“Wet Strength” Blog #117
Today, is my heart colder than yesterday?
Inside me, will I go deeper than I’ve gone before?
Right now, do my tears define weakness, or strength?
The sun can be shining, the weather warm and no real health issues today to deal with.
Yet, is there an emptiness inside me? What is it that keeps on bothering me? I can’t get
away from it no matter what I do; all those thoughts. Thoughts never go away when its
time for relaxing, or resting and of course sleep. No wonder so many people feel that
need to “zone out” and grab sleeping pills. At some point though, the mind DOES come
back to itself and “we must deal with what is upper most on our mind; those worrisome
thoughts. Someone once stated and the Bible confirmed,
“share your troubles with another soul”.
Then, apparently the burden begins to lift. However, when the tears are pouring down,
when the heart feels like breaking and the mind will not rest from worry, what to do? All
alone and not know what to do? Yet, I DO know what I do.
First, I believe my tears are healing. Tears are a way of cleansing the heart. Tears are also
kind to me. In my mind, tears have a way of talking quietly to me,
“Enough now, You have your own attention, tears let you learn that lesson and move
on. You can let that go, or come back later and try to work it out….”
I heard somewhere a while back, an interesting observation about a life, it’s important to
learn about oneself”. This is not a strange statement put forth. However, if I stop to think
about it….I’m always learning about myself if I but just pay attention. I know what I like to
eat and not eat. I know what drinks appeal to me. I also know I cannot any longer “drink
hard liquor” or I will want the bottle. I know foods that appeal to me and foods I wouldn’t
touch. I know people who are kind in nature and not judgmental, I like them. I know what
kind of television shows I like to watch and not watch. I know what people in my life am
drawn to and those who frustrate me beyond belief. I know things about myself no other
person on the face of this earth knows. I also know who has hurt me, who has let me
down and when was the last time I cried. Am I ready?
Tears so often come to bring strength. When our emotions are overwhelmed and our
bodies are numb with sadness, fear and pain. Tears come and come. When someone
has hurt me in ways I cannot deem possible, tears can come. When I have tried with all
my strength and all my might and all my will and still someone continues to let me down
and hurt me more each day, tears come. Yet, in all those sad tears, inner and outer wet
strength develops. In all those tears I can find a new spiritual path, a stronger will and
a mightier inner faith because I agree now, I CAN LET GO. I can turn things over to HIM.
HE takes control. HE’s got my life now and I no longer feel all alone, I have HIM with me. So,
I will not walk alone. I hold tightly to HIS hand and HE keeps me standing tall!
I remember awhile back when a friend of mine told me she had an unbelievable scare
because her nephew had asked to meet her and share a statement that caught her off
guard. Her nephew was a kind, good hearted young man with grades that got him
through college. He and his sister had been brought up in Calf. in a very secular, non-faith
family. Now her nephew was about to take a job in another city after graduating from
college. My friend eagerly met him for a good-bye lunch. After lunch they took a walk in a
park. It was here she heard him say, “When I leave you today, I have decided to end my
life unless you can give me a reason for living”. My friend was speechless! She asked her
nephew to sit down on a bench beside her. Quietly she told him in a few words, her own
reasons for wanting to live! Yet, first, she asked him a question, “You don’t know right now,
any more than I do,what exactly happens to yourself when you die, do you? So that puts
us at 50/50 odds. Her nephew sat there, sad tears pouring down his face as he nodded
his head. She put her arm tightly around her nephews shoulders. “However, she went on,
in my Christian faith, it’s a sin to take your life. IF you knew right now you would suffer
gravely for that one act alone, you just might think again.” Then she told her nephew,
“more people than you could ever believe, have had that thought. If you can find it inside
of you to just hold on and ask for help, Internal, invisible, infallible help -
A HOST OF ANGELS WILL COME WITH HELP RIGHT NOW.”
HE IS HERE FOR YOU. HE WILL ALWAYS HEAR YOU. JESUS WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU.
My friend said they both were crying. She watched her nephew, as his tears became so
hearwretching. She sat closer, held him tighter as he spoke to her, “No ONE has ever talked
to me like this before!”
I thought about all the things my friend told me that day. It is now years later and her
nephew DID go on to take that great job in another state, for which he is very successful.
He also become a Christian and attends a Presybtarian church. A couple years later, he
married and now has twin girls! Look at the lives my friend help save all because she
believes. I believe too. I believe if you feel sad, or lost or alone in any way today, if those
tears swell up inside you, if sadness has become too much, it’s okay. It’s all okay. I
continue to believe my tears are a washing away of the old, weak, limited me.
I now firmly say, “These tears have become wet strength, all because of HIM inside of
me”.
Can I feel strong now, with HIS help coming into me today?
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