“Really Stuck?” Blog #180
Do I think I have the answers to my life problems?
Why must I stay in this “one way” of living IF it’s not truth?
Can I find courage to try to get to a higher place now?
How have I endured a great despair? Have I closed up certain parts of my heart?
Today I am going to talk about myself and share a little story. I feel there is a small miracle
entwined in this story, but you decide. I have been very angry for a long time at a certain
person and closed the door and shut down my heart to any relationship with them. The
other day I was praying for the ability to discern, find forgiveness and go forward - start
over with a clean heart. I decided I would write this person a TEXT. When I read the text to
my husband he was adamant about my not sending it. He shared with me his reason was
“the text still was filled with angry emotion”. I did not agree with him. I myself, became
upset. However, I took my own advice which I so often have shared. I prayed on this Blog
about it. I put the text aside and decided I would visit it later. I went about my day. Later in
the afternoon I was checking my voice messages. There was a message from the minister
who had married my daughter thirteen years ago. Out of the blue he said, “something
came into my mind to call and check on you and her and see how things are going?” He
had no idea she had died four years ago, at such a young age.
I shared it was because of toxic alcohol poisoning. I went on to share a lot of my pain I
was going through and especially my anger at a certain person. He listened to me and
shared his perspective from a higher level of understanding.
First he shared this, “Our time here on earth is our testing ground. When we leave our
time spent on earth - we go back home, where we came from.”
As I sat on my phone listening to his words, I realized as much information as I have
gleamed about love, and forgiveness and truth. It all goes right out the window when my
own pride, arrogance and stubbornness try to take center stage. It’s easy to find ways to
rationalize and be angry and STAY STUCK in my own little life story. Now I don’t believe
the Polly Anna approach to life is for everyone we touch. I know there are some people
who are out there on this earth that are defiant. They are determined to live in darkness
and find diabolical ways of justifying their lifestyle. They do not want to believe in Jesus
Christ and they want to remain OF THE WORLD. This is for them. Each and every person
has been given “Free Will” and we must choose. So this is what give me my character and
my integrity to see it through.
Do I choose light or dark each day I am alive?
I believe God sends us angels. He sends us people who are divinely connected to the
spirit world and bring us help IF we are open to this help.
My phone rang with a message from this minister out of the blue. This is a day when I was
“really stuck” trying to find a way to repair a relationship that will be important to my life
going forward. I had to find a way to repair this. It was really eating me up. Anyone can
read this and say; “Oh, that was just a coincidence”. I believe when we open our heart to
help from above - God sends in his angels directly to us through others. There are people
of God walking this earth today.
I finished my conversation with the minister and he reminded me of all the things I had to
experience in my life, how important it was for me to “take the high road”. Never judge
another human being. For but the grace of God, we do not know their pain and affliction.
Nor do we know what they are going through in their private life. We can pray for this
person. Pray they can find a way to inner peace with Jesus Christ.
The minister reminded me no matter what I am going through, I have to get back up and
start over with my faith, fortitude and stay fixed on the knowledge that at the end of the
day what matters is between me and God. Other people who appear to keep me stuck
are only my tests along the way. Don’t stay stuck. get back up and see them as not a
road-block, but a “golden door of opportunity”,
I relished each minute of our conversation. I thanked him for his call and I looked up, I
looked up into the sky, knowing this was not a “coincidental call” but definitely orchestrated
by God. I said a little prayer and did the right thing. I used my words kindly to resolve a
delicate, angry seething situation. Amazingly, my text reflected love and I was able to
overcome my anger in unprotected moments. God healed a heavy sad situation by
sending me “help” in a personal, profound, peaceful way. I accepted this.
Can I find the words to stay unstuck today?
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