“Echo of Guilt” Blog #79
Can’t I just go back and fix a few things?
Why do thoughts from my past still haunt me?
How can I erase guilt hanging heavy in my heart?
The most beautiful part of living is the gift of a new day.
Knowing this, we can start over.
I was once told that wherever I have been in my past, at that time, I only had the tools to
deal with each situation then. No more, no less. Think about this. If I only had the tools I
needed then! Yet, that was then and this is now. I cannot go back, ever. I cannot fix,
replace, redo anything out of my past. This is the guilt that echoes on into the years.
I had times where I lay in bed at night and go over and over and over, things from my
past. The reason is simple, I seem to believe and think it actually helps. The only way my
life can be benefited by any thought I dig up from my past is with one purpose only,
FORGIVENESS. I can forgive myself. I can forgive others. THEN, I must move on. No matter
where I am, where I have been or where I am going, I am right where I am suppose to be
now. When I am fully aware of real truth, I find my authentic self.
There is not a person alive who has not felt the pangs of guilt. The cruel mental rub. The
echos of guilt from yesterday can destroy a person’s well being. Each and every one of
us have our own separate idea of how we want to live truth. Who is there for us that
shows us love and wants to depend on us? Who is there for us regardless of what we
have done to hurt them? Who is there for us when all things in our life seem to be caving
in?
Finally, after all the guilt I have carried about not saying the right thing, not doing the
right thing at the right moment and above all, not always being honest with my own
feelings. The key to removing my own past guilt is simply put.
I am learning to understand forgiveness.
There is only one force in all the universe that can give us what we need. HIS love. Each
day goes by in spite of what we decide we want or don’t want. When we finally discover
that no matter what we do, life is just not working for us, then HE gets our attention big
time. Why? because there is nothing left. Where are we suppose to go when our life is
not working, it’s a scary thought. Do we wake up and go to bed at night feeling at peace
anyway? Not a chance. If we are not at peace, Why Not? Somewhere in there, in the
way back of our mind, echoes the sound of guilt. Nothing can change our thoughts
except HIS peace, HIS love and HIS forgiveness. When we attach ourself to this truth.
Relief leaps in. Suddenly, life is actually much simpler than I have ever allowed myself to
believe.
I have started to worry and fear less. I have begun to slow my thinking down. I look at life
in much less fearful fashion. NOW my days are more accepting I have found over the
years that my selfish misunderstanding of life has taken me down one long path of
disappointment after another. This is when I put all my faith in the secular world. Why?
Because when I was younger I believed this is where my happiness lay. Faith is funny that
way, it’s so darn hard to believe in the intangible. Its so hard to believe in what we cannot
see. Yet its because of that, that which we cannot see, that causes us to search internally.
This then brings us hope. Then hope gives us courage and courage gives us strength.
We need the inner search for strength to develop our faith in the unseen.
The unseen hand of God.
Only by our trials and errors do we change. There can never be light without darkness.
In our past, IF we experienced guilt in any form, this then teaches me about myself.
As I learn about myself, I learn about my true self. I can go inside me and feel the light
of Christ show me the way forward.
Bad habits are made to be broken. Mental habits of “going backwards in guilt” must stop
for me today. I can concentrate on the goodness of all that is around me and stay
focused on today. I now know and understand and accept that anything and everything
that has come into my life is there to “teach me internally about myself”.
Today is my chance to let go of the guilt and feel HIS holiness forever.
How can I turn off the echoes of guiit?
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