, softly but firmly the universe answers back, “these are your most
important lessons to learn from”.
WHAT, I scream inside me…
How can there be any lessons here?
The universe once again speaks out softly, quietly but firmly.
“You are to learn many great lessons from this father. First and foremost you are to see all
the tools he used to destroy his life.” I saw immediately how the choices he made were
dark and dangerous and dismal for us children. However, as I grew, these too became my
choices. Choose good or choose bad. THIS IS HOW WE GROW INSIDE. Along the way
there are many detours, many escape routes, many dark tempting flags. I look back on
my own life and see my young brother, intelligent, funny and so kind…..barely out of high
school and smoking and vaping and damaging his mind and his body. No one could help
him. No one could rescue him. NO one could save him. The darkness and drugs had
taken over. First a little here and a little there, then suddenly the darkness hooked him. All
of his twenties wasted away. Yet, I am thankful for the early years. The memories I had
when he was healthy. I am thankful for all my remaining children who are scattered
across the country and hopefully will choose wisely. We live in such darkness now. All
around us are stores on every corner selling “bad things for the brain”. There is a very
powerful person who is out there right now in our country and I must say I really respect
how he raised his children. His belief was to tell them this:
“I will support you at every turn but you must promise me you will never smoke, never drink
and never take any kind of drugs. Then you are ready to take on the world”. All of his
children have watched him and listened to his advice and passed these words of wisdom
on to their children. This is my belief completely. Daily now I can only insulate myself with
good tools to take on my day. I try hard to live by example. I pray for strength love, and
light to engulf my family. I pray for them to have courage to “JUST SAY NO” when
temptation is their greatest. I am thankful for goodness, love and healing that comes to
me daily when I pray for it. Mostly because I know this - I believe LOVE is the strongest
force in the universe. Nothing is stronger. Love will defeat evil at every turn. When I don’t
understand “why this is happening now”, I quickly put my hands together and say, “Thank
you Lord for this lesson that is being given to me to learn from”. What matters most
regardless of my age, right now, is this:
“What am I learning about myself today?”
I am going to play a little game for a moment and ask myself this question:
‘What IF everything that happens to me in my life - is there TO TEACH ME THE LESSON I
NEED TO GROW FROM RIGHT NOW?
No one ever said life is suppose to be easy, working hard on self brings success.
I might have a family member who moved away from me, what is my lesson to learn?
Well, there are a lot of messages here. “Tough love” for one of them. Forgiveness and
fortitude for another. And above all unconditional love.
Every person is in charge of their own being. Each person is given Free Will. I have free will
to build myself up or to tear myself down. It’s completely up to me. I can try my best to
show my children good habits, honest intentions and to be goal orientated. Yet IF there
are vices along the way that keep them stuck. We…
You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make them drink!”
Life is all about learning every single day ONLY what I am open to learning about my life. I
believe if I have a health problem there is much to learn about. What is going on with my
body? Am I eating the right kind of food? I need to not just survive but to THRIVE? Am I
getting fresh air to restart and “refresh my entire being”? Do I pray daily for help? In order
to become truly thankful I must always ask, “What am I suppose to be learning from what
just happened to me”? Then I go quietly inside of myself and ask this again. How can I
grow from what has just happened to me? Every time I do this, I grow stronger and
stronger and stronger. I then become aware of my “true self” and my real power surfaces.
For added empowerment when I sit quietly I see myself surrounded by a brilliant white
light. I ask again, “Why is this situation happening to me? Suddenly my anxiety turns to
peace. I feel peaceful without questioning. For I know in my heart, this too, shall pass.
So as today comes to a close, I remind myself of what I am truly thankful for, My life. For
learning lessons will never end. If I am alive, there is a lesson to be learned. I trust in my
higher self. There is no one else on this planet like me. Every soul wants to at long last be
found. I thank JESUS I am finally finding myself. I can stop looking back, stop blaming and
stop being angry at other people. I can say this time and mean it, “As each day goes by, I
am thankful for the lessons I have been given”
“What am I choosing to be truly thankful for today?”
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