”Here & Now” Blog #17

There are times when we wish we could just check out. Times when we feel

that there is no way we can go forward with what we are carrying. There are

times we feel ready to give up. How many of us have been there? All of us

can say yes. I believe that each and every person is here today because of

the sum of their experiences in their life. We become stronger, better and

more loving because of where we have come from. The past is in the past.

The future is not yet. We only have the here and now.

I remember a time when I told myself that my life was headed in the right

direction, I just needed to sell one more house to get one more thing that

I needed at the time. I remember how important I felt my cherished children

were to me. I remember believing that the way I looked at life was perfect.

There is a funny saying: “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.”

So often we want to put the cart before the horse, so to speak, and just

have it our way. The universe is directed by HIM. The unseen force of it all.

We are only alive and here and in the now because of all the lessons we

need to learn for our own separate growth.

I understand pain now. I understand loss now. I understand sadness now.

However, it is only through these overwhelming emotions, that we reach

out and want to learn about our “higher self”. We reach out and want to

know “why” things happened the way that they did. We try to know HIM,

usually in a selfish way, more often than not as a 911 or an SOS.. One day

when I was in a hurry to sell a house, my children were at school and I was

completely lost inside. I felt empty. I was trying to recover from what had

happened to my Mother and trying to find a way to just accept this. I had

stopped at home for a brief moment because my head was hurting and I

was going to rest. While laying down on my bed I heard a beautiful voice

speak to me. I will never forget this. “Your mother had her own path, she

had her own free will and there were lessons that only she could learn from.”

I tried to understand this. Yet, part of me was still so bitter. Whenever I

would start to think about the past sadness, I just worked harder in my

real estate to try to forget. Yet, as I said before, I did not have the tools

and it was only when I put my hands together and asked for HIS help.

Miracles began to happen in my life.

I went downtown with a ticket my neighbor had given me to listen to Depak

Chopra. I was leaving in the middle of him talking because I got nothing out

of it. When I was in the lobby ready to leave, a complete stranger touched

my shoulder. I had never seen him and he did not know me. He had the

kindest eyes. He spoke”. “I hope you are enjoying this as much as I am,” he

said. I thought how could he know what pain I am going through? I turned to

walk away. then he spoke again. “You know, I lost my wife and four daughters

in a house fire. I am so thankful they chose to give up their lives so I could

learn the lessons I needed to learn.” With that, he patted my shoulder and

disappeared into the crowd! With hundreds of people there, how in the world

did he just appear there before me?

What had he just said? Oh my God, was he serious…. I was so overcome with

emotion. His story struck me. I ran out to my car thinking I needed to finish

the wine I had left on the floor and think about what he just said. However, I

got to my car and burst out crying. I threw the cup of wine away, never to

want to drink again.

What IF what he said was true? What if each and every one of us has free will,

coupled with the lessons we are each given to learn from?

For the first time in my life, the bitterness was fading fast.

For the first time in my life, things really did make sense.

For the very first time in my life since experiencing such pain, I felt a sense of

relief. I drove home that night at peace. I did not need to quiet my mind with

anything outside of prayer. I went to bed and for the first time I trusted in HIM.

I can see now that I am here and alive in the here and now to do exactly

what I came here to do. I need to learn my own lessons. I can only share

with you today, like every day, we are each given our own lessons to learn

from. We can accept this, or push them away. Yet, I guarantee you there are

always going to be lessons to learn from. Our family becomes our greatest

teacher. As I leave you today, I ask you this, “Can you accept your lessons

you have been given and turn to HIM in prayer?”

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