“Making Life Work” Blog #21

Every second of every day a different feeling, thought and idea comes into mind.

We continue to cloud our minds with music, tv, the internet and of course all the

people that are around our daily spectrum.

Sometimes we see that life is so hard we want to bandage it.

We find people with even more problems and addictions and substitutes for feeling all

that we are given to “FEEL” on a daily basis. I started to ask myself a long time ago, what

am I so afraid of? Why did I have to medicate myself with alcohol more and more?

Ironically, why were my problems increasing instead of being held at bay? My using

anything to try to “fix my own internal pain” was not working, not working at all. When I

am super down and depressed, taking a pill to relax or a drink to unwind, does not work

for me. There will never be just one pill. There will never be just one drink. I see that and

I understand that I have to “feel these feelings”. I have to deal with the whole of me

every single day. I know that radio and the air waves are saturated with commercials

going over and over, pushing meds. “Take your meds, everybody’s on them.” This does

not work for me. I know that if I have HIM in my life and every day I can focus and

meditate and pray, my life works. I come into balance. I am at ease with where I am.

So I say to myself, “I AM PEACEFUL”. I can feel my life working for me today.

We all have constant reminders of the past and things we did not do the way we

we had intended. Life is filled with complications and different “side tracks” that can

easily distract us, confuse us and put us down a dark and difficult and different path.

Purposefully, this is why I am trying to focus on “making my life work well”. I am

constantly giving myself “affirmations throughout my entire day”. Also, I keep

reminding myself lately that all I HAVE IS TODAY. I have gone back and looked at

many of the painful past situations that happened to me. Now of late, when I have

chosen to experience my life with clarity and sobriety and truth, the pain is less

intense. I can feel these feelings. I know I must feel these feelings. It’s only when

people decide that it is “too painful to endure”. I must take something, I must find

a substitute for my pain, I must “not feel” ….. Is this WHY so many people say I need

pills/alcohol any and all kinds of stimulants, so there is no “feeling’?

I have figured out that the “feeling part of life” is yes, painful but able to be

endured “cold turkey”. We can look at where our decisions have taken us with

clear vision and choose not to go down a dark, dangerous, dismal path of isolation.

There is a different way that is less painful. When I was drunk or when I was high, I

thought I’m escaping my problems. But I was not.

Standing alone by myself, I see that there are absolutely “NO SHORT CUTS”. Life is given

to us for two reasons. We are here to learn our lessons and we are here to help other

people. The more we learn the sooner we can go on to the next healing lesson in life.

Fortunately, life does not have to be filled with such pain. Remember when I told you

last time how you can look at your life the way you view channels on a television set?

You and you alone can change the channel constantly. Maybe family members are

getting the best of you, and you can’t take it. Maybe inside your own world, today it

seems overwhelming, no way out. Maybe someone close to you appears to be verbally,

mentally hurting you.

There is an immediate way out of this. Change the channel.

STOP focusing on what you know you cannot internally fix!

Stop seeing life in such a dark way.

I could spend the rest of my life, the whole rest of my life, just focusing on

all the bad, all the sad and all the enormous heartache that has befallen me.

However, what in the world would be my outcome?

I chooses to go forward and find my path. I choose to grow from all my past setbacks.

What in the world would I gain from all this negative energy I am wallowing in?

So I choose to change the channel. I choose to find something good I can

do each day with the person or persons around me that need my good energy!

I choose to be helpful to someone near and dear to me that needs my help.

I choose today to “LET GO” of all the pain and sadness and heartache I personally

cannot control. Just by thinking this, just by telling myself this, just by saying

this over and over, I take on a clean slate. I rid myself of all the delusion that I think I

need to somehow focus on this past dysfunction and try to fix it. I cannot fix it.

People for the most part know that their feelings are an integral part of who they are.

Feelings are important to identify the pain. How I FEEL about something is huge!

Feelings are not to be forgotten, but rather FELT and acknowledged for the purpose

of healing. Healing emotionally is critical in every persons life.

I understand now and I accept the fact that my feelings are not fear based any longer.

All my feelings are recognized by me as often as I can feel them, accept them

and let go of the pain that is present and not helping me move forward.

I have absolutely no desire to block my feelings.

I have absolutely no desire to “NOT FEEL”.

I have absolutely no desire to stand in the way of my emotional growth.

How I feel about life every minute of every day is important to ME.

Cleansling my life of past thoughts that kept me in bondage to my feelings

is weary and draining.. How I felt about someone or something or some situation in the

past is exactly that. People that live on their feelings hurt the people around them.

IT IS ALL IN THE PAST.

If we are to grow spiritually and emotionally and physically in a healthy way,

we must be able to acknowledge our "WHOLE SELF”.

I pray daily to HIM because this keeps the fear away.

I pray daily to my LORD because this brings me balance.

I listen and pray and accept all that HE has intended for my life to make it

work in a healthy, honest, happy way.

I choose to feel all my feelings today and do this with a clear mind and no

drugs or alcohol or stimulants to erase the pain or not let me feel.

This way of making my life work - works for me completely.

As I close today I ask you quite simply is it possible you too want to feel

your feelings with a clear mind and healthy body?

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