“Trouble w/Who?” Blog #101
Spontaneous thoughts come and go…..from where?
How do I navigate my life each and every day?
Is there true goodness behind what I say and think and do?
God knows I try right? But sometimes it doesn’t seem to matter - all the chips fall in the
wrong direction and its just so damn hard to get back up, start over… cope….
I must try to remember this:
Every second of every minute of every day…..I can change what I am thinking.
Even though this is a brand new year, let’s face it, we still have the “stuff” we are dealing
with today. I still have all my worries and all my fears and all my hopes for a better
tomorrow! Even IF it doesn’t turn out the exact way I want it too. Herein lies the rub, I pray,
right? WHY don’t my prayers get answered right now?
Because it has to turn out, right? It just has to turn out right, right now! It’s just so hard to
try and search really deep. To keep looking inside, hearing nothing, and then try to find
those tools anyway that will take me out of all this darkness! Can I keep on looking?
Inside somewhere, I know these tools will allow me to finally let go of all that “control stuff”.
All the ways a “False voice of darkness tells me to turn away”. Telling me “I don’t need
anything else because only I should handle this”!! The “Me and the I” keep getting in my
way all the time. How in the world can I find a safe way to navigate out of this?
Desperately needing an easier way, a better strategy, a fresh start!
I have to admit: IT”S PRETTY DAMN HARD TO JUST SHOW UP FOR MYSELF.
SHOW UP AND ADMIT WITH HUMILITY, THE RAW, UNABASHED, REALITY OF WHO IS ME?
Why have I been so arrogant to think that I am the one with all the “bright ideas’ when I
am the one that got me into this “mental fix” to begin with. It’s so hard to just sit still and
try to slow my brain down, so much easier to just turn on some noise.
Well, I must admit, my random racing thoughts have showed myself just how futile the old
tapes have become. Not just futile, but frustrating and fearful even to a point where I lay
in bed, wide awake, playing this scenario and that scenario over and over again, with no
end in sight. I keep beating myself up with dark thoughts, scary dreams and night terrors.
Now understanding that truthfully, honestly and seriously; THERE IS NOTHING THERE. FEAR IS
NOT REAL. LISTEN CAREFULLY, FEAR is this, “FALSE EVENTS APPEARING REAL.” So it is my
responsibility to REPLACE ALL THOSE OLD TAPES. GET RID OF THEM. GARBAGE.
I PROMISE MYSELF THIS NEW YEAR I WILL LEARN MORE ABOUT the Bible. LEARN AND remember
AND live these wise Biblical readings:
John 16:33 “I have told you these things, so that in ME you may have peace. In this world YOU will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world”.
And this wonderful one,
Timothy 1:7 “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of POWER and of LOVE and of a SOUND MIND.”
And finally this most inspiring one,
Phillippians 4: 6 -7 “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be known to God, and the peace of God which passeth all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
These are powerful truths from HE and HE alone. There is nothing to fear when we take
this information in and process it and believe and live it. Then and only then does it work
in my life one day at a time. I leave you tonight with this wonderful favorite of mine,
written years ago,
“When I stand before God at the end of my life,
I would hope that I would have not a single bit of talent left
and I could say:
“I used everything you gave me.”
erma bombeck “GIVE - LOVE- LAUGH””
“Sleep peaceful?“
Today I ask myself can I trust in HIM and go to sleep peaceful?
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